A full lifetime is a gathering of small moments much like small squares used to make a quilt that come together and form a full lifetime. A square that represents a baby's first steps, one made for the memories of kindergarten, there are many squares each with their own story.
They say God doesn't give you hardships in life you cannot face but I have a hard time understanding that on a day to day basis. It seems to be that the hardships do help us grow but they also break us and make us view the world in new and often harsher ways. I was only seventeen the year a young man I dated died, by accidental shooting. Life is not fair but how is it right to take a soul from the earth who has been barely made an impact in the world. The day Jacob died I changed for the better. I believe I found my true faith in God that day. I don't think I have to pray to god to let him hear my prayers. I believe that he knows what my heart is saying. He knows that I was hurt when I heard a boy shot my dear friend execution style, on accident. I don't believe it was an accident that the other boy pulled the trigger of a gun and ended an innocents person's life. I know it was God calling Jacob home to a home of happiness. I don't know much about Jacob's home life I do know however that drugs had taken over his life and maybe just maybe God decided it was time for Jacob not to have to suffer any more. I will never forget the feeling of a young man I know dying I just know that one day I will see him in heaven when I get there. I just know when I see him his body will be healthy again as well as him mind. I'll cry tears of happiness. I know after we hug and exchange our greetings, we'll talk about the happy moments. Like the big belly laughs, he could get anyone to laugh. Or how I was terrified to go out with the senior when I was a junior. My hands were sweating when I got into his car. I was terrified. However, I got a kiss goodnight. It was a sweet peck nothing more nothing less. Yet, it was like seeing the stars for the first time after a long nighttime thunderstorm.
The best memories are the ones that bear no proof threw photos but bear proof threw the memories we hold true in our minds and hearts.
Junior year started much better than it ended. It was a year of growing and learning both from school and from real life experiences.