WHY?

Stars shine in the sky
Wind whispers in my ear
Along with the sound of
Wolf howls in the forest
Palace mouses squeak in the kitchen
People laugh from far away
Today is the Midsummer's Day
Everyone are celebrating
But why can't I be happy
And laugh with everyone
Why tiredness is all that in my mind?
I stare at the dancing flame of the fire
Tomorrow I'll be leaving
To a far away place
Just because I'm a princess
Why can't I choose my path?
Father, all I want is to become a lady knight
Like your friend, the Lioness
But you don't let me
I understand your reasons
So I obey you as your daughter
And as a warrior listen to his king
But you also make a promise
Can't you remember that, father?
Just because you are the King and my father
Doesn't mean that you can break the promise
You say that I can choose my husband
And now you break this promise
I know that the war between Scanra and us is bad
But is the only way to have peace
Is to send me to Scanra
And have me marry someone who I don't know
I don't want to marry anyone
At least not yet, not until I fall in love
All I want now is to stay in Tortall
And learn to heal all the are wound and sick
But now this is a dream that will never come true
Why, father?
Why do you take away my dream?
Not once but twice?
Why does being a princess, your daughter
Mean that I can't choose my way?
Why do I always need to obey you?
Why can't I be the mistress of my life?
Father, you never care about me
And consider what I think and want
All you care is your country
Is the only reason for me to be in this world
Is to sacrifice myself so there are peace?
But I'm just a girl
I want to be happy
But you never let me have any happiness
I hate you, father
I never want to be a princess
I wish that I were just a normal girl
But why my wishes and dreams will never come true?
I smile bitterly as I stare at the fire
Slowly I take out a dagger from my boot
I'm sorry, father
But I refuse to be under your control any more
I want to choose my own path
And become the mistress of my life
Tomorrow there'll be no wedding
And I won't be on my way to Scanra
You can say that I'm selfish
But I don't care
There aren't any hope and happiness in my life
Except when I am free
And the only way that I can be free
Is to kill myself
I cut my wrist with the dagger
Fire red blood flow out of my wound
I lay on the floor
Looking at the twinkling stars in the sky
And wait for the arrival of the Black God
I'm sorry, dad
But now all I want is death
I know that when you find my body
You'll be sad and ask, "Why?"