Tragedies unite, tragedies enlighten. Maybe it's not a lie that ignorance is bliss—but maybe just the knowledge of knowing makes us stronger. I watched as you fought, as you put yourself in such danger without contemplation. I watched as you ran headfirst into situations that could easily end your life, with desire only for rescue. Of course, I was there beside you much of the way, but when have I ever really known you?
When you try your best but you don't succeed
A constant letdown…a constant failure; and what have I done for you? Too late did I discover, as your black locks fell into your pained eyes, just what I had missed.
When you get what you want, but not what you need
Everyone…everyone you'd counted on, finally accepted into your life as a mentor, is leaving you. And I can't even comprehend that it's happening.
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
You've gone from isolation, and I was so proud when you began letting others in. This can't happen to you…not my best friend. Everyone is leaving you. Again.
Stuck in reverse
You, so strong and powerful, my picture of bravery and strength, are not made of iron. And one of these days you were going to break, and let your façade fall.
And the tears come streaming down your face
I know how much the mere prospect of leaving your home excited you, even to move in with a stranger. He was the only one you would ever show weakness in front of.
When you lose something you can't replace
You glowed under his protectiveness, as you protected him as well. The affection between you was so strong, so fast. You needed each other. You need him…and I can't give you what he could.
When you love someone but it goes to waste
The extremity of your contempt for pity keeps me from letting my tears for you slide down my own crimson cheeks, at least until I am alone. You are a warrior, but not a god; and all that you've suffered has affected you. I know it has. I have to know at least that, or I've completely failed you—just like everyone else.
Could it be worse?
All I want is to run to you, wrap my arms around you and never let you go. I will make up for all I hadn't seen…should have seen. Should have known. I will show you where to be.
Lights will guide you home
You may never be the same now, and this I know as well. This I hope…because if your eyes are any indication, you are extremely hurt. If you are the same later on, I'll also know that absolutely everything has been an act. And how much of your suffering am I actually aware of?
And ignite your bones
I'll always be there with you, and you'll never fall again, for I'll catch you before you do. I'll whisper safety in your ear, and maybe someday you'll trust me. Real trust.
And I will try to fix you
And now that I see beyond the shining emerald, your eyes hold more than life. They hold death, and hardship, and wisdom that shouldn't wise you. I'd seen this one happen, too, but what agonizes is that I recognize the submission behind your defiance and anger.
High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
Together we'll be power. We'll be true power because we will mutually heal each other, and I will make sure you never have to go through this again.
But if you never try, you'll never know
Just what you're worth
I watch again in my mind's apposite shadows as he falls through the veil…so swift and simple. So destructive. I will show you what life is. I will pick up the mess left by so many others.
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you