The night was usually my time of the day. It usually made me feel happy in some ways. But tonight was different. It had just stopped raining and everything is so wet, so tranquil, so sad. It's as if the only people in the world were I and this girl on my side. It was quiet, too quiet.

"I'm sorry..". She broke the silence. Her voice fished out my thoughts from the trance it has been floating in to.

I looked at her face.

It was dark where we sat and the only source of light was coming from a yellow street light to our right. But I managed still to make out her features, her emotions... Her eyes filled with guilt and sadness.

"How could you do this to me and then just say sorry?!"

It wasn't actually the words that I had in mind (and I never meant to be straight forward, but that would have to do).

Silence.

"Listen, I never meant to... Meant to..."

"Meant to what? Betray me?"

Her face froze, shocked to hear my strong words.

"I never betrayed you! I have always loved you and you know that. It's just that..."

"Just what? Tell me! What made you do this? Tell me...please."

An awkward silence.

I remember talking to a friend earlier. He's a bestfriend, more like a brother, in fact. We always shared our problems and heard each other's word for it. I remember him telling me that I should really have this conversation with the girl. A closure, perhaps. He was right. I did need that talk. It wasn't going to be easy, but I have to eventually.

The silence was deafening.

It was but an all too familiar scene for the both of us. Kind of like the first time we've seen each other in person about a week ago. It was on this same place, same bench that we sat in for hours. Oh, and it was night too. But tonight was different. Neither of us we're laughing, nor singing our favorite song. Tonight was different.

The silence was deafening. As it always does. This time, I chose to break it.

"So. Who was the lucky guy who won your heart? He he..."

I said as I gave out a half-hearted smile.

I was staring at her. Waiting for an answer, though I already know who the 'lucky' guy was. His name was Aj, or was it Mj? It didn't really matter.

"Listen, I chose him, aj, over you because.. Well, we've known each other for years. I only knew you a few days ago. And he's been courting me for months now... I know that this is a very shallow and stupid reason... but please, I don't want you to forgive me. I just want you to understand..."

She caught me off-guard. How long was she pondering about what she's going to say? What if she's only making these things up? Am I going to believe her? Does she really believe she could fool me that easily? Will I forgive her? These questions kept circling my head, desperately searching for answers. I was still in a state of... Should we call it denial? or acceptance? I was still in shock, but have to reply to her somehow...

"Ah. So this means that you were just playing with me these past few days?"

I cursed myself just right after I said that. She might have hurt my feelings, but she didn't deserve such painful words. It's not entirely her fault I felt this way.

"No! Every single moment we've spent together was real! Everything I said was true!"

At this she burst into tears.

I hugged her, probably for the last time. And I whispered into her ears..

"I love you, and I forgive you. I wasn't mad at you, I was just sad. Sad that it would just end up like this..."

The rain started to pour again. I offered to accompany her home. She just smiled, probably one of the best smiles she gave me, and then she started running. I watched with tears in my eyes as she raced away. Those were the last words between us. Well, at least they were meaningful.

"I will always kiss you goodnight."

The night was usually my time of day. It usually made me feel happy in some ways. But tonight was different. It was pouring really hard and everything was drenched much like my eyes. Everything is so wet, so tranquil, so sad. It's as if I was the only person in the world. It was quiet, too quiet.