Everything I'm Not, a maximum ride fanfic

AN: CA here once again…I really love writing songfics for Maximum Ride. So anyway. This is a song sung by Max to Jeb after he talks to her when the she is in the Dungeon with the Director. So yeah. Kinda confusing but I did my best. And the voice is underlined.

Disclaimer: This is so stupid and pointless. I mean seriously, if I were James Patterson I wouldn't be fooling around and putting things on this website. I would be publishing it so that CA doesn't come and rip out my spleen with forks. So because I am here and have a spleen, I am obviously NOT James Patterson. Thanks for thinking that I am so amazing though… O and the song is called Everything I'm Not by the Veronicas… sadly, I do not own that either… I am TYPING, NOT SINGING!

Claimer: I own the cheesy pasta I just ate for lunch. Delicious. Don't flame… actually flame if you want, constructive criticism is good, and flames are funny… but seriously, I would prefer nice reviews.

Great. Just great. Here I am, stuck in a legit dungeon. And my MOTHER put me here. Ugh, I cannot believe I am related to that complete HARPY. Ew. I wish Fang were here. Sigh.

…

I did not just think that, I swear! I swear! I can deal with this by myself. I don't need anyone… no matter how hot I secretly think they are.

Stop trying to delude yourself, Maximum. You are in love with Fang. Stop denying it or running away.

I don't run away! I fly…

Get over it Max. You might die soon. Just accept that you guys are soul mates and tell him before you all die.

Gee. Thanks for shedding such a happy light on this situation. I mean you couldn't just say…WAIT! SOUL MATES?!?!? HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN THIS??? HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME?????

Jeb is coming.

You ARE Jeb…

"Hello Max."

…

"I know you hate me but I just wanted to say…"

"That you are sorry for ruining my life over and over again?"

"I didn't…"

"Oh no, Mr. Perfect. You can't do anything wrong. But I can. You told me not to change, when I was little. Not to become just another droid of the School. Because you said I was perfect just the way I was. I'm sick of you." I opened my mouth and started to sing. It was something I heard on the radio once, and it just seemed to fit.

Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you were something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up

You know how true this is? The voice interrupted my in my mind. Shut up. Then of course Jeb broke in.

"I'm sorry Max. But it was all to protect you. No one can protect you like I can."

"That's a lie. I have Fang, and the rest of the Flock now. I don't need you. I don't need the person you've become."

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
'Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything,
Everything I'm not

"I'm not the girl who is going to save the world, Jeb. I can't do it. I can't do it the way that you and the School want me to. I am going to do it my own way. I don't need you to tell me what to do; I have been living and taking care of the Flock for years on my own."

"Max, just listen. You are the only one who can do it…"

"No, Jeb. I am sure that you will manage to create another Max. Maybe Max III? She'll do what you say."

Ugh. I hate him. He destroyed our lives, and keeps telling me that he needs me because 'I am the only one'. What a load of bullcrap.

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah, all by yourself
You're all messed up

Yeah, Jeb was messed up, too, all right. He's lucky to be alive, if you ask me. He wouldn't have all his limbs right now if I weren't locked up.

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
'Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
'Cause she's everything,
Everything I'm not

I can't save the world. Not like this. I have to do it my way, or no way at all. Jeb always gets in the way, with the stupid School and the stupid Erasers. They have kept me from being able to live a normal life. Like the one I had with Dr. Martinez and Ella. They have kept me from being happy. Not to mention the five other bird kids and talking dog that I had to take care of too.

"Please Max. I have the keys. Come with me. I can get you out, now that it is still dark out, so that you can have another chance."

Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't you get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
'Cause this is my life

I was not going to let some insignificant little nobody rule MY life. I am Maximum Ride. And the man standing before me was not the Jeb the flock and I had grown up with. This was not the man that I had called Dad. This was just another whitecoat who only cared about the fact that when I failed, he failed too. Not to mention that he had let his own son, who is SEVEN, be turned into a monster. Ugh. Poor Ari. But now's not the time for crying. I shook my head to clear it. No way was I going ANYWHERE with him. I would wait for Fang.

If I was going to die, I might as well die knowing that I had stayed true to what I believed. I would not sneak out with the help of Jeb. Trusting him has only ever caused problems, never solved them. I shook my head again, and watched Jeb shove his hands in his pockets. He quickly told me a lot of things, but I ignored him for now. Angel would tell me later. I waited until he started to walk away before quietly singing the last part.

But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
'Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
'Cause she's everything,
Everything I'm not.

Oh Fang, please, please hurry up!

A/N: R&R!!!!!!