She wants Tamaki, they belong to each other. I force myself to think that, although every time it makes me remember her words: "Kyoya-senpai won't do this. Because you get no merits from sleeping with me." I always respond to myself that forcing myself away from her gains me even less. But she wants him, not me.
Nine meters and sixty-seven centimetres exactly. The distance between Haruhi and himself. Although he was staring at the screen of his laptop, he knew it. It annoyed him that he knew. But what irritated him even more was the fact that the distance between Haruhi and Tamaki was ninety-eight percent less then that. With more force than necessary he hits the enter button. Removing his fingers from the keyboard afterwards, he allows himself a glance in their direction. His heart makes the now familiar leap.
"No merits huh," with a bitter smile he watches Haruhi's features. No breathtaking beauty, not even pretty. Just cute, plain cute. But beneath that he knew there was hidden a treasure chest. One that would rarely show it's contents and then only to the people she permitted to keep a key. That she had given him one he discovered during the second day of the Ouran School festival. It was a marvellous sight, Haruhi standing up to his father. Expressing her admiration for him with infuriated words. Astonishing, beautiful, wonderful and heartbreaking. Kyoya sighs and shuts down his laptop. She wants Tamaki...
"Kyoya-senpai, are you leaving?"
He merely raises a hand in response before leaving the Third music room. Today he could no longer bear to see them together. To find himself unable to formulate mean and cold words to draw her attention away from Tamaki towards him. But had he not give up hope the last day of the same festival he realized she cared for him? Sometimes he flatters himself with thinking that he did, but when the world grows dark and when he lies in his bed alone, he dreams of holding her in his arms. Just like he almost held her that day they went to the beach. Because you get no merits from sleeping with me...sleeping with me. Sleeping with Haruhi. A shiver runs down his spin. The mere thought of it brought him more merits he wished for.