Thoughts III: Music of the Sea
By SailorOnyxPluto
As I play my violin on the stage, the notes flow over, around and through my audience, as well as me, in a haunting melody that leaves anyone who listens to it at a loss for words. It is in these moments that I am able to completely lose myself in my music and not have to worry about the hand that fate has dealt me. However, that is not the case on this particular night because even the beautiful sounds that my instrument produces cannot drown out the thoughts that keep reminding me who I am and what my true calling is. I can play as much as I want, be it for myself or for an audience; it doesn't matter because at the end of the day, I am still and will always be a guardian of my princess. As I continue to release my musical desires, these thoughts keep penetrating my mind and it is always the same ones: what my life was like before I discovered I was bestowed by the sea.
I was the absolute definition of a free spirit when it came to music and the arts because I was able to do whatever I wanted and anytime I wanted. I was on my way to becoming a professional musician even though I wasn't even out of high school and my paintings were already being featured in galleries around the city, but unfortunately, none of it was going to go as far as I wanted it to. It was a shame really; I put my heart and soul into every piece of music I composed and every piece of art that I painted but it was all for naught in the end. My train of thought breaks for a few moments as I end my song and bow to the audience's standing ovation, but tonight will not have any encores; not because I don't want to but because there are other performers besides myself. I walk to my dressing room and shut the door as my thoughts continue their assault, screaming at me about my life before all this.
My life was extremely comfortable; I was born to exceedingly wealthy parents who would do absolutely anything to help me succeed at fulfilling my dreams. They sent me to all the best schools, encouraged my talents at every turn, and, unlike most rich parents, loved me for who I was and not who they wanted me to be. However, with everything going my way ever since I could remember, I always felt as though something was missing but could never figure out what that was. This feeling escalated at the age of thirteen when my paintings took a very dark turn; no matter what I did, they always came out depicting an apocalypse or the aftermath of one. After this went on for three years, I started to embrace the dark visions that were coming out in my paintings and that was when my life took a very drastic turn.
It was an extremely warm, sticky night in July and I was attempting to get some sleep, but it just wasn't going to happen; not tonight anyway. In a fit of frustration, I got up and very quietly went to the large kitchen to get a drink of water when I was confronted with an extremely bright white light that nearly blinded me. When it died away, there was a woman with very long silver hair, blue eyes, and she was dressed in a long white gown. She had a very gentle look on her face and a smile that was incredibly beautiful. She spoke in a soft voice and told me that I was faced with two roads in my life: one was the path I was currently on, and the other lead to a double life. Without waiting for my response she held out her hand and a strange wand appeared out of thin air, which she held patiently, now waiting for me to make my choice. As soon as I touched the wand, she disappeared and I was left standing alone in the dark, quiet kitchen, knowing now that my life as I knew it would only be a façade to the real world while I fulfilled my destiny as Sailor Neptune. I love my music and it will always be with me, but it is now the music of the sea.