Disclaimer: I do not any of the characters etc.

'It was your choice, your decision. You don't have the right to come back here now. I was already broken, you know that. But you couldn't stick around to find out if I was strong enough to get through this...you just left.' She could feel the lump in her throat, tears were already streaming down her face but to acknowledge the emotion would see it overcome her.

'You shut me out' Callie pleaded.

'And you're holding that against me? I don't think anyone knows how to deal with the loss of a child Callie. No one. My rational mind shut down for a while. I'm sorry I didn't live up to your expectations but I would have thought you could have given me some time to deal before running off.' The audible anger in her voice made Callie take a step back. She thought about her decision to return to Seattle, the hardest she had ever made. She gathered herself and stepped forward again remembering the promise to herself that whilst this wasn't going to be easy, she needed to prove to Arizona that this time she was not running.

'But I gave you time, every day'

'For how long exactly? This was never going to be gone overnight'

Callie lowered her voice 'I'm sorry, I love you'

'But not enough to stick around' Arizona turned and grabbed onto the nearest chair. She hadn't realised how much she was shaking.

'I was scared, you completely shut down. I was grieving too and there just seemed as though there was no space for that...you had it all. You carried her, you guys were bonding for six months before I even got to meet her. And then she was torn from us. We were BOTH broken, we both did and said things we shouldn't have. I shouldn't have walked away, but at the time I just wasn't thinking straight. I needed to get my head back.'

Arizona shook her head and tried to breathe. She was exhausted, this fight had exhausted her and she didn't have much more energy to invest into it.

'I've moved on!' she blurted

You've moved on?

'Well, I'm moving on... and I'm not stopping with that as you've decided this is now our time. Always on your terms Calliope. It has taken you a year, and yes...I am moving on'

'I'm not going anywhere Ari, we need to sort this out. Don't shut me out like before, I'm back for you and I'm staying.'

'Well good luck with that,' Arizona said as she marched over to the door and held it open for her ex. Callie looked at her questioningly but as she saw the hurt in the blonde's eyes she resolved herself that this was clearly enough for today. She left, pausing at the door to look at Arizona 'I'm sorry' she whispered, trying to meet her eyes but the blonde only looked down, her face blank.

Arizona shut the door with what felt like all her remaining strength and fell against it. She didn't cry, she couldn't. Her limp body slid down the door and she brought her knees in. Eyes wide, she stared into her living room trying to cut off the memories that were suddenly drowning her.