A/N – This is the second part of the craving series, if you haven't red it, I advise you to read the first part – Craving Seduction.

Anyway, I am back with the story, please do enjoy!

Carlisle's POV

She was smoking her cigarette, which looked elegant and slightly inviting from afar, but made your nostrils flare and cringe at the smell, when you walked closer to her. That single thing about her, made her pale figure her less attractive.

And I didn't need this right now. Not right after the whole Bella thing.

What the fuck happened? I was such a mess. Such a fuck up.

I thought that we had fun. I thought that she liked US ... I thought that she needed me.

And at the back of my mind I heard a little voice going She did though. She liked it all more than you thought she did. But you need her more that she needs you. And, I should have known.

The grand question was – Did I? At the start I didn't want to say yes, yet I didn't want to deny it either. Now I didn't know where I stood with all of this big, unuseful information. I know she wanted to know what we were, and at the time I didn't, because I thought it was unnecessary for us. That it would complicate things. Now I was starting to wonder myself. It was keeping me up at nights, making me feel less than a human.

„Damn, Carlisle. You look rough. Shitty nights rest or what? Do you want one of these?" her voice was clear and held the needed authoritarianism to it, as she showed me a pack of her cigarettes.

„No, Tanya, I don't smoke. You know that." I said taking a seat next to my cousin.

„Maybe you should start." She laughed at me „Take the edge off."

„I can't deal with Renee, Tanya. I'm so happy you're here." Since Edward told me that he wanted to move in with his mother, after the graduation, in the most uneasy tone possible, the fear that he knew about me and Bella had crept up.

I did see a silhouette of someone when I talked to Bella that time, but I knew Alice was sleeping and Edward was out. But what if? And as graduation had passed, Renee was all over the place. It was overwhelming.

I had asked him if he was sure, and if he wanted to- it was only his choice „It is. I'm sure. And, please don't tell Alice. I want to do it myself." Was his only request and I respected him and did as he had asked me.

„You've been too single for too long, Carlisle." She snorted and called for the bartender, to fill up her empty glass „Just put yourself out there. You're a lovable guy, Carlisle."

But I wasn't.

I should have known she would leave me.

Bella's POV

Crying to sleep wasn't ideal for me, so that's why I had to get over him. And as fast as humanly possible.

I didn't need maybe's and later's in my life. I wanted to live and I wanted to do something with my life. And, I didn't need to be hung up on a guy. Even if he was my friend's dad.

So, that's why I started to study my ass off. I needed to get out of New York. I wanted something warmer and something more approachable. Was that a definition of what kind of a man I wanted in my life? Maybe. Approachable was definitely it.

I was sad, but I drowned it in my studies. Charlie noticed, but I knew he was writing that off on the whole Edward thing. As did all of my friends. But, the interesting thing was that it seemed that Edward was avoiding me. Maybe he was just embarrassed after I told him that I knew about Jessica. They had become the schools talked about couple. They turned heads in the whole school.

Good for them, I guess.

After a month some shit went down. Right before Christmas, which made the season more distressed for everyone.

The neighbors of Alice's wanted to sue, but Charlie was with the Cullen family on this one and he helped. A lot. He also lied to them. A lot. But they didn't have a real case and so, she was soon free. She wanted to throw a party, but then thought twice about it. Maybe in someone else's home.

Also, Edward had something to say to us. We were all hanging out at my place because I had offered. We wanted to chill out and just relax, and my place was free because Christmas season was busy for cops.

Jessica had joined Edward and she was sitting on his lap, glaring at me the whole way. I wanted to say to her to take her hateful stare party somewhere else because I was the one who told your boyfriend to treat you better. I tried to ignore her as much as possible, when Edward said „After graduation, I'm leaving to live with my mom."

All of us gaped at him, and Alice had lost her shit over that one.

She started to scream at him „What the hell is wrong with you? We had a fucking plan!" that they did. We all did, actually. To stay in NYC.

But it only seemed a better decision to leave this city. Make new memories and forget the old ones.

„Life doesn't work out like that, Alice." It was all he said. We didn't know if Jessica was going with him or staying here, but no one really wanted to ask the question because Jessica had been a snow queen not only to me, but everyone else as well. But the idea, we later found out was that yes, they were both leaving.

I offered to make some drinks because Alice's heart would be more broken when she would find out that I wasn't staying in NYC as well, and tonight seemed like the night to break it to her. Emmett, the new guy, who had started to date Rosalie, offered to help me. I didn't deny the help because I needed it. Also, it was a little awkward for me to be the only single one in the bunch because Jasper was with Alice. Jasper was grateful for me, but as their relationship was a bit strained, he stayed with her.

„So," he started like I knew he would. Of course he would want to talk, to ask something he couldn't, or wouldn't to the whole group „ you and Edward were together?" he asked, even if he knew the answer.

„Yup."

„Isn't it bothering you that he and his new girlfriend are sitting together in your living room, saying that they are planning to move and live a happy, happy life? "

I smiled. He was slowly becoming a brother I never had „That's nice of you to wonder. But the answer is- no." I did do something much more worse than that „He is right – life doesn't work out like you plan it to sometimes." Fucking Carlisle „And to be honest, I was so unhappy in that relationship." he laughed with me.

„So, where are you thinking to apply to? " he asked me, in a whisper „I'm taking it that you're not staying here?"

I realised as he asked me that it was in my own hands to make my happiness. That it was I who molded it.

I had a chance to start my life new and without heartbreak.