Disclaimer: I do not own TMNT, Leonardo, Raphael, Donatello, Michelangelo, or Master Splinter.

Rating: Its rated M, but for this chapter I guess rated T.

Pairing: LeoxRaph, DonxMikey, and another that you'll find out later.

Warning!: If you don't like or know what Yaoi is, then don't read! In Raphs POV.

Shell! If Splinta found out about us… well lets jus say it wont be pretty, he already got pissed jus cause on Christmas he found Mikey and Donny under the mistletoe…. Even though Leo and I had already been there… 5 times. Hey we're the stealthy ninjas. But Spilnta got all pissed and said 'Michelangelo! Donatello! You are doing a most vile thing- each of you to your own rooms!' and well… lets just say me an' Leo have been keep's a low profile.

In fact we'd been keeping real low, cause I barely see Leo since then. We'd been going out after the 'Winters incident'. After that fight on the rooftops and saving Leo, we'd finally found out that… er um all that tension building up was… s-sexual tension- anyway! Leo used to look at me with those soft warm brown eyes that held the affection which he gave me and me alone only. The affection of a lover. I must admit at first it was kinda eh but now… now I actually return it with my own kind of affection. Sure me and Leo knew bout Don and Mikey but they didn't know about us.

Shell no one knew bout us, not even April or Casey. We intended to tell the others when we thought the time was right but since Mikey and Donny's example we decided to put it off. Forever. Well Leo did, but I'm getting tired of hiding it! I told Leo so too and he just gave me a speech bout how 'Splinter will put a immediate stop to it' and 'how we will never see each other because he could send one of us away'. Which I will admit did get threw to me, I could wait forever cause Leo's just that important.

I felt bad for Mikey and Don, they'd been kinda sad lately. They always avoid each other and our fathers gaze. Mikeys been smiling but you can tell his smile don't meet his eyes. His blue eyes show that he really misses his and Don's time together. Don's been in his lab most of the time, so much Leo or I need to pry him from it to go on patrol, train, or even to just come and eat! And speak'n of Leo….

Leo's actually been kinda weird. He's barely come by, and we haven't had sex for 3 weeks, 4 days, and- wow. Think I'm getting obsessed… well its just been a long time. He's been REAL tense and barely says 'hi' to me. I'm starting to get worried- but I still aint no sap. Its just I don't know what's wrong with my bro. What was really strange was some of the glares Masta Splinter been givn me. And Leo's been going inside his room more and more… I aint say'n he's telling Masta Splinta anything, but something's wrong. Leo's been more and more quiet.

Even brainiac said something bout 'early stages of depression' which just fucking scares the shell outta me! I mean he has been acting strange lately… but, I don't wanna think he's gonna turn all emo on us! So today I decided that after training I'd go to listen in on what Masta Splinta and Leo talk 'bout. When he goes in he looks down and his eyes are empty, drained of all that light that was there before. He walks in and slides the door closed behind him. I wait a few minutes before I go to the wall and start listening without being detected. Which is hard since they're both ninjas too.

But still when Leo walks to Splinta's room no one else is around. Donny's been obsessed in his work as a way of dealing with not being able to see Mikey, and Mikey is busy playing with Klunk in his room. I go to the wall and use all of my senses and close my eyes focusing on what I'm hearing in the room.

I barely hear Splinta when he speaks "Leonardo, are you ready?" I cock my head to the side and blink 'Splinta's voice, its kinda strained… and he sounds outta breath, they couldn't be sparring or anything right?' I press my head against the wall and hear Leo's labored breathing… I only heard him breathe like that for two reasons. 1) When we're fighting someone tough like tha Shredder. Or 2) When we're having sex. I shake my head and feel my stomach turning. 'I'm acting even more stupid than Mikey! They have to be sparring or something, Masta Splinta is our FATHER.' Right then I hear Leo hiss as my body tenses.

Uncertainty rises as I decide if they are just sparring or something I would just get yelled at for intruding… but if it isn't… I take a deep breath and slide open the door. I saw the candle flicker and go out like a horror movie. I looked around and saw no one, but then heard a startled gasp and another hiss. I walked in and said shakily which is so unlike me "L-Leo, Masta Splinta?" I didn't know why I was so quiet and why I felt panic. I heard a few groans and I looked over the couch to see why Leo's been act'n different, why Masta Splinta's been glaring at me, and why I felt my heart break with the rise of my rage. I really wish they had been training instead of this.

Mwahaha! Now I left this poorly made cliff hanger! Mwahaha now you must wait for chapter 2! Until then my lovely's! R&R!

~Love-LeoxRaph-Rage~