this is my thoughts on the hidden chapter (where he magically recovers after being impaled by wonderweiss) its a different take on it, i haven't seen anything like this in this situation but i guess im new to the block so who knows, ANYWAY, this is my second fan fiction and i hope you guys like it

im not gonna hound you guys for reviews, but it would be nice to see what you guys think

(i failed to do this last time) i do not own any of these characters, kubo tite does regrettably, im just borrowing them (i asked... or forced permission)

It was an odd moment, it happened in a second, I almost didn't feel it at all. I remember looking down and seeing a bloody hand, it was oddly placed, directly through my chest. I didn't have time to feel shocked, I was standing in midair facing starrk, the first espada, it seemed like seconds, then i was falling into the inevitable blackness of unconsciousness. i knew i was going to fall out of the air but i couldn't stop that from happening, my mind was shattered, sogyo's hilt was in my hand but i could feel them slipping, i seemed to lose my grip. wonderwiese removed his hand, he made a weird sound and looked at my blood on his hand, he sounded happy, but i guess i could be confused because by then i was fading out, i was falling too, but i only just registered that as i landed hard on the ground, though the landing didn't seem to hurt too much for some reason. i coughed blood, this was nothing unusual, but now i felt the gaping hole in my chest and the intense pain flaring out all through my body, i let out a pained groan, amazingly i still had sogyo in my hands. the world was becoming darker and i couldn't make sense of much, but i could tell i was bleeding, but my body felt crushed, broken, and that was about where i blacked out, i don't remember anything after that

i struggled to open my eyes, sleep trying to drag me back, it took a minute to focus, my eyes not really playing nice, but eventually i did, i saw a plain ceiling, i moved my head and the room spun, i quickly learnt to stay still, the spinning was making me queasy. i couldn't recognize where i was, though the place seemed somewhat familiar to me, i tried to remember, causing me to realize, it hurt if i thought too much. while i was thinking though, i found that, there wasn't all that much i could remember, a few things here and their but i couldn't tell what those things were.

i guess my senses were down because someone had taken hold of my hand, i pulled my hand back in a delayed reaction, i looked at the culprit, or tried but the room spun before i could get a good look, i groaned softly, feeling ill, eventually it stopped again and i could look at the person who grabbed my hand, sound made its way to me as well, though i had a feeling the person had been talking for longer then i had realized.

a man had grabbed my hand, he looked visibly tired, and you could tell he hadn't looked after himself for a while, he was unshaven and it looked uncontrolled, a lock of brown hair hung over his face, and the rest of his hair was messy and frizzy, that wasn't the strangest thing about this man though, he was wearing a black Shihakushō, the uniform of the dead, not only that, a flowered cape over it, the guy also had quite a curious smell about him, sake mixed with body odour, though together the smell seemed stale and old, like he hadn't seen anything fresher in a while, despite everything about this man that was screaming out stay away, the guy seemed familiar, i couldn't place why, he also carried a look of sorrow, yet there was hope in his eyes, he spoke again.

'jushiro... can you hear me?" the man sounded familiar as well, he waved his hand as if to get my attention, i heard him clearly but he seemed to be speaking gibberish, it sounded like a name but i didn't recognize it, jushiro, the word seemed to just sit in my mind knowingly without hinting at anything. i opened my mouth to say something but i seemed to have trouble actually saying something, i couldnt find my voice, the man turned to the woman beside him, disturbingly, she was also dessed in a black Shihakushō, only she had a badge on her arm, a clip board in her hands and short silver hair with strands hanging down.

'lt kotetsu... is he ok?' the man would ask her, again, it seemed the man was speaking gibberish, but i stayed quiet, it seemed rude to interrupt the two.

she just looked at him unsure 'im not sure captain, give me a minute OK' then she stepped closer and kneeled down closer to me, she spoke slowly and clearly, purposely and her eyes showed worry but inspected me purposely 'captain ukitake, can you speak?' something in her voice helped me find mine.

i replied 'yeah' but my voice sounded harsh, like i hadn't spoken in quite a while, both the man and women seemed pleased when they heard me speak, both smiling and looking greatly relieved, the woman stood up and looking much happier she starting to inspect my signs, i didn't know what they were so happy about, and i was confused as to what the woman was doing, its not that i didn't trust her but i was unsure.

the man was watching me intently, he must have noticed my unease 'jushiro... are you ok'

'yeah, im ok' i replied, i gave him a smile, granted, not a very confident smile, the man and women still seemed to mystify me, i didn't know who they were, the man smiled back, though the smile looked forced yet natural, his eyes still showed concern for me and he sat beside me

'juu, you know you cant lie to me, whats wrong old friend' said the man, it comforted me, i had no idea why, the woman finished checking my signs, i felt glad. she smiled, writing notes in here clip board.

'your going to be just fine captain ukitake, your perfect' she said this with confidence, the man seemed happy to hear this as well, he looked up to the woman.

'thank you lt kotetsu' he seemed grateful

'my pleasure captain kyouraku' she replied with a smile

'thank you' i said to the woman quietly, i didn't know her name so i just said a simple thank you, i spoke quietly'

the man went back to watching me, he looked bothered 'juu-chan'

i looked back at him unsure, i am certain he was talking to me, the man grabbed my hand again 'are you really alright juu' he asked me with concern

i don't know how to reply, but the man grabbing my hand made me feel uncomfortable, yet at the same time it was comforting, i pulled away, i felt guilty for not knowing the man, he seemed to know me very well, i looked away from him, i had a horrible feeling i was letting him down, the woman was watching, she was thinking, a thoughtful look on her face, then she must have had an idea because she tapped the man on the shoulder and she took his place.

'captain, can you answer a few questions' she spoke in that slow way again, i looked at her, unsure, i hoped the questions weren't hard because my head was still hurting from last time i tried thinking. 'captain, do you know where we are?' she motioned the room behind her.

i looked around but i couldnt name the place, in fact, it made me feel more lost, i looked at her again and said quietly 'no'

she seemed surprised by this 'its the fourth division...' the woman looked thoughtful, i could tell that she was getting less happy with each reaction 'OK, do you know why your here?' she looked at me expectantly.

another thing i couldn't remember, my head was hurting but surely that was no cause for memory loss, was it? 'no' i replied quietly, unsure as ever.

the woman now seemed rather off put, the man silent behind her, both shared a look, and the woman asked me somewhat hesitantly 'do you know your name?'

it was the same result as the previous questions, i realized i didn't know who i was, what i looked like, my name, i knew nothing, i felt shocked, upset, i felt empty, i looked at the woman who expession had changed to a sad look, im guessing she guessed my answer, so had the man 'no... who am i?'

the women bit her lip, obvioulsy holding back emotions 'you are captain jushiro ukitake, of the thirteenth division, you were impaled and very nearly died, you fell from at least the top of a skyscraper, and you survived... without your memories...' she stood then and looked at the man, soundlessly apologising. the man looked to the ground and clenched his fists, then picked up a wide brimed straw hat that is sitting beside him, he puts it on his head and looks at me lost.

'so thats why you wont answer me juu chan' he smiled, the smile not reaching his eyes 'you could have said so sooner old friend'