You have no idea how much my life has changed since the day I met you.
From the moment you walked into my life, calling out to me on that staircase as I was on my way to the senior commons, I knew that you were something special. But I never knew how much you would end up turning my life upside down and inside it, shaking me until I fell to pieces under your broken blue gaze.
I literally did everything for you. Did you know that? I bunked off classes to come visit you, driving for hours each day just to give you a hug and a latte. Just to see you smile.
I get the impression you don't smile all that much. Every time you do, you catch yourself almost instantly and straighten out your mouth, turning it into a wry smile. But with me, sometimes – just sometimes – I manage to help you keep smiling, and when that happens? When that happens, it's like sunshine is lighting up your face and causing your eyes to glow.
It's nice when you smile.
It's funny how much I would do, how far I would go to see that smile; be it facing up bullies when I never had the strength to do it by myself, or defying tradition and fighting tooth and nail to get you an audition for a solo, I amaze myself every day by what I would do for you. I hope you know that.
You do know that, right?
The thing is, I don't know if it's love quite yet, but I know it's going there. I can feel it every time you laugh, even though you constantly sound surprised that you even remember how. I can feel it every time your hand brushes mine when we're sharing popcorn at the cinema together. I can feel it every time we sing together – harmonizing with the radio in the car after an evening out or in Warbler rehearsal, where your clear countertenor cuts through the rest of the harmony like a blade of fresh air and Wes frowns at you. He's just looking out for the team, really; he rather likes you, when it comes down to it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...thank you. Thank you, for changing my life. Thank you, for making me see things in a new light, for making me hear things I thought that I'd forgotten to listen for.
Just...thank you.