This is my first Valentine's Day since Danny's death and I'm ashamed to say I'm not thinking about him. I loved Danny, I didn't think it was possible to love someone more then I loved Danny, but I'm learning now that I can. Michael Vaughn is beginning to make me forget the pain loves loss inflicted on me, and sometimes I think I hate him for it.

I sit here sipping this wine, letting its flavor and taste help me forget the problems in the world and even though it's Valentine's Day and I should be thinking of Danny I'm thinking of Vaughn. I don't even call him by his first name and I think I'm falling in love with him! I wonder what he'd do if I started calling him Michael, or Mike even? I mean calling him Vaughn just seems natural. When he hugged me it felt natural too, like that was the one place in the world I could stay forever and never want to leave. That makes me realize I can't and couldn't ever hate him.

So here I am, drinking wine and watching sappy movies about love thinking about Michael Vaughn. Nothing can happen between us, well it can but if anything did we'd both be walking the line between life and death. I would walk that line for him but would he walk that line for me? I like to think he would.