Hey,this is my first fanfic. So please be nice. I'd like to dedicate this to my girlfriend,she makes my life complete and everyday I fall in love with her. I was blue and she rescued me. I love you,duckie.
All mistakes are mine and sadly I do not own Skins.
Let Her In
Tap-tap. Someone's at the window.
I can hear the whispers,the pebbles crushed beneath her feet. I close my eyes for a moment,my heart starts to race and ache with anxiety. I know who's outside,I know her heartbeats,her breathing...I know who owns her thoughts.
God knows she owns mine.
Once upon a time life was blue for me. Everything was blue. I thought watching it pass by without really living it would somehow keep the pain away. But as the days went by,I kept hurting. I kept drowning.
And then,I was lost.
Red found me in between. Can't say I believed in it in the beginning,blue was already my color. But then she smiled and I was hers. No way of denying it,for I'd only breath properly when she was near. I'd only feel secure in her arms.
I ran. Once,twice...I made her cry because of my damn insecurities. I felt so much for her it scared the shit out of me. I always thought that love wasn't enough,but somehow she kept coming back. She wouldn't let me drown again. And just then love became enough. Emily was enough.
She asked me to be brave for her,to want her back and I did. I wanted her more than anything. So,I tried to be brave. I keep trying everyday.
She's worth it.
You see,she keeps the pain away. She makes me warm inside. I'm not lonely anymore. Life became full,she filled me with love and red. My once blue existence was now all red for Emily.
But sometimes it gets scary again. When she's not around to make me sure and my mind starts to wonder. Maybe I'm not worthy of her love. Maybe she's going to leave just like everybody else did. I'm aware that she could ruin me,and even if she did I'd go on loving her until the end.
Tap-tap.
She's there.
Emily. Even the sound of her name makes me shiver. Makes my heart ache,but in a good way. In a loving way that is only for her.
I'm scared thinking that she's here to break up with me. I'm scared that she's here to ruin me.
All of a sudden,I don't want to open the window. I just want to crawl back into the bed,back into the blue and stay still. But my legs betray me and take two steps towards her,they're already addicted to Emily's warm skin. Then it's my hart who joins the rebellion,it starts pounding with excitement.
I push the curtains away to be faced with her lovely features. Her eyes read every emotion that passes through mine as she realizes I'm going through a bit of a crisis.
But I can't remember any of it.
I'm already lost in red. Drowning in her gorgeous brown eyes and,this time,I don't want to be saved.
She whispers something that I can't quite understand,I'm too distracted by the moving of her lips,by the batting of her eylashes. She's mine.
And then I know I've got nothing to worry about. I'm loved.
She puts her small hand on the glass window and I put mine over hers,I can almost feel the warmth. I know she's saying that she's there for me,and I believe her.
"Let me in." She whispers and my heart melt. She smiles,I'm hers all over again.
"Please," My heart starts pleading."let her in."
Mum used to say that people that makes us happy are never the people we expect. Well,I've had people in my life but they always failed at making me happy.