My paws sink into the dirt in ThunderClan territory as I walk. I feel anxiety and anger churn and mix together in my stomach. Why did I tell Cinderheart? I gave away everything to her...and ended up losing everything. But I don't feel anger at her, I feel anger at myself. It's all my fault. Everything would have been find if I never spilled out everything. She would be against my fur, licking my ear...and I wouldn't be out in the cold now.

Wait, where am I going? It takes only seconds to realize I'm going towards WindClan territory. I can't stop myself, as if I'm a puppet and the master is making me go to WindClan. I stop at the border.

Why? Why, why,why? The words are spinning in my head. Why?

Suddenly, I smell something. I smell something familiar, a smell that I have never forgotten and never will. I brace myself for that sweet voice that I fell for.

"Lionblaze?"

I growl as she appears, her beautiful tabby fur and heather blue eyes...Stop it! I scream at myself. Don't fall for her again!

She looks like she's hurt. Her eyes are wide with shock and pain. "Lionblaze!"

I back away. "Traitor!" I yell. Anger pulses through my body and I have to stop myself from slashes at her.

She stumbles back and her eyes are mixed with anxiety. "I didn't tell anyone about the tunnels!" she says desperately.

"I don't believe you," I say through gritted teeth, trying to control myself. "No one else knew about the tunnels!"

Now she looks angry. She lifts her head and steps forward. "A lot of cats knew! Can't you just accept the fact that I'm innocent?"

"No," I reply. She lied to me! She made me a promise and broke it!

"Why!" she pleads desperately.

"Because it's not a fact. It's a lie."

"It's not a lie!" she wails. Her head is towards the sky and her eyes are closed, as if she's pleading for StarClan's forgiveness.

Ha! StarClan's forgiveness! She doesn't deserve any forgiveness!

"I didn't tell anyone!" she continues to screech. "Lionblaze, please just-"

I snarl and she stops talking. "I loved you, Heathertail. You said you loved me back. That was a lie. Everything about you is a lie!" I yell and I feel more fury flaring in my heart as I hear the pleading in my own voice.

"I love you so much, Lionblaze! I never lied!"

I feel sorry for her. I actually feel sorry for her! But I only feel a little regret of feel sorry. She's staring at me with wide desperate eyes that are full of pain.

I shake my head and make everything turn the opposite. I make all the sympathetic feelings into anger. "I thought I found the perfect cat for me. I thought I found someone who would never lie to me."

"I. Didn't. Lie!" she screeches.

I curl my lip. "I trusted you, Heathertail. I thought you could keep the promise we made to each other."

"Lionblaze, please just lis-"

"You meant something to me Heathertail." I back away, shaking my head again. "Now you mean nothing."

Heathertail is desperately gazing at me. Her ears and whiskers are drooped. "I didn't lie, Lionblaze. I loved you too and still do. I would never betray you. Please! Just listen to what I say! I'm so sorry!'

I glare at her. "Too late to say sorry, Heathertail." I turn and run away. I glance over my shoulder and she's still staring after me. She's wailing loudly.

I look away, hoping she hadn't seen the longing in my eyes.