This fic takes place at the beginning of Eclipse. It's just my interpretation of what I wanted to see… I didn't like how Jasper was kind of glossed over and it leapt straight into Edward's reaction.

I own nothing, all characters belong to S.M.

Please keep in mind this is my first attempt at writing anything fiction aside from assignments in creative writing in school… And enjoy!

JPOV

I felt the emotions in the room shift on a dime from joy, anticipation and a bit of embarrassment (the latter most likely coming from Bella as she was renowned for her aversion to being the center of attention) to what could only be described as pure terror and dread. Almost instantaneously I smelled it, reveled in it, completely helpless as the enticing aroma swirled around in my head. My eyes quickly began hazing over into tunnel vision until all I could focus on was the tiny pinprick sized drop of blood that had pooled on her finger.

Somewhere inside me, deep, deep down I began to fight with myself. The monster inside me raged, begging to be released; it had been so long since I had given in to his demands. In a last ditch effort I held my breath, only to realize that it was of no use, the damage had been done. With what fleeting willpower I had left I shot my thoughts out to Edward, "Please, do what you have to, I can't stop this…" before everything went completelyblank.

EPOV

I watched, panic stricken, as she slid her finger under the corner of the silver paper, just as I'm sure she had done countless times before. She pulled her hand back quickly, muttering a nearly silent "Oops!" as she did. The thoughts of my family seemed to have turned up in volume, making it nearly impossible to concentrate.

"What… Oh…"

"Isn't she going to open it? Wait… Did she just…"

"Stupid girl, can't she go five minutes without…"

But the loudest thoughts were at nearly a screeching level. First was Alice, if I hadn't been looking at her terrified expression I would have thought she were actually yelling my name. "EDWARD! Get her out of here, I'm so very sorry I didn't see it! Take her, RUN!"

Before I had even begun to comprehend what she was saying, Jasper's pained thoughts hit me full force, if I weren't a vampire I would have sworn they had knocked the wind out of me. "Please, do what you have to, I can't stop this…" I darted my eyes to meet his, just as the gold seemed to melt into a deep, thick black, almost as if the colour had been drained right out of them. I threw my arm back to push Bella behind me as I angled myself between the two. There were two resounding crashes, one from behind me and the next not a full second later as Jasper slammed into me, desperate to get to her, snarling and snapping his teeth just barely a centimeter from my face.

Alice, Emmett and Rose quickly wrestled him away, only making it a few feet before he began thrashing wildly in an attempt to escape their hold. Alice was almost instantly standing directly in front of him, trying to talk him down. "Jazzy, that's Bella. It's just a papercut Jazz, just… a… WE NEED TO GET HIM OUT NOW! EMMETT, ROSE, GET HIM OUT!"

Emmett and Rose began to drag him through the door, Emmett's arms wrapped around Jasper's torso, with Rosalie pushing from the front, dodging his snapping jaws and flailing arms as he fought tooth and nail to reach Bella. Alice had turned to look at me, her thoughts remorseful as she whispered, "Carlisle, get to Bella, she needs you." As she backed her way out the door after her mate, she fired her thoughts at me. "I'm sorry Edward, I can't… I need to get out."

I turned to see Carlisle bent over Bella who had been slammed into the wall, falling onto a glass table and crashing through it. Her arm had shards of glass protruding from all over, her shirt drenched in her sweet, tempting… STOP IT! I mentally berated myself. You love her, you love her, she needs you…

I snarled, the beast deep within me hell bent on defending what was rightfully my own. Carlisle could not have her, I had waited so long, denied myself the sweet indulgence she kept hidden within her. First Jasper had tried to take her from me, and now my father? I crouched, prepared to take what was mine, whatever the cost.

My inner battle was soon interrupted as Carlisle looked me in the eyes, sorrow and worry etched in his normally calm features. "Edward, get my bag, then you need to see to Jasper. He'll be beating himself up over this, you are the only one he will listen to." "You need to get some air, I can take care of her, don't torture yourself," his thoughts contradicted his words. He was silently giving me a way out, without scaring Bella any further. I could already smell the adrenaline pumping through her veins, her heartbeat nearly double what it usually was. "Go to him, Edward. Tell him I don't blame him, it was nothing. Please, don't torture yourself, I know this has to be killing you. Go, get some air, I'll find you when we are finished here."

Despite his attempts to hide my discomfort from her, she knew that I was battling with myself. She was fully aware that in that moment I was almost as much of a danger to her as Jasper had been, and she still worried more about us than herself. I sprinted up the stairs, bringing Carlisle his bag, and after whispering a quick "I'm sorry," ran out the door in search of my family.

JPOV

Once out in the fresh air my mind started to clear. I came to face down on the grass, Emmett nonchalantly sitting on my back and Rose pacing back and forth mumbling about how she had warned us all. Alice was watching her, trembling from head to toe, her eyes full of the sadness and disappointment I could feel emanating from her tiny form, but still glaring daggers at her sister. I hated making her feel that way, I hated knowing that I was the cause of her inner torment. "Let me up, Em. I'm fine, let me up," I said softly. He looked to Alice, undoubtedly to see if I were safe enough to be freed. She closed her eyes momentarily before nodding her approval.

I didn't stand up, but instead rolled onto my back and sat up, resting my head in my hands. "I tried," I whispered, "I tried so damn hard to fight it. I knew I didn't want to hurt her, but It just wouldn't free me. You have to understand, Alice, I never wanted to…"

"I know, Jasper, and so does everyone else here. Bella is in there right now, trying to get Edward to come out and tell you she isn't angry with you. She doesn't blame you Jasper."

"SHE SHOULD!" I bellowed, shaking with self-loathing and shame. "I don't deserve her forgiveness. I nearly killed her. It wasn't even an accident really. Part of me acknowledged who she was, what she was to our family, and didn't give half a shit about it. I felt her fear, but underneath it was her compassion. She felt bad about putting me through that, but even knowing she was worried about me, knowing how kind hearted and good she was, I still… If I hadn't been stopped…"

I jumped up quickly and ran towards the treeline, ripping a tree, roots and all, from the ground and launching it across the river. I fell to my knees and sobbed silently, my whole body aching for the sweet girl I had so heartlessly tried to destroy. I briefly wondered what hold she had on me, I hadn't felt remorse for any of the other countless humans I had drained. I quickly pushed that thought away, after all how many of them had I called my sister, my friend?

I heard soft footsteps coming towards me from the house, and knowing it was Edward I braced myself for the punishment I knew I deserved. I wouldn't fight back, wouldn't defend myself. I would take all he could give and welcome it, knowing it would never be penance enough for my many sins.

Instead he sat silently, gazing across the water, still as stone. It was nearly an hour before he broke the silence, and even then it was barely a whisper. "She wants me to tell you she forgives you. No, not even that. She wanted me to tell you that there is nothing to forgive." I glanced at him, not at all surprised that she would say that, but more than shocked that he wasn't pointing out just how wrong she was on the matter. I tasted the emotions surrounding him, expecting rage, hatred and disgust, but shocked when I found only sadness and something else I couldn't quite place… Determination?

"We need to leave. I can't stay by her side knowing the danger I put her in just by being there. All of us but Carlisle had to leave the room because of the blood… If it had only been her and I, if I hadn't been so consumed with defending her from you… With keeping her for myself…"

I looked at him, shocked and confused, not believing the conclusion my mind had come to. He had wanted to keep her for himself? No, that couldn't be true. He had only wanted to keep her alive, he loved her. This time his emotions were more scattered; remorse, sadness, disappointment and a huge dose of, yes, there it was again. Determination.

"So, we are leaving? What are you going to tell her? She will never let you go without a fight. I can feel it every time she looks at you, pure, unadulterated devotion. I can tell you are set on this, but have you taken into account her reaction? I don't see how you could get her to just sit back and watch you walk away. She already thinks she doesn't deserve you, if you tell her you are doing this for her, she…"

"She won't get a say in the matter," he said quietly, cutting me off. "She isn't concerned enough to care for her own well being, I'll have to do something to remedy that on my own."

So he was just going to leave her then? I could tell just by the set of his jaw that he wouldn't back down. After all the pain and grief I had already caused her, I couldn't let him just abandon her like this. I carefully kept my thoughts from him, trying to come up with a way to at least lessen the blow he was so adamant about inflicting upon her. She didn't deserve that kind of heartache, she would at least have some sort of comfort, I would be sure of it.

A/N:

This is my first fic, so be kind. I would greatly appreciate any constructive criticism you all have for me, I have read many fics but have yet to try my own hand. I haven't quite decided if this will be a Bella/Jasper fic or not, but I do know they will at least form a more friendly relationship, as their lack of interaction in the books always left me wanting more. There may be some Jacob thrown in as well, but there won't be the whole love triangle thing going on as I never liked how she strung him along only to break his heart. As I said, any suggestions are more than welcome!