"Oh Sasuke."

He was due back from his month long mission tonight, and I knew he would come for me. He would come with demanding, hungry lips and fingers. He would come to taste me, to control me through pleasure and pain. Only he was able to make me beg, to all others I was strong and independent.

He was always insatiable when he got back from missions, fucking me mercilessly into the night. Many girls in the village would die for his attention, give anything to be the one he was pounding into the bed, but every time he would visit me I could feel something inside me break.

When I was young and foolish I would have claimed that it was my heart shattering. But to claim that would mean that I was in love with him. And I knew that if I declared that it truly would destroy me. I had tried to ignore it, convince myself we were merely fuck buddies, and that if he wasn't so good in bed I would have punched him threw the wall just for looking at me.

Only I knew that wasn't true. As long as he wanted me I was here. And it needed to end.

The village didn't know that he would come to me in the night, thank god or I would be considered one of the village whores instead of a well respected medic nin. Naruto had found out though, and that crushed me.

He knew that I deserved better, that he was the better man, and he knew that I wasn't strong enough to leave Sasuke. Even this messed up thing we had, it wasn't even a relationship. And no matter how many times I told myself the opposite, it wasn't just physical. Not for me. And that was the problem.

I remembered a song I had heard earlier today. The reason for my soul searching on this cold winter night. The reason I was considering saying no, for the first time in my life.

The saddest thing is you could be anything
That you could want
We could have been everything

Was how it had started. And it was true. He could have been anything.

In some world where his brother had not killed his entire clan. Where he had lived a normal happy childhood. Where we could have been something, anything, everything. We could have been happy in this world, happy together.

Then he came for me, as I knew he would.

"Sasuke." I whispered, as he trapped me against the wall of my room. My hands where pinned above my head and his lips came crashing down on mine, driving all thought from my head but the song that was haunting me.

But now we're not
Now it's not anything at all

I meant nothing to him, I was just a toy to him. Something that amused him and brought him pleasure, nothing more. We aren't even friends.

The hardest part was getting this close to you
And giving up this dream I built with you

As he trust his hot tongue into my mouth, I felt all my dreams of us together fade. All the fantasies I had built up in my head since childhood crumble away, until they were nothing but dust. Only the song in my head remained, and his hands and mouth on me, heating me in wonderful and terrifying ways.

A fairytale that isn't coming true
You've got some growing up to do

My fairytale was never going to happen, never. Inside he was still that scared little boy, screaming as his beloved brother ended life as he knew it. Although he had the body of a man, he would never be more then that little boy. He was stuck, unmoving, frozen. His hands grasped the hem of my shirt, ripping it off me and throwing it to the ground.

His calloused hands ran up and down my sides creating goose bumps and shiver while his hot tongue plundered my mouth, stealing my breath away. He ran his hands to my pajama shorts and ripped them off my body, tearing my panties away with them as well. I hadn't been wearing a bra under my sleeping shirt, so I was bare to him while he was still fully dressed.

His mouth moved to my neck, creating deliciously warm brands on my skin that I would have to heal in the morning. As his mouth marked my neck one of his hands deliberately trailed down between my breasts and across my stomach. It continued down to the heat pooling between my legs.

"God Sakura, you're so wet. Tell me, were you waiting for me? Waiting for me to come home and fuck you until you can't walk?" he was whispering in my ear as his fingers danced around the swollen nub at my center, teasing.

After all the things you put me through
Tell me why I'm still in love with you
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call

I had been waiting for him. But tonight was different I realized. Because tonight was going to be the last time. No matter how it hurt, I was never going to wait for this cold man again. After tonight he was never going to have me. Never.

"Please Sasuke…" He thought that I was begging for it, for him to touch me the way we both knew he was capable of. He thought that I was begging for the mind numbing pleasure that had accompanied his other visits.

But I was begging for him to give me a reason to stay. Begging for him to show me one little bit of love, affection, even kindness. Just one little hint that he cared and I would let him come back night after night just as long as there was that chance.

But there was no kindness in his eyes as he looked at me, only need and hunger. There was no comfort for me here in his arms, only that numbing pleasure that killed me inside after.

You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
And taking back the life I gave to you

All the years I had given him, all my love for almost as long as I could remember, I was going to reclaim. It was mine to give, and for the first time I saw that it was mine to take back. All my life it had been given that I loved him, sometimes the only constant in my chaos. But now that love was straining and tearing, it could only survive so much. And this was it.

He finally stopped teasing me, rubbing against my clit roughly with his thumb as he shoved a finger deep into my core, making me cry out at his sudden invasion of my most private of places.

"That's it Sakura, scream for me." He thrust into me brutally, making my inner muscles spasm around his finger. He added another finger, and then another, stretching me painfully.

Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do

After tonight I would survive, I would wake up, I would go to the hospital. I would eat ramen with Naruto. I would laugh with him, and hit him when he annoyed me. I would bicker with Ino, calling her names and smiling. He was not the end all be all of my life, no matter how I loved him.

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have these doubts
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now

Even as I decided that tonight was the last night, I felt the doubts deep inside of me. Could I survive without him? He had always been there, in my thoughts, always. I wish that I knew for sure what I was to him, whether I was truly just a sex toy or if his visits meant more to him. Still I knew that if I didn't stop this soon, I never would.

He ripped his fingers out of my dripping sex, and threw me onto my stomach on the bed. He bent me over the high matress, and I knew that he intended to take me from behind. All doubts I had about tomorrow vanished. The little hope I had that he might care died at that moment. He didn't even have the respect for me to look me in the eyes as he used me, as he fucked me.

I wish I didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and I
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

He positioned himself at my entrance, and I tensed knowing what was going to happen. He thrust into me brutally, burying himself fully in me. I screamed at the feeling of being stretched almost until my limit. I was floating on pleasure-pain, and then he started to move within me.

He was pounding me, hitting new, deeper spots every time he entered me. I cried out as he grabbed my hips and slammed me towards his hips as he slammed into me. Colors burst on my eyelids, shapes and shadows dancing in front of my eyes. I was tightening around him, soon I was going to come, and when my walls were tightening on him, milking his member as he hammered into me.

As my walls tightened around him he lost it. We came together in an explosion of pleasure that nearly knocked me out. And as his seed burst into my womb I could hear the end of the song echoing in my head.

It's time I said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time I said my last goodbye

For the first time in my life I pushed him away. For once, the roles were reversed. He fell to the ground, stunned that I had the balls to pull away.

"Get out Sasuke. I can't do this anymore. You need to leave." My face twisted into an expression of disgust as I surveyed my ripped clothes on the floor. "Listen to me carefully. You are going to leave my house, and you are never to come back again. You are never to touch me unless it is required for a mission. This is my last goodbye Sasuke."

The stunned expression was still on his usually emotionless face as Sasuke grabbed the clothes that I hadn't even seen him shed and walked out of the room. It was only when I could no longer feel his chakra signature and I was sure he was gone that I let myself collapse onto the bed.

"Goodbye" I whispered one last time as a tear rolled down my cheek. My last time mourning what could never be.

AUTHORS NOTE: Hey! I hope you like it....its my first kinda lemon...its not really detailed but cut me a break! This is a one shot. Please review!! The songs is called Wishes by Superchick, and its really good and what inspired this, so you should check it out. Youtube it! I don't own Naruto or the song. REVIEW! Please, I'm a new writer and I'm not sure if I'm good or not. Chack out my other story, its called Follow You.