I apologize for my hiatus. School and emotions are the factors I blame. :/ Anyway, I'm all out of ideas for my other stories so I'm going to start up a new one. It helps me freshen up and think up of more ideas. :P
DISCLAIMER- I do NOT own Love Hina nor am I affiliated with it. I am just a normal average teenager with his own complex problems and love life. :/
NOTES:
"BLEH."- Dialogue
I feel empty.- Thoughts
Dying Inside
Ch. 1- Nightmare?
I look at my hands in distain. I've been crying every single day since… Well, I don't want to even mention it. I look up at the night peaceful sky. The wind feels so cold yet… So calming. I wish I can become wind. Just going wherever life takes you. Yeah. That'll be nice.
"I want to die," I whispered softly to no one in particular.
If you die, you'll only become a statistic. No one will care about you, even the people you are close with. They'll mourn about your death for a month and then you'll be forgotten completely. My conscious told me.
SHUP UP! I roared back at it.
I won't. You need to move on. If you keep on moping, you'll never achieve anything.
All of a sudden, I received a major headache. I leaned onto a pole and grabbed my head in pain.
Don't make me say it.
My eyes widened in shock. "Please don't…" I said softly.
Naru.
I felt like stabbing my brain so it can't shut up. "Stop it," I commanded it.
Don't leave me…
"SHUT UP," I screamed out loud.
Naru, what did I do?
All the old memories started to solidify in my head.
If you don't face it, you will never be strong. Face it. Savor it. Feel it.
"I don't want to, please… I don't want to face it," I could feel the tears run down.
SHUT UP. YOU ARE A MAN. STAND UP AND FIGHT.
"NO!!" I exclaimed throughout the empty streets, "I DON'T WANT TO!"
I look at my hands. They're shaking. Trembling. I held them close to my chest. I want warmth but they never give me any in return.
Look at you. Pathetic. No wonder she thought you were a loser.
I fell to my knees.
Move on. She'll never return to you.
I cried silent tears and I felt the cold concrete on my cheek.
I hope this is only a nightmare.
I apologize for the short chapter. This should only be helping meh keep the juices flow in my brain, but I'll just continue the story. Stories shouldn't be wasted. :P
Anyway, thank you everyone who been reading my stories. You make this dude happy. :D
Finally, I'm sorry if you found any mistakes and I hope you enjoyed this very short chapter. LATER!