I hate you

by Suni Daughter of Moro

Hate progresses to love as Fai and Kurogane find themselves drawn to each other. First chapter is Kuro's POV second Fai's third is third person forth is Fai again and fifth is Kurogane again.

1. Kurogane hates Fai

I hate you. I hate everything about you. I hate the way you act like everything's okay when it's all falling apart. I hate that damned stupid smile you wear to hide your pain. I hate how you're afraid to talk about your past. I hate how you push me away or try to distract me whenever I get close to piercing the surface. I hate how you shut everyone out. I hate the way you struggle to hold up the crumbling walls that separate you from the rest of the world.

I hate the way you talk so much yet say so little. I hate the way your eyes cry while your mouth twists into a smile. I hate the way you act like a fool when you know it all. I hate the way you lie and deceive people to keep them from knowing the real you. I hate how you can't be true to your emotions. I hate the way you can't be honest with anyone. I hate how you can't even be honest with yourself.

I hate you for the stupid nicknames. I hate you for all the laughter made at my expense. I hate you for the way you encourage the stupid talking manjuu to be just like you. I hate you for teaching it to mock me like you do.

I hate the way you play games with our heads. I hate the way you play games with your life. I hate you because you can't be serious. I hate you because it's all a game to you. I hate the way you're dying to be our sacrificial lamb.

I hate how you let your past control you. I hate how you let it own you. I hate the way you live in the past. I hate the way you miss what's right in front of you because you're too busy looking back at the past.

I hate the way you run away from your problems. I hate the way you hide. I hate the way you can't even be true to your own emotions. I hate the way you can't believe in anything. I hate how you can't trust in anyone. I hate how you can't be trusted.

I hate how cold you can be. I hate how insensitive and unfeeling you are. I hate how you don't understand others. I hate how you want them to misunderstand you. I hate how you don't even seem to understand yourself.

I hate how you get up in my face. I hate how you hang all over me. I hate the way you treat me like a pet. I hate the way you're so close yet so far away.

I hate you for being you. I hate you because I can't change you, can't fix you, can't even touch you. But I hate you most of all because you're what I fear I could have become.