So this is "Forgive Me… Not" the sequel to "Love Will Change Everything". So you should have read LWCE before reading this one ;) Anyway have fun reading the story and PLEASE tell me what you think about it :) Lots of Love

Title: Forgive Me… Not

Two weeks have past. Melinda made Jim signing her out of the hospital although the doctor wasn't too happy about it because he wanted to have a close eye on Melinda so that she wouldn't overstrain herself but Melinda insisted on going home. Jim had to promise the doctor that he'd have a very close eye on Melinda which meant that he wasn't allowed to go to work. So Jim called in at the station and told his boss what had happened. The boss told him to stay with Melinda and to take good care of her. When Melinda and Jim arrived at home Jim carried her to the bedroom and lay her down on the bed.

Melinda: "Jim, I could have walked up here on my own!" she said a bit annoyed.

Jim: "No you're not allowed to even put one foot on this floor. Honey, I don't want to lose you but when you get up that's what will happen." He said worried.

Melinda: "I'm sorry, Jim."

Jim: "Don't be. I'm just worried about you, that's all."

Melinda: "Okay." She yawned.

Jim: "Are you tired?"

Melinda: "Yes."

Jim: "Then go to sleep and I'll go downstairs and take care of some things. You'll call me if you need anything, okay?" he asked her.

Melinda: "Okay." She said sleepy and lay down comfortably.

Jim kissed her forehead and noticed that she already was sound asleep. Then he quietly left the bedroom and went downstairs. About an hour later Jim decided to go upstairs and look after Melinda. When he entered the room Melinda was about to get up.

Jim: "Woho, Mel, what are you doing?" he asked as he ran over to her holding her back to the bed with a soft grip around her but hard enough to hold her back.

Melinda: "Jim, it's okay. I just need to go to the toilet."

Jim: "You're not going to the toilet alone, I'll carry you."

Melinda: "You want to carry me everywhere for 7 months? That's ridiculous."

Jim: "It's not. Do you want to die?" He said seriously.

Melinda: "No, but I don't want to be treated like this either!"

Jim: "Honey, I know that you don't like it but you have to cope with me doing this."

Melinda: "Fine." She said annoyed. "You want to carry me, too, when I take a shower?"

Jim: "No, because you'll take a bath and not a shower. It'll relax you!"

Melinda: "Only if you join me." She said playfully.

Jim: "Sure I will." He lifted her and carried her to the bathroom.

Now it was night on September 25th, Melinda's due date. Melinda and Jim were laying in bed. They were hugging each other as tightly as possible. Melinda seemed to hug Jim tighter than the other way round because he was scared to hurt her or the baby. Jim was really cautious because the baby could come any second. Melinda was sound asleep but Jim not. Melinda and Jim had gone to bed early today because she was very hurting. The last months of her pregnancy weren't fun at all. She was moody and her back hurt all the time. She was exhausted and Jim didn't want to stay awake alone. Suddenly Melinda opened her eyes and looked at Jim terrified.

Melinda: "JIM…" she woke up in shock and wanted to wake up Jim.

Jim: "What is wrong baby?"

Melinda: "I-I think…"

Jim: "What do you think?"

Melinda: "M-My… Water broke." She said very fast as she felt some warm liquid between her legs.

Jim: "WHAT? Oh my god… Honey, don't move. I'm gonna get you to the hospital now. Your drifts will start soon. Tell me every time when one comes, okay?"

Melinda: "Okay." She was shocked and worried. "Will it hurt much?"

Jim: "Well, you…" he didn't know what to say.

Melinda: "Jim… Be honest. Will it hurt much?" she said a bit louder.

Jim: "Okay, it's gonna hurt a lot." He wrapped a blanket around her and lifted her. Then he went downstairs and out of the house. He brought her to the car and slowly put her down on the passenger seat. "Are you okay?"

Melinda: "Sure… My water just broke and I'm gonna be in much pain soon… Everything is alright." She said sarcastically.

Jim: "Sorry, stupid question. Breathe calmly. We'll be at the hospital faster than you think, okay?" he closed her door and went to the driver's seat. Then he drove off and hit the speed limit but this didn't matter to him. Melinda's drifts were starting. On his way he called the hospital.

They made it to the hospital within 13 minutes. Jim carried her in the ER where a nurse was running with a wheelchair towards them. Jim sat Melinda down in it and she was rushed to the delivery room. The drifts were getting closer. In the delivery room a doctor and two nurses were waiting for them. Melinda was lifted out of the wheelchair and placed on an examination table.

Doctor: "Okay, Miss Gordon. It's gonna be hard for you now. Giving birth is a risky because you're so young and we'd rather not do a C-Section because it'd mean the death of you and the baby. We just have this one chance, okay? So you have to push when I count up to three, okay?"

Melinda nodded her head. She had an expression of fear and pain on her face. She grabbed Jim's hand and pushed it.

Doctor: "Are you ready? 1… 2… 3… Push… And again. 1… 2… 3… Push."

Melinda did as the doctor told her and screamed at the pain.

Jim: "Honey, it's alright. You're doing great." He stroked her head with his free hand.

Doctor: "And 1… 2… 3… Push." Melinda didn't push. "Miss Gordon, what's wrong? You have to push!"

Melinda: "I-I… C-Can't… P-Pain…" was all she could say.

Jim: "Babe, please push… Otherwise it's gonna take even longer." He pled.

Melinda waited until she felt the next drift coming and pushed. She stopped listening to the doctors and did what her body told her to do. She pushed again when the next drift came.

Doctor: "I can see the head coming."

Melinda pushed hard again and again.

Doctor: "One more push and the head is out. Take a deep breath and push again."

Melinda did as the doctor told her and the baby was out. She fell back on the examination table in exhaustion.

Nurse: "Out at 11.48pm."

Doctor: "It's a boy!"

Nurse: "He's not breathing…" she said warning.

Melinda: "What's wrong with him? Why isn't he breathing?" she cried in worry.

Jim wanted to walk over to the nurse and the baby but the doctor wouldn't let him. The doctor called another nurse who helped to perform CPR.

Melinda: "Jim… Make su-sure he's a-alright… Please…" she cried even harder because she felt so helpless.

Jim: "I will honey, I will."

Suddenly the screams of a baby filled the room.

Jim and Melinda looked at each other with relieve in their eyes.

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