I own Degrassi. Not really. I do not own degrassi. Enjoy. Title from U2 song. Great song, you should check it out
One
Bailey: You know what I like most about the stars? You look at them, at all of them up there... and you just know there's gotta be something more than...
Tibby: Life?
Bailey: There has to be.
Tibby: Are you scared?
Bailey: Not of dying, really. It's more that I'm afraid of time. And not having enough of it. Time to figure out who I'm supposed to be... to find my place in the world before I have to leave it. I'm afraid of what I'll miss.
~Sisterhood of the traveling pants 1
Life really sucks. Strange, you figure, because you think I, Darcy Edwards, have it all. I used to think that too back when I was little, too young to see the world as it really is. I was so
wrong. Sometimes it feels so hopeless, like nothing really matters in a life where every time you turn the corner another death, another rape, another poor child killed for no more reason
then they were stuck in the wrong place at the wrong time. You look at me oddly. You ask yourself "what in the world does Darcy the bible – thumper Edwards know about pain?" Funny
how quickly you forget about the rumors at school.
Did you hear that Darcy tried to kill herself? What a loser.
Darcy and Johnny, that pair doesn't surprise me. She is such a S-L-U-T.
That freak, Darcy, accused Mr. Simpson of sexual abuse.
You don't know all the facts. You don't even have anything close to the truth. But there you go, making judgments about me. Although I agree, I am a slut. I am suicidal. I am a freak. I am
a loser. But I know all the facts, you don't. I messed up. Don't you do that? Then stop looking at me like that.
I am sorry okay. Here I am being judgmental, when I really just wanted to give you some advice.
Live each day. First off, if you have demons deal with them by talking to a friend. Then tell your parents. If need be tell a counselor. I was raped at a party last year by a guy I am yet to
meet. Since I was a kid I would always wait in anticipation for the guy I would someday love, marry, and then make love with. It didn't happen that way, and I was devastated. I don't
think you understand how much it hurt. Imagine the one treasure that you cherish beyond all others. The thing you dream of your whole life, all of that being torn from your grasp and
used against you ripping your soul in half. It sucked. I dealt with it the wrong way, by trying to kill myself because I just couldn't live with the truth of knowing I will be forever scarred by
someone I have never even really met. I should have let go of what happened. I tried, I really did. I just couldn't. I can now. When I wake up each morning, I thank God for one more day.
One more day that he gave me to change the life of a friend, somehow I knew inside that I could make a difference. The truth of that set me free, let me live life even when it seemed to
be crashing down.
Find good friends, and rely on them. I am so blessed to have Manny as a friend. Without her, I would be dead right now, just another statistic and another death toll. I owe her a life
debt, but she would just respond "that's what friends are for." Trust in them, tell them things that are eating away at you, and they will lighten your load. You will be able to lighten their
loads as well.
Be grateful. You are blessed enough to be given another day. I was. You can do so much in one day, in one moment. My life was ruined in one moment; someone else's can be forever
changed for the better. You are blessed with time; some people don't have much of it so make the most of it you can. You are blessed with family, friends, and others that care about you.
Don't give up. Don't back down. Don't give death, or self-injury, or depression, or boredom a victory. Claim yours.