I Hold Myself Hostage

by LegitimateLostGirl

Setsuna has had enough, she's sick of being just Sailor Pluto Guardian of Time. She wants to be a person, she wants to live as the other senshi do.

I hold myself hostage

I hold myself hostage

The beat becomes labored

The breath become shallow

And the memories slowly dissipate

The tears don't fall

The screams aren't heard

And the hope isn't existing

I slowly realize what is occurring

My conscious is no longer apparent

And my yells are now only whispers

I call your name only to be hushed by an unapparent force

Although this voice is so familiar I can't seem to perceive whom the voice belongs

Then it is clear this voice that is now bearing control over me, is me

"I hold myself hostage"

Unable to move

"I hold myself hostage"

Unable to be heard

"I hold myself hostage"

In the depths of my own mind

Why?...is it because I am scared of who I am

Or is it that I'm scared of what I am becoming

I slowly come face to face with myself and i can't speak

I see not only myself trying scream

But hear no sound

I try moving

But no movement

The other me then speaks and states "I hold myself hostage"

Then she repeats herself only to increase in volume

I then finally regain the ability to speak and the ability to move

I stand and say

"I will not keep myself a hostage anymore"

"I Will Not Keep Myself Hostage Anymore"

"I WILL NOT KEEP MYSELF HOSTAGE ANYMORE"

And then close my eyes then open them to see that it was all a dream

But I look to the left of me to see a paper simply saying, "I WILL NOT KEEP MYSELF HOSTAGE ANYMORE"

I read this paper over and over again and I came to the conclusion of one thing

Just as the paper stated "I Will Not Keep Myself Hostage Anymore"