A/N: One shot in Ashley's POV. Spencer is done. Ashley isn't. Enough said.

Feeling my way through the darkness

Guided by a beating heart

I can't tell where the journey will end

But I know where to start

You asked me to leave. To find myself. I had no idea that it would mean never having you again. I watched you throw my stuff in a few garbage bags. You had enough. I asked for another day, another week, another year. You didn't want any of it. You wanted to find yourself again. I made you forget. You said we fell in love too young.

They tell me I'm too young to understand

They say I'm caught up in a dream

Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes

Well that's fine by me

I watched you drive away. Leaving me alone for the first time in what felt like forever. Leaving me with nothing but my bittersweet memories. I prayed to God every minute that you'd come back. That this was all a dream. That I was going to wake up from this terrible nightmare.

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

I tried giving you my everything. I know it wasn't enough, I know that now. At the time, it was all I had to offer. Life hardened me, and I let that get in the way. I tried taking all your pain, being the strong one. Never crying, but it never worked. I couldn't carry all the weight, and I started giving it to you. I had no idea how much stress you were in. How depressed and angry you were. How defeated you felt. I'm sorry I couldn't carry all the weight for you.

I tried carrying the weight of the world

But I only have two hands

Hope I get the chance to travel the world

But I don't have any plans

I just wish I could back a few months ago, and have my revelation then, instead of now when it's too late. I wish I could go back to when we first met, and tell you to run in the opposite direction. I wish I could've warned you about all the pain I'd put you through. Better yet, I wish I could go back to when I became the girl who started breaking your heart, and stop her. I wish we could stay frozen in the years of our love.

Wish that I could stay forever this young

Not afraid to close my eyes

Life's a game made for everyone

And love is the prize

It's been an hour. An hour of me standing here, and you're still not back. I feel as though God has forsaken me for the last time. Maybe you're right. Maybe we should just find ourselves, and find each other when the time is right. Will you still be there waiting for me? Like I plan on waiting for you? Can I just sleep until then? Will you wake me and tell me that it's all over?

So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself

And I didn't know I was lost

I never knew that I was lost. You kept telling me, but I had no idea. I had no idea that you were lost. I was so hurtful, and I had no clue. Please Spence, I didn't know I was lost. Help me find me again.

Didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know I was lost

I didn't know