Too many feelings to contain so they spilled onto my laptop and this was born. r&r :)
Rachel Berry's world had come crashing down, here she was; laying on her bed with her laptop dimly lighting up her room as she lay contemplating her future waiting for someone, anyone to care.
"We Found Love In A Hopeless Place"Rachel rolls over and stares at her screen to read the new IM. She had set her notification sound to her favourite line from one of her favourite duets from glee, the fact that it happened to be with Santana was irrelevant to everything.
SoEmotionalSatan said:
Hey Berry so I'm like not good at this kind of thing but, how are you?
Rachel wriggles to get comfortable on her stomach and replies
WeFoundLoveInBerry said:
I'm fine Santana. Please don't feel obliged to check up on me even if the picture is still up in your locker it's not a contract for you to deal with my emotional breakdowns
Rachel sighs, fully aware of exactly how angsty and selfish she just sounded but not all that bothered to backtrack on it. She waits while the small speech bubble above the text box appears, disappears and then reappears with the message "SoEmotionalSatan is typing" beside it. It surprises her that Santana seems to be carefully thinking about what she's going to say.
SoEmotionalSatan said:
If? Oh no Berry that picture IS still there, front and centre next to my picture of Britts that I added when she gots all jealous because I refused to take it down just like I refuse to let YOU down. I don'ts give a damn if I didn't sign no contract I gots to take care of my friends. They're like mi familia
Rachel blushes faintly reading Santana's honest reply but never more than when she was referred to as part of Santana's familia
WeFoundLoveInBerry said: I appreciate your kindness Santana, really I do but right now all I really want is one of my supposed best friends or God forbid my fiancee to be here with me.
SoEmotionalSatan is typing
WeFoundLoveInBerry said: I am honoured to be part of your family by the way, I sincerely appreciate it.
The bubble disappears for a few seconds
SoEmotionalSatan said: Where is the man child and your "best friends"?
Rachel sniffles and wipes her nose on her sleeve
WeFoundLoveInBerry said: Finn and Blaine are comforting Noah because he failed his test while Kurt and Mercedes are celebrating his audition success.
-SoEmotionalSatan has gone offline-
"So now I really do have no one"
Roughly 10 minutes later the doorbell rings in furious succession. Rachel opens the door to find Santana sopping wet in a black leather knee length coat clutching a large eco-friendly bag of vegan marshmallows in one hand and her other hand behind her back.
"Santana what-" Santana almost carelessly throws the bag of marshmallows and the block of vegan chocolate that had been concealed behind it onto the couch before wrapping her now free left arm around Rachel's tiny waist. Rachel nuzzles into Santana's wet hair inhaling the scent of vanilla and spices that always permeates from the Latina.
Santana steps away leaving Rachel a little dizzy with the exposure to oxygen and pulls out from behind her back a stuffed black wolf with a red stripe down it's spine. It had a gold collar and that classic look that wolves, foxes and huskies seemed to have that lured you in but somehow scared the shit out of you at the same time.
Santana raises the wolf and gently presses it's face to Rachel's cheek. "She's for you, I washed her in my shampoo because Britts always says it smells like me even if I don't wash my hair so yeah... I guess it's like a hug from me when you need it"
Rachel closes the gap between their bodies and flings her arms around Santana's neck who wobbles in surprise at the weight on her. "Thank you Santana" Santana feels a distinct trail of warm drops trailing down from her collarbone where Rachel's face was basically buried and realises she is crying.
"Hey why don't you go up to your room and I'll just grab the junk food and follow you up" Rachel nods and makes her way back up the stairs the wolf clutched in her small hands. Santana sighs and stares up at the ceiling, she really had no idea how to deal with this. As if by magic she gets a text from her ever helpful and genius guardian angel.
From: Brittyboo
Tell Rachel she's awesome and that I am super sorry for her. I'm so proud of you Sanny xoxo Love youSantana is content to stand, smiling like a fool looking at the last two words for a minute until she grabs the chocolate and marshmallows and replies
To: Brittyboo
Will do baby; Thank you, I love you so much xoxoHer phone is switched off as she sighs and tells herself 'This is for Rachel'. She saunters up the stairs her hips swaying naturally until she reaches the door to Rachel's room. She knocks faintly and Rachel grumbles a "come in".
Santana enters and cautiously removes her shoes; suddenly very aware of the dirt on the bottom of them, she takes them off and leaves them in the adjacent bathroom. She removes her coat and faces Rachel "Is it ok to hang leather on your jackets?" Rachel looks up vaguely surprised by nods.
Santana hangs her jacket and sits on Rachel's bed, wearing only her black denim shorts and white converse tank top she had been lounging in at home before literally speeding to the store and here.
"How are you feeling Rach?" the smaller brunette shakes her head tears re-emerging "I feel like a failure"
Her entire form crumples into a shaking mess of sobs and matted hair that Santana swiftly brushes away so Rachel can breathe. "You listen to me Rachel Berry; You are not a failure, You are as you've always told everyone; A star. NYADA might look good on an application but last time I checked it's talent not paper that gets you places in Broadway and even if you do need a shining glorious resume, I'm guessing the other schools are like having a last man standing for you at the moment because unlike that bitch who judged you; they know a great thing when they see it"
Rachel clings to Santana's hands "Why are you being so nice?" Santana arches a single eyebrow but pairs it with a sympathetic smile "I'm keeping it real" When Rachel doesn't smile at her attempted joke she does what she always does when Brittany's upset. No, not that. She releases her right hand from Rachel's vicelike grip and boops her nose with a small smile.
Rachel narrows her eyes a little before she looks at the amused glint in Santana's eyes and falls into a fit of giggles. "I Cannot believe that you" Rachel fell off the bed "Just booped my nose". Santana shakes her head in amusement before sliding off the bed to retrieve the smaller girl. "Well I did and it had the desired affect"
Santana lifts Rachel back onto the bed even covering her with the quilt. Rachel pulls Santana onto the bed and cuddles into her chest. "Could you sing me something?" Santana looks around the room "Uh I haven't got anything like prepared and I sort of suck at comforting" Rachel momentarily tightens her grip and looks up into Santana's eyes.
"Just sing, I don't care if it's the filthiest song you know just...sing" Santana looks down into the eyes that are only a few shades lighter than her own with an almost motherly concern before nodding "Uhm ok just let me think" Rachel grins and resumes her cuddling. Santana wriggles down a little so her head is resting on the same pillow as Rachel's. She begins to sing lowly, almost softly while absent mindedly stroking Rachel's arms
Here we go again, another night of being bummed.
I'll keep to myself, avoid the sun,
And cancel plans with everyone I know.
Cause this is how it always ends:
Our bond will break cause you can't relate
To anyone, to anything at all.
You brought your worst and I'm right here.
Now I've seen it all, and it's never been so clear.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
You still know me, still not cut out for this sort of thing.
Never one to be caught in between,
I need constant reminders of everything.
So what? It's who I am, but I think I've played it off so well.
I just hold it in, no matter how I've been,
So nobody, nobody can tell.
You brought your worst and I'm right here.
Now I've seen it all, and it's never been so clear.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
I won't sleep till the break of dawn (break of dawn)
I can't let our problems find me here, so everybody come on!
You brought your worst and I'm right here.
I've seen it all, and it's never been so clear.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
"That was excellent Santana" Santana blushes and carefully avoids eye contact "That was my farewell to 'Old Santana', the bitch we all loved to hate". Rachel smiles, it lights up her eyes. "Well I'm glad you said goodbye to her because I don't think old Santana would be here making me feel better by the second just by singing or laying with me"
"Well I'm glad I'm making you feel better Rachel" The smaller girl sighs "I just wish I could get another chance at an audition, just so show them I'm better and I don't give up" Santana smirks and wriggles out of Rachel's embrace. "Hey Rachel, would you object to an audition if the judge was slightly bias?"
Rachel sits up and glares at Santana playfully "How bias? And who?" Santana tugs her bottom lip between her teeth "Mi Madre is a talent judge for NYU and Julliard but I mean she has a permit to scout for NYADA so I could maybe ask if" Santana doesn't get to finish her sentence. Rachel tackles her and ends up straddling the latina who doesn't really mind all that much.
"You are my saviour Santana" Santana grins happily and rolls them over before peeling herself away. "I'll go call her and see if she can make it back here earlier so she can 'scout' you" Santana smirks pulls her phone out her coat and walks into the hallway.
Several nerve wracking minutes later Santana walks back in an almost disappointed look in place. "Santana are you ok?" Santana nods weakly "Uh yeah, she can make it for your audition" She smiles weakly. Rachel wants to jump around excitedly, to hug Santana and maybe in the heat of the moment kiss her but she doesn't. She senses that something is wrong. "Santana...?" The taller girl shrugs "She just won't be able to make it to graduation. She only gets a week off and yeah"
Rachel does hug Santana now. "I'm sorry Santana" the Latina shrugs desperately trying to make her tears unnoticeable "Doesn't matter, you just bring you Rachel skills to that audition and all will be well" Rachel nods careful not to give away that she can in fact both see and feel Santana's tears.
"Wanna watch a movie?" when Santana doesn't reply Rachel nudges her side gently with a cheeky grin "No musicals I promise" Santana smiles at Rachel realising in that moment their potential to be great friends "You know what Rachel? I think we should gorge ourselves on the vegan chocolate and marshmallows and that you should show me exactly why you like Funny Girl so much"
Rachel's eyes widen "What? Really? You would let me?" The raven haired girl wriggles herself back onto the bed to lean against the headboard and pulls Rachel next to her "Yes, today is about making you feel better so you may educate me in your Broadway ways, now if I know you like I think I do, Funny Girl is in that DVD player right now so all we need to do is press play, get our cuddle on and enjoy knowing that you are somewhat more happy now"
Rachel presses play on the remote while Santana opens the marshmallows "Santana just thought you should know that I am not "somewhat more happy". Hanging around you and you just being yourself, it makes me infinitely more happy" Santana leans in and kisses to the top of the slightly shorter girl's head. "Me too little bug".
Later that night the Berry men return home to find their daughter cuddled up to a girl they knew from junior year sectionals to be Santana Lopez. Both girls looked cosy even with pieces of marshmallow and chocolate in their hair and on their face, both had looks of total adoration on their faces and both were somewhat cuddling the black and red stuffed wolf like it was their own child.