Liked the concepts from both the game F.E.A.R, and the (fetish filled) anime Elfin Lied when it came to making a little girl be the face of a monster. However, I enjoyed most of what I played through of the F.E.A.R franchise. As for Elfin Lied, I hated the first two episodes, and did not continue. (I read summaries of the anime to find out more about the powers.) Blood and guts is one thing, but I cannot handle child abuse being mixed with pornographic material. Long story short, this fan fic will be serious, have lots of bloodshed, and include little to no sexual activity.

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Prologue

Minds of troubled children

"Is there a purpose to life?" One of the many questions the voices inside my head always asks themselves. There are lots of them too. People who had suffered just as much as me, always talking to me, warning me of people I will see. One doctor they talked about, Dr. Green, will talk to me sometime soon. The voices don't like her. I am going to be eight years old soon, the doctors have told me. I don't pay much attention to it though, all my memories have the doctors playing with my head, and my small cell with some sunlight. I can't remember much of the outside world, just a swing I was on before they took me in again. Back to a place where everyone is either sad or angry all the time. All I hear is suffering. All I feel is suffering. All I know... is suffering.

The days keep passing by. I move everyday to find a new home. Making my way through life was rough with parents that hated me for being a freak, and it got worse when I was dropped into an orphanage. The other children hated me as well, for simply being a freak. I have tried to burn those memories, as the orphanage burned. Nothing gets those images out of my head. Now my shadow is the only one who walks beside me. It's funny how everyone sees me as a freak, even though those same people like to do strange things. Some kill themselves with drugs, just to feel a slight sense of relief. Some attack, or even kill others over no good reason. Then there are some… who look at me in strange ways. If anything, it seems to me that I've done nothing wrong. Those strange individuals are the real freaks.

I always wonder what's to come the next day. Being different has been a struggle for me, so I always try to look at things a positive way. My difference though, from most other kids that I struggle with is not one of how I look. It's about how long I have to live. I have what the doctor calls tumors. Both on my lungs, and in my head. It looks like I could possibly live to my 40s with this condition,... or not even past my teens. No one knows how long, but my own mother doesn't even care about my life. My father got sick, but from another disease. He used to take me places when I was real young. Then my mother took him "six feet under" to collect money from his death. She thinks that I'm still a stupid, ignorant child. In truth, she is stupid, ignorant, and always acts like a child. Even with this in my life, with a little heavy metal and the fact that I'm alive, I still look to the future.

The world has always been a cruel place for many of those who are quite unfortunate. Children were never the exception, as there are always those to prey upon the weak. Misery has always enjoyed company, though sometimes it is through misery that some end up committing extraordinary acts. No one has a perfect beginning, it is what one takes from their start that makes them who they are.

Hey everybody! In case one couldn't tell, this story is a F.E.A.R X Elfin Lied kind of story. All kinds of psychological trauma for these characters ahead. Also, if anyone's curious, I'm starting this story because I originally had planned to have Nicky become a dark character before I made [InFamous Lost Child] a fan's choice making story. Plus, I always had a vision of some dark hearted little kids causing some mayhem. Oh, and yes, this is an SYOC story as well. Check out my bio to find the information required for your character submission. In the meantime, PEACE!