I looked at him from accross the room, he's on the infernal laptop of his again! That thing really drives me insane, it gets all of his attention. While I sit here on the cold, lonely bed. It's not fair! It's like he loves that laptop more than he loves me! I sit here, on the bed, and glare at the back of his head. It's the same thing every night. I hate it, he ignores me all day, and all night, unless he's in the mood for a good fuck. Sometimes I think that's all I am to him. Just a 'Fuck Buddy' that he can use anytime he wants. He says he loves me, but I find it hard to believe, consider he *never* pays me attention. But then again, that's the price you pay for falling in love with the 'Perfect Soldier'. Sigh.... I just wish he would pay me some more attention. I don't give a shit if you're calling me a selfish bastard right now, I just want him to at least acknowledge me more than once of twice a week. I lie down on the bed, curling up around a pillow and clutching at the cross hanging around my neck. I silently pray to God. Okay I know I said I don't believe in him, but sometimes, I just can't help but pray. Slowly, I feel my body slip into unconciousness as my brain starts to shut down. Soon, I am in a blisful state of slumber.

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Heero turned around as he heard the boy on the bed fall asleep. He lets himself smiles slightly as he stands up and walks toward the bed. He gazes down at the boy and his hand unconciously lifts up the boys braid and starts to finger the end of it. Heero lays down next to the boy and cuddles up to him. He closes his eyes and gently wraps his arms around the boy, slowly pulling him closer so as not to wake him. Heero burried his face in the boys neck and inhaled the scent of lavender shampoo. "Ai shiteru.... my Shinigami....." Heero lets himself enter the same blissful slumber as the boy lying in his arms.