Okay so I started thinking different things for White Day. Totty and Kara are my favourites and I thought how funny it would be when Totty gives a White Day gift to himself. Then my mind went to angstier stuff and to this.

Todomatsu White Day

14.3. White Day.

That was the first thought coming to Todomatsu when he was startled from his sleep. Shiftling of the sheets and then slow, shuffling footsteps leaving the room.

"Must have been Ichimatsu" Todomatsu thought.

He was laying on the futon and rolled to his other side pulling the covers to hide him further. Not willing to start the day yet, he kept his eyes closed. Next to him Totty could hear Osomatsu's deep breaths and feel his warmth. It was probably a little before noon or something so everybody else has most likely already left the room.

After a while Todomatsu realized he needed to go to the bathroom so he rose up groaning a little. No way to avoid it, he needed to leave the futon eventually.

He went to the bathroom and when he was done there, he walked downstairs to get some breakfast. Ichimatsu was also there eating and Choromatsu was sitting in the back of the room reading a magazine.

"Good morning," Todomatsu greeted as he entered the room and sat down next to the table. Choromatsu lifted his gaze from the magazine and greeted Totty and Ichimatsu let out a grunt of acknowledgement.

Totty took food for himself and started eating. Few minutes passed in silence before Todomatsu recognized what Choromatsu was reading and his chopsticks stopped mid air. It was one of Karamatsu's lame men's fashion magazines. Todomatsu frowned.

"Choromatsu-niisan," he started getting the third brother's attention. He pointed the magazine with his chopsticks and continued: "Why are you reading that?" he asked.

"Huh?" Choromatsu lifted his eyebrows in surprise. He automatically took a quick glance on the magazine in his hands and he seemed to blush a little. Awkwardly he stammered: "I- ah- this? Umm… you know, it's White Day and I just thought," he gulped, wringed his hands and avoided any eye contact as he continued, "I just thought maybe I would actually get Karamatsu something he would like…" he ended quietly blushing.

"Tsk, you mean something painful and lame. At least it would fit him," said Ichimatsu as he stood up, took his dishes and left the room leaving Totty and red faced Choromatsu behind.

"Ah ok, whatever," Todomatsu said and continued his eating.

"Stupid older brothers," he thought as he shoved rice into his mouth. "They are making too big hustle over this."

It didn't took long before Osomatsu entered the room yawning loudly. "Morning," he greeted his brothers.

"Morning," answered both Choromatsu and Todomatsu.

Osomatsu's eyes lit up when he realized Choromatsu sitting in the room. Playful grin took over his face.

"Ooh here he is! The luckiest one of all the brothers." Choromatsu grunted annoyedly and tried to hide behind the magazine but Osomatsu made his way to him and snatched it away and tossed it aside. "Don't worry Choromatsu, your oniichan will get you amazing White Day gift!"

Choromatsu looked doubtful as he said: "Oh god, please don't. It's going to be something horrible." He stood up and started walking away.

Osomatsu was dramatically holding his chest. "What? Choromatsu, how can you say that?! I'm hurt! Have a little faith in your older brother!"

"Ugh, I don't think so," Choromatsu answered before he left the room.

Osomatsu stand there looking at the door where the third brother had just exited. Todomatsu was finishing his breakfast trying hard not to pay attention to the other two.

Huffing the eldest brother sat down to the table with Totty. "I'm gonna show him, you know. I'm gonna show that I can get him a nice present that he will be happy to get! Just what should I get to this fappying idol-otaku…?" Osomatsu wondered rubbing the side of his head.

"Yeah okay," Totty answered and stood up himself to leave the room.

"Hey wait Totty! Don't just leave like that. That's rude!" Osomatsu said and extended his hand towards Todomatsu. "Help your niisan out a little, hey, Totty!" he shouted to Todomatsu's back.

An hour or so later Totty had changed his clothes and otherwise made himself ready to leave the house. However, he was still sitting in the sofa, idly scrolling through his phone, when he heard Karamatsu's voice shouting that he was home. And soon enough the second oldest walked to the room where Todomatsu was and looked annoyedly happy.

"Hello, dear Todomatsu," he greeted to which Todomatsu mumbled something in response. "Heh, actually I just came from getting a White Day present for Jyushimatsu. If you won't tell him what it is, I can tell you," he said and winked. When Todomatsu said nothing in couple of seconds, Karamatsu continued, used to people not paying much attention on him. "I got him a bag of lollipops. Do you think that will be enough? I hope he'll like it anyway," he said wondering if he made a good decision.

Todomatsu sighed and stood up. "Yep, he's gonna love it," he said and started walking. "Anyway I'm gonna take off."

Karamatsu's smile widened. "I'm glad you think so! But where are you going, brother?"

"I need to do some shopping myself," Totty answered and soon after he was exiting the house and started heading towards the mall.

"No, no, no" Todomatsu thought as he browsed through selection of fancy White Day chocolates. If he was going to buy something for himself, he was going to get something good.

Totty was pondering between some white chocolates when a staff member, a woman in her forties with a pleasant face, came to him.

"Hello! How can I help you? Are you getting a White Day present?" the shop assistant asked him.

"Hi! Ah, um, actually yes," he answered with his cute face.

"Ah that's wonderful! I bet this lucky person means a lot to you," she answered smiling and moved closer to see what chocolates Totty had been looking.

"Ah yes," Todomatsu said and scratched the back of his head little flustered. "They are the most important person in my life," he said and smiled as sweetly and innocently as he could.

"Oh, how cute," the woman answered, "here, these are our best white chocolates and this one has been our best seller this year," she said and pointed at a beautifully wrapped box of white chocolates with blueberries.

"It does look good but I think I'll go with these white chocolates with raspberry," Todomatsu said.

"Great! Can I wrap it up for you?" asked the assistant and took the box of chocolates.

"Please, if you have pink wrapping paper."

"Yes, we do. Just a second."

Now with a pretty packet of chocolates tucked under his arm, Totty walked at the mall. The chocolates have been rather expensive but it wasn't like he was going to buy a White Day present everyday.

His brothers were busy getting their presents as well. Totty wasn't really interested in what they bought to each other but he was pretty confident none of the presents were as good as what he got to himself.

Seriously, they were over twenty and crying over some stupid Valentine's Day chocolate. It was childish and just sad and they all knew that. Of course they all would still do anything to get some. They went even as far as giving each other chocolate. It was just so pitiful.

Todomatsu walked past many different shops. He was an adult. He didn't need anything from anyone. He could buy anything he wanted himself.

When he was almost out of the mall, he stopped on his tracts at one shop window. It was a cosmetic store and in their window was one body lotion he had read about from a blog and he had wanted to try it. The only reason he hadn't yet bought it was because it was a good brand and thus expensive.

Totty took steps closer to the shop window and stared intensively to the bottle. He took a deep breath and made up his mind. He would buy it. It was a special day and surely they wasted their money on worse.

Determined Todomatsu walked into the store and was greeted by a cheery assistant. It didn't took long before he had another small, pink package under his arm for the most special person in the world. Todomatsu sighed and started his way home.

"I'm home," Todomatsu said and took off his shoes. Immediately he could hear loud trumming of quick steps coming closer and a second or two after Jyushimatsu slided into the room.

"Hi Totty! Where were you? Ooh what do you have there?" he asked curious as always with his loud voice and wide smile.

"Hi Jyushimatsu-niisan. Nothing much. Just something small for myself," Todomatsu answered.

"Waaah that's so nice! So nice! Hey hey, Totty, I got something for Ichimatsu-niisan," Jyushimatsu exclaimed excitedly.

"Great. More presents," Todomatsu thought but then again, he couldn't be too harsh for Jyushimatsu. The second youngest was somewhat of a soft spot for all of them. "Hmm? What did you got?" he asked him.

"Hahah, I got him these super-duper cute cat ears!" Jyushimatsu said proudly. "I thought of buying him cat food but that would actually go to the cats and not for him so then instead I found these," he told happily and giggled.

A smile tugged the corner of Todomatsu's mouth up. It sure was a funny idea. Ichimatsu would never want to wear anything cute like that (or at least he would die before admit he would) but he was really bad at saying no to Jyushi.

"They are really cute," Todomatsu said and walked past Jyushimatsu to drop his shoppings to their room. He thought about going to the living room to watch some tv but he didn't feel like spending time with his brothers so he decided against it. Instead he stayed alone in their room and used time with his phone.

It was already around six o'clock when Todomatsu heard their mother to call the sextuplets for dinner. It was impressive how well he had again spent such a long time doing nothing but browsing through some blogs and social media sites. However, it was rather annoying because everywhere everyone was just talking about White Day and posting photos of what they got and who they were spending the day with. It wasn't as bad as Valentine's Day but it still hurt.

Sighing Totty stood up and walked slowly to the downstairs. All of his brothers were already gathered around the table and were devouring food.

The dinner was annoying in Todomatsu's mind. His brothers were all so cheerfully chatting with each other.

"Hahah, brothers, I'm sure you don't mean that. My presents are good!" Karamatsu said.

"Yeah okay, I just hope you don't have anymore underwear with your face on them," Osomatsu mocked.

"Hahah! The worst presents in the family!" Jyushimatsu laughed.

"Umm I wouldn't count on that. Remember that horrifying cat… thing Ichimatsu gave me when I moved away?" Choromatsu said and shivered.

"Tsk. Maybe I should try to do even worse," Ichimatsu said and grinned evilly.

"Oh yeah!" Osomatsu said and ruffled Ichimatsu's hair while laughing. "I trust you to get your niichan something better than that, right?"

"Tsk. As if I am going to get anything to you. Or maybe poison at the most."

Osomatsu gasped. "No, Ichimacchan! Gaah, you are hurting me! That's so harsh!" And everybody laughed. Everybody except Totty who was quietly chewing his food and staring blankly at his plate.

"So Jyushimatsu, are you okay with your present or do you need help?" asked Karamatsu.

"Yes! I got a present for Ichimatsu-niisan! It's as good as a homerun!" A shy smile creeped on fourth brother's face.

"Hmph, no need. This whole present thing is stupid anyway," Ichimatsu said.

"At least you got that right," Todomatsu thought.

Osomatsu gasped again. "How could you say that?! This is the best thing ever!"

"Presents! Presents!"

"Heh! I love doing this for my dear brothers."

"Well it's silly but fun," Choromatsu said. "Anyway, Totty do you have anything planned for today?"

"Hah! Like what? He didn't get any chocolate during Valentine's day so what would he have?" laughed Osomatsu teasing.

"Well you kept the chocolate by yourself that you made so…" started Choromatsu.

"Unless you gave something to yourself. Talk about pathetic," said Ichimatsu mockingly and sneered in disgust.

"Whaat, no way!" laughed Osomatsu. "Not even Karamatsu would be that lame!"

"Pathetic! Lame-matsu!" shouted Jyushimatsu and laughed.

Todomatsu had heard enough. He frowned and spat out angrily: "Oh fuck no! Don't think I'm as sad as you are," he said and stood up. Then he changed his voice to mocking: "Oh please, somebody love me. Brothers, let's share presents cause that's a good solution and not at all pitiful!" Then he changed his voice back to normal and shouted. "I don't want that!" Then he stormed out of the room.

Todomatsu stomped the stairs up to their room and slammed the door closed after him. He went to the sofa and threw the pillows to the wall, letting out some of his bad feeling. Then he buried his face to the cushions and layed like that for a long while. God, he hated this day!

Later he was still laying on the sofa but was now playing with his phone like usual when he heard soft steps coming closer and then the door open. He shot a glance there and saw Ichimatsu walking into the room.

For a couple of seconds Ichimatsu just stood there and Totty could feel him staring at him. Thankfully he didn't say anything as he walked to the closet and started rummage through it.

After a moment Todomatsu bit his teeth together and asked bitterly: "So… What did you got for Osomatsu-niisan?" He knew it would just annoy him more to know but somehow he was still curious.

Ichimatsu stopped his searching and turned to glance at the youngest brother and shrugged. "Nothing much. Just some pastries which have alcohol in them. Guess he could like them."

Great. All of them actually had somewhat thoughtful gifts for each other. Just what he hoped to hear.

Totty snorted. "What is there not to like."

Ichimatsu turned to look at him. He let his suspecting look linger on Todomatsu before he returned to delve the closet. A moment of silence and then: "Are you ok?"

"No! Fuck no, I'm not okay!"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I guess it just irks me that today reminds me of Valentine's Day and the disasters they have been," Todomatsu answered. He wasn't lying but neither telling the whole truth.

Finally Ichimatsu pulled out a pack of cat treats. "Mmm I guess. But it kind of makes it feel less crappy when we play this stupid play with others." Then he walked away with the treats.

Todomatsu watched Ichimatsu disappear behind the corner and then he rolled to his side to face the back of the sofa. He wished the day would just end.

It was evening and Todomatsu was sitting alone in their room. He had his two pretty, pink presents waiting next to him. Todomatsu stared gloomy at them and sighed.

"Am I really going to do this? It was maybe the worst thing I've ever done on Valentine's Day. Giving chocolate to myself?! Like what the fuck?! That's also the saddest thing I've ever done."

The presents were still waiting next to him.

"Why? Why am I doing this to myself? This is stupid!"

Todomatsu stood up and took the presents. "I'll just give these to mom or something." He thought as he started walking towards the door but when he opened it the voices coming from the downstairs stopped him.

It was the happy voices of his brothers. They were chatting with each other cheerily and he could hear happy shrieks and laughter. From what he could pick up, it sounded like they had already given their gifts. And there they were. All of them enjoying their time together and having brotherly moments.

And then there was him.

Todomatsu gripped his hands into fists, turned around and stormed back to the room.

He would keep the presents himself. He was feeling so bad and if something could cheer him up he would do it no matter how stupid it was. He wanted to feel better. He needed some kind words.

Hell! As if he needed his brothers for that!

Todomatsu sat himself down at the other end of the sofa staring determinedly at the presents on his lap and tightened his grip on them. Then he made few automatic shoves with his hand to tidy up his hair and put on his cute face. With sweet smile and sparkling eyes Totty started to talk with cute voice.

"Hey Totty," he started and directed his talk to the other end of sofa.

Todomatsu switched his place fast to the other side and looked at where his face has been a second earlier. He had took his phone in his hand and he acted like he had just raised his gaze from his phone to look at the "other Totty speaking". "Hmm? What is it Totty?"

He switched back to his first place. "The chocolate you gave me on Valentine's Day was amazing and since it's White Day, it's my turn to give you something back," he said and took out the presents.

Jump to the other side and a delightedly surprised look on his face. "Oh Totty! Really? You shouldn't have to!"

Flash of pink and he was at the other end of the sofa. "Of course I have to! But it's not just that - I want to!" He handed out the gifts. "Here. Thank you for always being there for me."

At the other side he received the presents with glimmering eyes. "Oh my gosh! I love them! Thank you Totty!" he held the presents close to himself and continued: "And thank you for always being so cute and kind."

Again he switched the place. "Ah, thank you, Totty. Why are you so adorable? You are the only one who understands me."

"Totty. I love you!"

"I love you too, Totty. You are a good boy."

Todomatsu sat there quietly for a brief while and squeezed the presents hard. He took a wobbly breath and spoke with a breaking voice: "You- you are the only person who c-cares. I- I just want to be noticed," he said with a shaky sob and felt the burning in the corner of his eyes.

He let go of the presents and they dropped to the floor with a soft thud. Todomatsu lift his legs up so that he could hug his knees. He could now feel the first hot tears rolling down his face.

"Why am I all alone?" he sobbed. "Why didn't they give me any chocolate?!" he cried out with a high, broken voice.

He felt so hurt. What had he done wrong? Why wouldn't anyone recognize him?!

Todomatsu curled himself into a tight ball. Tears were streaming down his face as he shook with the sobs.

"Why am I left out? Why don't they love me?" he asked quietly and cried alone in the room.

That's it guys, I hope you liked it. This is the ending I originally planned but if someone actually ends up reading this and would like to have different, happier ending, I'm willing to write another chapter to give Totty some comfort. Let me know if you would like that. Probably will do it anyway.