Title: Dear Rachel
Author: AlexaNova
Spoilers: AU
Disclaimer: I don't own glee or any of the characters. If I did, I will always and forever make Faberry canon.
Pairing: Rachel/Quinn
Note: This story hit me like a train. It just occurred to me, so sorry if The Rock Star will be on temporary hiatus. Also, I don't want to give the summary because the story will unravel itself as the chapters go. My goal for this story is for something that will wrench, chew and spit your heart out, so expect heart aches and stuff. Alsooo, I know the title sucks. No originality whatsoever. Anyway, I want to know if I should continue this. I also wanna know your thoughts, what you wish to see in this story and some ideas for future chapters. Well, thanks and don't forget to review! You can PM me if you, I won't bite... hard. Hehehe.
September 24, 2012
11:38 in the evening
Dear Rachel,
You look so peaceful.
Your eyes are softly shut. Your dark hair cascading down the white pillow. Your chest rose and fell while you were slowly breathing. Your skin is so soft yet, so pale. I gripped the metal bar while looking at you with concerned eyes. Everyone had just left. I had to stay. I had to. I wanted a few minutes with you. Maybe even hours. After sometime, I notice a beeping sound. I haven't heard it when I entered your room. I think it's from surprise. I looked away from you for a second to see the source of the sound. I gripped the metal bar tighter as I saw your heart rate in a monitor. I looked at you again. I feel a tear streak down my cheek. I touched your left hand. It's not so warm like it should be. My tears are freely falling now. My eyes are getting blurry. I'm shaking so violently that I let go of your hand and slumped on the floor. I cried and I cried. I'm whimpering and making weird noises. I can't help it. I couldn't face the reality yet. I couldn't take it in all at once. How could you do this to me? I just saw you yesterday! I just... saw you... yesterday. I saw your wide smile, your eyes twinkling with excitement and happiness, your small stature, your animal printed sweater and plaid skirt, and that... that small box you gave me. I was surprised by your sudden arrival at my house but I was more surprised by what you gave me. You didn't even give me the chance to say something. You ran away. How could you? How could you run away from me again when I'm finally running back to you? You've always extended your heart for even a hint of friendship from me and now that I'm finally extending mine as well, you suddenly leave? I was going to say something to you that I knew you've always wanted to hear. I've thought about it for a long time. When it hit me that I should finally tell this to you, I was too late. You've taught me so much. I've finally found my life because of you. I've finally found myself from all the stupid things I had done. You've found me in the deep, dark depths of my soul. You've single handedly destroyed the wall that I've built around myself for so long. I don't even know if I deserve your friendship. I've hurt you so much in the past that I hate myself everyday just by looking at the mirror. Now I'm right here, crying and shaking, knowing that you may never hear the words I've wanted to say to you until today.
I'm so sorry.
Q.