Just enjoying some spare time decided to give it a go to something that crossed my mid watching the episode. What does really Celia think when she sees Kate and Caroline?b0df420c8b
I hope she learns to accept them. Anyway, hope you enjoy it.
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Caroline woke up about four in the morning to the warmth of a body comfortably snuggled against her and for a second she froze until she remembered the previous night. Afraid of breaking the spell she decided to keep her eyes closed, she knew her heart would not survive another rejection even if that was a dream, but she was decided to make it last and if she was dreaming she was going to keep the dream alive for as long as she could. She moved her arm under the covers, trying to be as careful as possible and bite her lips when the feeling of Kate's naked body managed to speed up her breathing making her sigh. Still with the gorgeous blue eyes closed she kept moving her hand over Kate's ribs remembering every what had happened the day before and wondering how much of what she felt then and what she was feeling now was true. As soon as her hand rested over Kate's pregnant belly all the questions about being a dream or being her new reality got an answer. A kick and the blue eyes were wide opened feeling the baby kicking.
"The apple never falls far from the tree" whispered Kate still asleep "she wakes up all grumpy, always. Your daughter, at least in her waking up mood, takes after you" explained Kate turning around to find Caroline speechless and almost crying "I can hear you think love, she's yours, always was yours, ours." With a shy smile the older woman hugged the brunette tighter, she wanted to say a million things, she wanted to explain to Kate how her heart filled with joy watching the ultrasound, or how much it meant for her feeling the baby, or the importance of those three words claiming that the baby was hers,.. but there were not enough words to explain to Kate how much in love she was with her and with the baby so the blond woman held her lover tighter and kissing her softly simply whispered "thank you Kate" what made the brunette smile knowing and understanding what her partner was saying. Both of them remained in silence enjoying the moment until both of the surrendered to sleep again.
The next time Caroline woke up it was 9 am and she was feeling hungry. She thought about waking Kate up, but thinking about the long day and night she decided against it. She could remember her own pregnancies and waking her up was never a good idea, in fact still was not a good idea. She would save some tea and sandwiches for Kate in case she wanted to eat something later. Trying to not awake her lover Caroline left the bed and got dress in a comfortable pair of jeans and a shirt leaving the room to go to have breakfast.
Walking into the lunch area with the biggest smile on her face she saw her mother, and Gillian grabbing some breakfast so she went straight towards them to do the same thing. "Good morning Mrs. Buttershaw, morning Gillian. Where's Robbie?" whispering to Gillian "too tired?" . She was not a big fan of what was going on with him, but she had to admit that Gillian never looked happier than when he was around her.
Gillian looked up at Caroline and the biggest grin showed up on her face "Dunno, but I'm sure I could ask the same thing to you". A soft giggle came out of her throat as soon as Caroline started blushing proving the fact that she was right, "anyway I'm back upstairs, going to get Calamity for a walk, she should have had her breakfast by now. See you later Celia, Gillian". Celia gave Gillian a quick kiss while Caroline just smiled and waved, it was obvious they all had managed to grow fond of each other since Celia and Alan had met again and she really liked having Gillian, Raff, Ellie and the baby around as much as her own kin.
"Shall we sit mum?" asked Caroline who had already served herself some breakfast and was standing up with a dish on one hand and a cup of tea on the other. Celia nodded and led the way wanting to ask her daughter why Kate came back, but not really daring. She knew full well that the question could be the beginning of another quarrel. For about a quarter of an hour they simply shared some gossips about the previous night. Muriel and Harry dancing, Alan's song, Gillian and Robbie being together again ... until Caroline sighed tired of feeling like walking over shells "Mother, I don't want to be rude, and I do not want to start a fight, but I need to ask you this, aren't you going to say or ask or complain or anything about me last night?" The blond woman was not up to start a fight on a day that should be one of the happiest for her as much as for her own mother, but she could understand that her behaviour last night was everything her mother disliked so she needed to know exactly where exactly their relationship was at that exact moment.
"Caroline ... I..." Celia stopped thinking twice what she was going to say next. If she was herself, narrow-minded and ignorant, she would for sure light up the fire. If she lied and congratulated her daughter straight away, she would for sure again light up the fire as Caroline would know she was lying. Celia knew that she had to be really careful with her words to avoid hurting her daughter and hurting herself now that they were getting along so well. Taking a deep breath the oldest woman looked at her only child straight on the eye. There was something on Caroline's eyes that reminded Celia of something, but she could not exactly figure out what it was until a few seconds passed and realization hit Celia straight on the face. Caroline looked like her, like a woman totally in love, the love of her life. The only difference was that she was in love with a woman and not with a man as she was supposed and expected to do. "Why did she come back? Not trying to bicker, just wondering. I mean. You haven't said much about her lately. I told you to ask her to play the piano and it felt like you did not want to talk to her. She came here on her own, but you two barely spoke for longer than what politeness dictates. She left without saying much I saw it and next I see is that she came back. Oh and let's not forget the fact that she is pregnant. Why?" Celia was trying to understand what was going on with the brunette and her daughter, but she knew that she was missing part of the story and before answering Caroline's question she wanted to know the full story."
Caroline closed her eyes. It was she who started the conversation so it was obvious that she would have to answer her mother's questions. She took a sip of tea and sighed "Ok mother, let's see. After you, surprisingly, brought her back into my life. I managed to blow it all up again. Royally. Several times in fact. You know me, when I do something I really do it. I asked her to sell her house and move in with us and then I tried to be supportive of her motherhood needs. After doing that, what must look pretty much like commitment for everyone I took her to spend a romantic weekend to celebrate her birthday. I was still doing well, but being me, I arranged the weekend for two individual rooms and kept myself pretty much apart of her so no one would dare to think we were anything by friends. There goes straight to bloody hell the commitment party. Of course, not being enough of a prat I had to to make a bigger fool out of myself and I increased my level of bitchiness saying a few inadequate things about the lad who was up to help us with the pregnancy, not happy enough yet I added a few more about my embarrassment to be out and managed to disapoint Kate so much she broke up with me. Sent me home. Got herself pregnant and barely spoke to me for twenty weeks. I can't even blame her. After that, I made a fool out of me in a few more occasions I was trying to be nice and I ended up behaving as Gillian says, as a snotty bitch. The day I was here with Gillian booking the wedding I came home to find out that John had messed up again and that Lawrence had rung Kate to pick him up because his father was missing. I went to Kate's and apologized and begged her for another chance, I promised her I would do anything, but she only said: no thank you" Caroline was spitting the past months without even realizing she might be giving too much information about everything to her mother, but the truth was that even knowing Kate had made her own mistakes during the relationship it had been Kate who had made the relationship move a step forward for every two steps that Caroline took back.
Celia was speechless. She had never thought for a second Caroline would be that heartbroken. Celia knew they had fixed things but the memories were still there and Celia could easily see her only child broken and lost in a way she couldn't even remember when was the last time she saw Caroline like that. Thought she could hear the pain on Caroline's voice there was love and devotion making Celia believe that maybe Kate was meant to be for her daughter was Alan meant to her. "So, one day I arrived at school only to find out that Kate was at the hospital. I did not think mum. Until that day I dont remember the last day I did something just because it felt right and because I wanted to do it. I just turned around I ignored what I was expected to do, I ignored my meetings and my job, and that people was wating for me and drove the car to the hospital doing what I wanted to do. Needing to be there for her and with her. I sat there with her and we went inside to see the doctor."
Caroline closed her eyes about to start crying when she felt Celia squeezing her hand "it's ok love, you don't have to tell me". The blond opened her eyes and looked at her mother nodding "I was so scared thinking something might be wrong with the baby mum, it hurt me thinking the baby might be... and then Kate grabbed my hand and the doctor said all was ok and that it was a girl, she was a girl, she was meant to be MY girl mum and I blew it all. Kate apologized for holding my hand, and I understood what she went through while she was with me. Never acknowledging her in public, never telling her she meant the world to me,... We have managed to work together trying to avoid seeing each other as much as possible that's why I gave you her phone number instead of ringing her myself, I couldn't do it. Then, after playing the avoidance game again tonight she left, not without having to listen to the snotty bitch once again of course, and just came back. She just came back and asked me to dance with her. It was right then and there, my answer would mean the world to both of us. I could win her or lose her forever. Gillian was happy dancing with Robbie. You were dancing with Alan. It has taken years for Gillian and you to get this chance to be with the one who is perfect for you two and there was my chance, asking me to dance with her. I asked her for how long mum, I asked her if we were meant to be forever, like you and Alan. I want that mum, I want Kate to be my Alan".
Celia sighed understanding what her daughter meant. She was working hard trying to accept the lesbian relationship, but the first time Caroline had being with Kate Celia had enjoyed watching a new side of Caroline she hadn't seen since she was a young kid and the way she looked at Kate the night before while dancing was not far away from how she looked at her husband. "Well, it will not be easy for me, but I'm keeping my word. If she makes you happy I can live with it. Now the baby is another thing,..." Caroline was ready to open up her mouth to say that she was part of the deal when a big grin popped on Celia's face "we will have to find something as good as Calamity, I'm going to love both my granddaughters the same". Leaning back on the chair Caroline closed her eyes "don't ever tell Kate I said this, but she said this morning the baby takes after me and that she's too grumpy when she wakes up, Calamity and Grumpy. I've being calling her Grumpy since this morning because there is no name yet". Celia chuckled and started laughing thinking about how bad her daughter's mood was when she was not totally rested. Kate watched from the door Celia laughing at something Caroline had said and walked towards them. She leant a little and gently kissed Celia on the cheek "Congratulations, I never took the time yesterday Celia", her next step was squeezing Caroline's shoulder and kiss her cheek too "What were you saying that was so funny?" asked with curiosity while grabbing a sandwich from Caroline's dish.
Caroline cleared her throat trying to say the same thing without the nickname part. "I just told my mum you said the baby's mornings are like mine". Kate was looking from one woman to the other trying to figure out what was missing, Caroline was staring at the tea on the cup while Celia kept laughing. "Guess you two already came with the nickname for our daughter because of the adjective I used this morning. Grumpy, am I right?". The blush on Caroline's face was so evident that neither Celia nor herself tried to deny that Kate was good at knowing Caroline but, before anyone of them could say a word Gillian sat at the table with her granddaugther in her arms "Calamity and Grumpy! Sounds good, say morning to Grumpy Calamity" giggled while waving the babie's hand towards Kate's belly.
Caroline smiled when she felt Kate's hand squeezing her thigh. She leant towards her mum and kissed her before wrapping her arm around Kate's shoulder and kissing her softly on the neck "Grumpy it is my love. Gorgeous as her mama, grumpy as her mum"