RPOV
"Im sorry, I cant. I love you, You know how much I love you and I love the idea of being married to you, but. There are just alot of things right now in my life that are undecided, and that used to scare me but now I kinda like the idea that everytings....open. If I married you it just wouldnt be." I squirmed inder his gave, hating the fact that i was going to hurt him.
I dream a lot, I know you say I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
"So what I go to SanFransico you stay on the east, we see each other occasinaly?" He sounded calm, like the calm before the storm.
"Well we can try long distance, weve done it before." I had to insist, I couldnt lose him.
"You really think thats gonna work?" he sounded incredulous and annoyed at the suggestion, I was losing him I could see it.
"I think it would be hard but...." I only got so far be fore he let out an exasperated sigh, I didnt know what to do.
"I dont want to do that Rory, I dont want to go backwards. If we cant take the next step." He shruggs like it should be so obvious.
"Does it have to be all or nothing?" Why? Why did it have to be this way, I dont want an ultimatum!
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away
"Yeah, it does," I feel like Ive been punched in the gut, I knew this was comming but it still hurt like hell, this was it.
"But,but we could at least try," It was weak but I couldnt give up yet.
"Whats the point?" It was over we both new it. There was nothing left to do, nothing left to say.
Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.
LPOV
She just stood staring at me like id kicked her puppy, I wanted to hold her and scream at her all at once. I loved her, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, why didnt she want that? Her next move almost brought me to my knees, she pulled out the ring, she was telling me no. I couldnt take, I didnt even want to look at it. After awhile I took it, there was no going back. I basicly ran from her, I couldnt watch her face see her watch me go and not even try and stop me.
Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.
RPOV
It was so quick. He just turned and left. I guess I really didnt think I deserved a proper goodbybe, but watching his retreating form left a dull throb in my chest.
Cause today, you walked out of my life But what do I know, if you're leaving
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember
Stay with me, Cause today, you walked out of my life
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life