I do not know how it started. I just snapped and it happened. I did not mean to do it. Or did I? How was it possible? For the one person everyone thought was full of youth and happiness…to kill an innocent person? I leave the Inuzuka household, leaving the bodies behind. I leave before Kiba's mother and sister wake up to the smell of blood and guts. I beat the bodies up so badly, their faces unrecognizable. I jump through the trees quickly, wings appear on my feet as I hear dogs mourn, and the women's screams. Poor Kiba. Poor Akamaru. I do not know why I killed them. I just did. He was my first kill. I felt horrible, then again, somewhat alive. The thrill of seeing blood sent electric shocks up my own bloodstream. I remembered how it started.
"Come on!" Neji yelled at me. I charged at him with a war cry. He dodged my attack gracefully. He hit another chakra point in my back that sent me tumbling forward. "Come on, Lee! You can do it!" I heard Guy-sensei cheer. Tenten clapped. "Yeah! That's the spirit, Lee!" she yelled. I felt the anger build up inside. My whole body started to tremble. I was tired of Neji. He was always thinking he was better than everybody else. I know Guy-sensei told me not to dislike anything, but it's hard not to dislike him.
"Lee, are you okay?" Tenten asked. "I know he isn't crying." Neji said in pure disgust. That was it. I phased over to him. To surprised by the sudden burst of speed he did not react suddenly. The next he knew he was flying into a tree with brutal force. Blood trickled down his mouth. I charged at him again and hit him in the face with a wave fists. Destroying his face was today's goal. Killing him was my lifetime goal. Next thing I knew I was pinned to the ground by at least three other jounin. Kurenai, Guy-sensei, and…Kakashi. I struggled uselessly against them.
"Let me go! Now!" I screamed as tears rushed down my cheeks. "Lee, calm down." Guy-sensei told me. I saw Kiba, Shino, Hinata, Sakura, Tenten, Sasuke, and Naruto look at me. I stopped struggling and just stopped. My whole body shut down. Blackness surrounded my vision.
Neji has not said a word to me since. I did not care. I still hated him. He was the only thing on my dislikes list. And when I say the only thing, I mean the only thing. I do not know why I did not kill him instead. I guess because I did not want to be in a mental hospital, or jail, or possibly dead. So I would just take my anger out on some poor chap. That poor chap just happen to be Kiba. He was the closest and stupidest…to me. I remove my clothes as I enter my empty apartment. No parents. I think they died some time ago. I take my clothes with as I go to the bathroom. Did not want Guy-sensei to walk in and see them.
I threw my clothes in washing machine after I had paranoid thoughts. I got in the shower and scrubbed thoroughly. I heard thunder. I sighed. I wished someone was here to comfort me. Someone I could hold while storms passed. I got out and put on more clothes. I went into my room, refusing to turn on the light. I did not want to see the monster I had become in the mirror. I opened the curtains and watched the rain fall in my window. Thunder and lightning cracked here and there. I walked backwards until I collapsed on my bed.
Maka looked at me with her button eyes. One green, the other yellow. She was a stuffed bunny Sakura made for me. Her fur was green, but on her left ear was a stitched patch of pink. I treated that bunny like a mother would treat her newborn baby. 'What happened?' she asked. "I killed someone. I did not mean to. It just happened." I whispered. 'It's okay. You were only angry. Everyone makes mistakes.' Tears started to flow. Not these kind of mistakes.
I grabbed Maka and held her closely. I wept on her fur. "Lee, are you okay?" I jumped, and turned around to see Guy-sensei looking at me with a sympathetic eyes. By the tell of his clothes, he had just walked in. No sign of him being here already was shown. "I-I am fine." He came over and sat next to me. "Tell me what's wrong." Stubborn he was. I had to make up a lie and fast.
"I am lonely." I lied…well it wasn't really a lie. I was kind of lonely. He hugged me. "Lee, it's okay. You have friends." he said. Then I spilt it. "It is all a mask, Guy-sensei!" I cried. "I am not as happy as you think I am! I know you tell me to always keep believing in myself. Well it is hard! It is hard to be somebody with people who think little of you. Even Naruto has friends. Where are mine! Tenten practically hates me. Neji is a ghost. Guy-sensei you are always with Kakashi. And I am here alone with a stuffed rabbit given to me by Sakura who only thinks of me as a sad, sad, sad boy who is trying to become something he will never be!"
Thunder and lightning rumbled and crackled together in agreement. The rain showed it agreed with me by pounding harder against my window. Silence followed. "Lee…" he started. I dropped down to my knees. "Maybe hard work doesn't pay off." I said. I felt Guy-sensei's hand lock my arm in a tight grip. "Tomorrow! Tomorrow we will begin to destroy his evil thing inside you! It's called Depression, Lee. And it's going to stop you and hold you in place until you can't take it anymore." I forced a smile, and shot up towards him, hugging him tightly.
"Thank you, Guy-sensei!"