Title: The Moon's Arrival
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Remus Lupin is distraught over an accident in the woods during his transformation where a little girl is killed. Lily just happens to watch the whole ordeal and decides to help him, but he refuses to open up to her.
Disclaimer: I do not open any of the characters in this fan fiction. They are all the property of J. K. Rowling, the goddess that she is. I am not making any money off of this what so ever.
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Blood.
He could feel the blood running down his lips slightly, but yet he did nothing to stop it. It was still warm, despite the night air and he shivered slightly, slinking through the shadows of the Hogwarts grounds. The Whomping Willow lay behind him; it's branches casting shadows in the grass before him, swaying slightly. He was grateful for the shadows.
Why?
Why had it happened like it did. He couldn't help the fact that it was a full moon, couldn't help that he had to take refuge inside the Shrieking Shack. But he hadn't gone there this time. No, he had gone into the Forbidden Forest, hoping that it wouldn't be very bad this month.
Screams
He could still hear the screams of the girl he had killed echoing in his mind. She had been playing on the edge of the forest, where a house lay. He had gone through the woods and watched her as a man, watched her play her games. Then it had happened. It took over him, like he had taken the girl. She fought his grasp, but he wiggling only made his wolf-self hunger more. And the slight taste of blood had awakened something deeper in him, something....
NO!
Shaking his head, he continued on his trek to the castle. He had gone to the Willow after his foul act and now returned like nothing happened. His clothing was shred, like always. There was always blood on him when he came back. Nothing different about his looks. Just how he acted. His pace was heavy, as if he drug his feet.
Whipping his mouth on his tattered sleeve, he pushed the door to the Great Hall open and looked into the dark space before him. With a final glance behind him at the moon, he crept inside and quietly closed the door.
As he slowly made his way up the stairs to the Gryffindor common room, Remus Lupin tried to block out the thoughts that went racing through his mind. Blood. Screams. Death.
Monster
He would be expelled from Hogwarts if it were ever found out that it had been him who had killed the little girl, he knew that. He would also be tried as a criminal and be sent to Azkaban over a single mistake that he had made in his frenzied mind. A large mistake. If only he had gone to the Willow on time...
Yes, if only. He would have been at the Shrieking Shack, feeling the very living hell pulled out of him. But no, he was out. Free. Killing innocent people. He should have gone to the Willow, but now it was too late.
The damn wolf!
If only. Thoughts of his childhood came to him, his childhood that was plagued with sadness. His mother died when he had been only a few weeks old, leaving him in his father's care. A car accident when Remus was 5 years old and attending muggle kindergarten took his father's life. He had been sent to his grandparent's house, way out in the country. By the forests near the mountains. He had been bitten at the age of nine. Every since then, he had been a monster once a month.
When at his grandparents, he was set to roam free in the woods. He killed small animals, squirrels and rabbits and such. But never a human before. Never tasted human blood.
He stood at the portrait to the Common Room for a few minutes until he realized where he was. Giving the password to the lady in the frame, he walked inside and slumped into one of the chairs by the fire, not wanting to go up to bed. Just wanted to think.
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Wolfbane
His thoughts lingered on a song that his grandmother used to sing to him to get him to sleep. He had always loved that song, and had the first verse carved into her tombstone when she had died. His grandfather's grave lay a few yards away, underneath a willow tree. Ironic. They had died together in their sleep in the summer between his second and third years.
Wolfbane
He watched the fire crackling at the logs and his mind wandered again. Back to the woods. He saw the little girl sitting there, holding her doll in her tiny hand, saw her smiling face look up at the man watching her in the woods. Then it turned into a look of fear when...
Wolfbane
He shook his head, making the horrid thought escape his mind. He wanted to forget tonight, wanted to make it not exist. But it did exist and it wouldn't go away. The little girl's scream echoed in his mind.
He moved right up next to the fire, feeling the hot flames lick his skin slightly. He could just end it now. The little girl's death would be avenged...
"Remus!" a voice behind him called and he felt two hands on his shoulders. He tiled his head up and saw Lily Evens standing there, her face in vivid shock. He stood up and looked at her, saw her red hair and...
Blood
Remus shook his head and walked over to the couch, sitting himself down. Lily sat next to him, laying a hand on his back. He put his head in his hands, thinking about what he had been about to do. What he had just done.
"Remus, what's wrong?" she asked, her voice filled thick with emotion. He didn't move at all, just sat there with his head hung.
"I... nothing..." he said after awhile. She let out a sigh between her teeth and pulled her hand away.
"Remus, I... watched you not go into the Willow. I was worried, and went out side, sat in the gardens and watched for you. I heard a scream, then you running to the willow. What happened?" she said. He looked at her his mouth open. She had gone out, with risk to her own life. The scream. It echoed in his mind now, harder then ever.
"Lily... I killed a little girl," he said, looking right into her eyes. He expected to find shock, or fear, but there was no emotion at all. Just green eyes. Warm green eyes.
They said nothing for awhile, driving Remus into insanity. With every moment gone by, the scream was louder and louder. He just couldn't take it.
"Please, tell no one," he said. She nodded and stood up, motioning for him to do the same. They each walked to their own dorm rooms, not saying a word. As he opened the door to his, he heard the faint sound of her tears.
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Word of the little girl's death flew through the school at an alarming rate. Though there was no word of who, or what, had done it, Remus only knew that it was a matter of time.
They sat at breakfast. They being the Marauders and Lily. Sirius and James were having a healthy conversation about quiddich matches of the past years and what had gone wrong, Peter sat in his seat, swallowing his food whole and jumping whenever someone made a sound. Lily and Remus sat silent, picking at their food.
"What's wrong Lil, cat got your tounge?" James asked, nudging her in the side. She smiled weakly at him, then looked back at Remus. He was only dragging his fork across his plate in the same place over and over again and Lily wished there were something she could do to help.
James, her boyfriend, was the only one who knew her secret. She too was an animagus, like the rest of the group. James had taught her while he himself was learning it. She turned into an orange tabby cat, the fur matching her hair. It was his little joke to ask her weather the cat had her tounge and she usually found it funny. But not today.
James was a little worried about his friend Remus. By now at breakfast, they had always either gotten into a fight over something, or were having a relaxing food fight. But not today. James knew that last night was the full moon, and his friend had every right to be a little moody, but he had never been like this before.
Standing up, Remus pushed his plate toward the center of the table. Everyone around him looked at him then looked away when they saw the look on his face. Except for Lily. She got up too and they walked out of the room, gathering looks from everyone around them.
"James, I think Mooney is shagging your girl," Sirius joked, poking his friend in the ribs. James just watched them leave, then turned back to his food.
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Rating: PG-13
Summary: Remus Lupin is distraught over an accident in the woods during his transformation where a little girl is killed. Lily just happens to watch the whole ordeal and decides to help him, but he refuses to open up to her.
Disclaimer: I do not open any of the characters in this fan fiction. They are all the property of J. K. Rowling, the goddess that she is. I am not making any money off of this what so ever.
*~*
Blood.
He could feel the blood running down his lips slightly, but yet he did nothing to stop it. It was still warm, despite the night air and he shivered slightly, slinking through the shadows of the Hogwarts grounds. The Whomping Willow lay behind him; it's branches casting shadows in the grass before him, swaying slightly. He was grateful for the shadows.
Why?
Why had it happened like it did. He couldn't help the fact that it was a full moon, couldn't help that he had to take refuge inside the Shrieking Shack. But he hadn't gone there this time. No, he had gone into the Forbidden Forest, hoping that it wouldn't be very bad this month.
Screams
He could still hear the screams of the girl he had killed echoing in his mind. She had been playing on the edge of the forest, where a house lay. He had gone through the woods and watched her as a man, watched her play her games. Then it had happened. It took over him, like he had taken the girl. She fought his grasp, but he wiggling only made his wolf-self hunger more. And the slight taste of blood had awakened something deeper in him, something....
NO!
Shaking his head, he continued on his trek to the castle. He had gone to the Willow after his foul act and now returned like nothing happened. His clothing was shred, like always. There was always blood on him when he came back. Nothing different about his looks. Just how he acted. His pace was heavy, as if he drug his feet.
Whipping his mouth on his tattered sleeve, he pushed the door to the Great Hall open and looked into the dark space before him. With a final glance behind him at the moon, he crept inside and quietly closed the door.
As he slowly made his way up the stairs to the Gryffindor common room, Remus Lupin tried to block out the thoughts that went racing through his mind. Blood. Screams. Death.
Monster
He would be expelled from Hogwarts if it were ever found out that it had been him who had killed the little girl, he knew that. He would also be tried as a criminal and be sent to Azkaban over a single mistake that he had made in his frenzied mind. A large mistake. If only he had gone to the Willow on time...
Yes, if only. He would have been at the Shrieking Shack, feeling the very living hell pulled out of him. But no, he was out. Free. Killing innocent people. He should have gone to the Willow, but now it was too late.
The damn wolf!
If only. Thoughts of his childhood came to him, his childhood that was plagued with sadness. His mother died when he had been only a few weeks old, leaving him in his father's care. A car accident when Remus was 5 years old and attending muggle kindergarten took his father's life. He had been sent to his grandparent's house, way out in the country. By the forests near the mountains. He had been bitten at the age of nine. Every since then, he had been a monster once a month.
When at his grandparents, he was set to roam free in the woods. He killed small animals, squirrels and rabbits and such. But never a human before. Never tasted human blood.
He stood at the portrait to the Common Room for a few minutes until he realized where he was. Giving the password to the lady in the frame, he walked inside and slumped into one of the chairs by the fire, not wanting to go up to bed. Just wanted to think.
*~*
Wolfbane
His thoughts lingered on a song that his grandmother used to sing to him to get him to sleep. He had always loved that song, and had the first verse carved into her tombstone when she had died. His grandfather's grave lay a few yards away, underneath a willow tree. Ironic. They had died together in their sleep in the summer between his second and third years.
Wolfbane
He watched the fire crackling at the logs and his mind wandered again. Back to the woods. He saw the little girl sitting there, holding her doll in her tiny hand, saw her smiling face look up at the man watching her in the woods. Then it turned into a look of fear when...
Wolfbane
He shook his head, making the horrid thought escape his mind. He wanted to forget tonight, wanted to make it not exist. But it did exist and it wouldn't go away. The little girl's scream echoed in his mind.
He moved right up next to the fire, feeling the hot flames lick his skin slightly. He could just end it now. The little girl's death would be avenged...
"Remus!" a voice behind him called and he felt two hands on his shoulders. He tiled his head up and saw Lily Evens standing there, her face in vivid shock. He stood up and looked at her, saw her red hair and...
Blood
Remus shook his head and walked over to the couch, sitting himself down. Lily sat next to him, laying a hand on his back. He put his head in his hands, thinking about what he had been about to do. What he had just done.
"Remus, what's wrong?" she asked, her voice filled thick with emotion. He didn't move at all, just sat there with his head hung.
"I... nothing..." he said after awhile. She let out a sigh between her teeth and pulled her hand away.
"Remus, I... watched you not go into the Willow. I was worried, and went out side, sat in the gardens and watched for you. I heard a scream, then you running to the willow. What happened?" she said. He looked at her his mouth open. She had gone out, with risk to her own life. The scream. It echoed in his mind now, harder then ever.
"Lily... I killed a little girl," he said, looking right into her eyes. He expected to find shock, or fear, but there was no emotion at all. Just green eyes. Warm green eyes.
They said nothing for awhile, driving Remus into insanity. With every moment gone by, the scream was louder and louder. He just couldn't take it.
"Please, tell no one," he said. She nodded and stood up, motioning for him to do the same. They each walked to their own dorm rooms, not saying a word. As he opened the door to his, he heard the faint sound of her tears.
*~*
Word of the little girl's death flew through the school at an alarming rate. Though there was no word of who, or what, had done it, Remus only knew that it was a matter of time.
They sat at breakfast. They being the Marauders and Lily. Sirius and James were having a healthy conversation about quiddich matches of the past years and what had gone wrong, Peter sat in his seat, swallowing his food whole and jumping whenever someone made a sound. Lily and Remus sat silent, picking at their food.
"What's wrong Lil, cat got your tounge?" James asked, nudging her in the side. She smiled weakly at him, then looked back at Remus. He was only dragging his fork across his plate in the same place over and over again and Lily wished there were something she could do to help.
James, her boyfriend, was the only one who knew her secret. She too was an animagus, like the rest of the group. James had taught her while he himself was learning it. She turned into an orange tabby cat, the fur matching her hair. It was his little joke to ask her weather the cat had her tounge and she usually found it funny. But not today.
James was a little worried about his friend Remus. By now at breakfast, they had always either gotten into a fight over something, or were having a relaxing food fight. But not today. James knew that last night was the full moon, and his friend had every right to be a little moody, but he had never been like this before.
Standing up, Remus pushed his plate toward the center of the table. Everyone around him looked at him then looked away when they saw the look on his face. Except for Lily. She got up too and they walked out of the room, gathering looks from everyone around them.
"James, I think Mooney is shagging your girl," Sirius joked, poking his friend in the ribs. James just watched them leave, then turned back to his food.
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