Disclaimer: Naruto doesn't belong to me. I wish it did. D:
What I want...Sometimes I wish I knew myself. I'm indecisive...But I miss you.
I miss you; and it hurts so bad. There's this gaping wound in my chest...Is this supposed to be physical pain? i didn't think it ever was supposed to be..
and I'm afraid. I'm afraid of my cowardness; of the fact that I can't tell you how I feel. I had my chance...I..I don't want to cause trouble for you, I don't want to cause you anymore pain.
I hate to say it, so selfishly. I hate the fact that I'm saying it just because I want the stress off my mind...But I always stop myself. I think of you; and think of how you seemed to have moved on. I'm wrong to miss you, I know I am. I can't help it...I hate you for affecting me this way.
At least, I want to hate you. ...I want to hate you because I fell for you and ruined it...I want to hate you because I don't know what to say and it's tearing me up inside. I hate myself for hating you, It's not you I blame, it's myself.
Sometimes I just want to scream at you; tell you how I still feel even though I don't deserve to. I'm sorry for my selfish thoughts...I can't help it.
I'm sorry...I miss you.