Hey! It's me and I'll be starting this! It's a giripan, so, DON'T LIKE, DON'T READ!
Iceland: Kiku-dii does not own Hetalia.
BTW, the anime Kiku is watching is Shugo Chara! And the beginning is lyrics from Miku's song, Wanna Die! Enjoy~
Wanna die
Dying is fine
Wanna die
Dying is fine
Have it your way
No one would care if you died.
Kiku brought the blade down on his left arm. He added more force into it, causing a drop of blood to appear. It wouldn't matter if I was gone…he thought to his self and slashed the blade across his arm. He flinched a bit from the pain and watched his blood flow freely from his arm.
He bit his lower lip and leaned against the bathtub. After a minute or two, he cleaned up and patched his self up. A tear ran down his cheek and he started to sob silently.
Earlier that day…
"vee~ And he said…so I…" Feli spoke nonsense as Kiku mindlessly listened. Occasionally he nodded or mutters 'I agree'. It was always like this everyday. Feliancio or sometimes Yao would babble to Kiku for half of the day, then he would have lunch, tutor Alfred. Be tormented by Ivan, be saved by the Hall-montitor, then walk home with Heracles.
But in the end, he was still alone.
Feliancio would soon get bored and turn to Ludwig, Yao would go with his group, Alfred leaves with Arthur. Ivan will soon wander off also. Even Heracles has a curfew and has to be home at a certain hour. His only true friend was Heracles, and Kiku only got to see him for only about 15 minutes.
But that same day, Kiku was on the computer. He was doing the usual, watching anime, when he noticed the chatbox near it. It caught his attention more than the girl with the pink hair looking for a blue flying thing that came from an egg in the anime.
Meli_44: My life sucks
Kirbieee: this again?
Meli_44: Yes, he dumped me. Now I feel like I have nothing to look forward to.
Kirbieee: So are u committing suicide or sumthin?
Meli_44: I'm thinking of it, will you stop me?
Kirbieee: Nope, it's your choice. Go ahead.
Meli_44: It's good to know you can actually support me, your all I have, but I can't take it anymore.
Kiku frowned. This conversation was stupid, but true at the same time.
Why would someone tell a random person that they are planning to kill theirselves, the other person would not try to stop you at all, just giving you another reason to give it all up. Then again, it just shows you how worthless you are, no one will notice if you were gone anyways. Kiku thought deeply about it and researched it.
In a chatting website, there were answers to what questions about suicide other people had.
Do it.
See if we care, why would you even think of posting this crap?
Don't listen to these people! Your live is precious!
I wonder what happens when you die…
Go ahead.
It depends…do you think you're worthless? Then go ahead. But do you think it's a good idea? Will people miss you? If you really have nothing to look forward to, then you should know what you want, and if your sure about it.
Kiku read the last answer. Will people miss him? No. He thought angrily to his self. He shut down his laptop.
No one was home but him. He lives with his cousin, Yao, and his aunt ever since his parents died. I wonder what's it like if I died… he thought and walked to his kitchen. No one will notice…right? If I just end it right now, it would be a stress relief for everyone…
He grabbed a nearest kitchen blade and walked over to the bathroom. He took out his school's sweater and shirt and neatly folded it.
Kiku angled the blade right above his heart.
One simple plunge of the blade…
End it all.
Kiku started to shake. What if it was a bad idea? Would it be a worse idea ending it? Kiku was shaking more now, and his eyes were filled with tears. He tried breathing in, and out to calm his self.
Why is it being so hard now?
Kiku shut his eyes and thought of his parents. If he ended it here, would he see them again?
Instead of piercing his heart like he first intended to do, he brought the blade down and slashed his wrist.
Sighing and sliding down the tiled wall, he let his arms limp to his sides. What's wrong with me? He thought to his self. But he felt some stress lift from his shoulders as the pain numbed up. He looked at the blade, and down to his arm. Lifting his arm, he positioned the blade at his left arm…
Back to present…
After crying, Kiku walked to his room and blasted his headphones really high and shut his eyes…
OOoOO
This might probably last three chapters or more… what do you guys think? Please review!