Before you, my life was nothing,
Ceaseless boredom and unrest
But you awaked within me feelings
I knew not that I possessed
Your fingertips upon the ehru
I'll never tire of that sound
Your hair, your lips, your voice, your music
Even my cold heart begins to pound
And yet, your eyes, so distant,
Looking past me, pierce me through
Never truly seeing me
Hold another in your view
Cruelty and kindness
I've never know the difference
Never felt and never cared
Selfish, never shared
I wanted your brown, gentle eyes
To grace none but my face
I longed for your slim body
To feel only my embrace
And yet you could not understand
A selfish man like me
You closed yourself, rejected my attentions
And knew you could never accept
My self-centered intentions
Then, unexpected and exotic, I realized in time
That for the first time in my life
I'd live for someone else's sake
If you would become mine
I longed to see you smile,
But now my vision fades
The taste of blood upon my lips
The weight upon my chest
My fingers reach one final time
To feel your soft, pale skin
And touch your hair, tied firmly back
Much to my chagrin
My cold fingers pull loose the ribbon
I like it better this way
Pick up your ehru, just once more
I'd like to hear you play
I lean forward one last time
Ebony hair and porcelain flesh
Against my fingertips
Your mouth so soft and sweet on mine
My blood upon your lips
Silence.
Why won't you play for me?
Why won't you hear my pleas?
How dear am I to you, what rank,
What number? Please…
I wanted you to call my name
To hear your dulcet laughter
I wanted you to brew me tea--
You only gave me water
I wanted you to love me back
To wear your hair down just for me
But you denied me of the joy,
Of words I longed for you to say
You did not harbor ill intent,
You did not know the truth
The poison that you poured for me,
Unknowing and well-meant,
Within the water meant for tea
I drank quite willingly
You did not know, I'll never say
I only wish that you would stay
But as your footsteps fade, I know
You've always been so far away
So kind, so cruel, naïve, yet strong
Your face, your hair, your eyes, your lips
Your hands upon the ehru strings
Your head bowed as you play
Your name upon my dying breath
My dear, my love,
Shuurei…