A/N: I was looking over this story and realized that these chapters really sucked. I had spelling and grammar errors all over the place. So I'm sat down and re-edited this story. I hope it's much better than before.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Kingdom Hearts characters, but the poem's all mine, sadly.
Warnings: Cursing, Shounen-ai, and Roxas is mental.
My life as of late has been depressing, dramatic, and just plain crap. Thinking back on it, it reminds me of a poem I read once…
You lean on me.
I look in question,
A hand reached out to ask protection.
A grip so tight,
You won't let go.
I never knew it could be true.
You guided me to see,
The monster I came to be.
I lean on you.
You look in question.
A hand never ignored.
I now see,
The monster I came to be.
The façade,
A quick illustration.
A way to cover,
Imperfection.
An irritating tick.
You lean on me,
I turn away.
A whisper left in the open.
I now see,
The monster I came to be.
Want to know why? I bet if you're reading this you at least have an inkling of an idea. Hmm? A certain red-head you ask? Well, you are completely correct. All the weirdness in my life, well most of it anyways, has been caused by Axel. That may sound a little bit like I'm blaming my problems on him, but I'm not. He just does a very good job of shaking someone up and flipping their life inside out and upside down at the same time. He is just one big red-headed, idiotic, cat-like, stick-like, hot-headed, HOT, um I didn't say that, tornado.
Instead of confusing you and myself I should probably explain how Axel caused my life to become a mess. Umm, where should I start… oh! Here's a good place. High school my junior year, also the year Axel moved to Twilight Town. I guess I'll start when Axel was first introduced to me. That being my second period class, orchestra. Do not even try to call me an Orch Dork because I'm proud of my cello playing abilities. It's a stress reliever and believe me I have to play my cello quite often.
I had second period Chamber orchestra, the highest level, yeah I'm cocky so what, when my teacher Xigbar told us that we had a student that was transfer ring in from Castle Oblivion High. Eww… he had to be from COHS. Those stupid stuck-up nobodies. Then a tall, extremely thin red-head stepped into the classroom.
"You must be Axel Ishida." The red-head nodded. "What instrument do you play?"
"Cello." He quipped. Well, he seems like a stereotypical COHS student. Wait, he plays cello. Oh Xigbar please seat him next to Larxene and not me.
"Okay we have two stands open. You can sit with Roxas," He pointed to me," Or you can sit with Larxene. Mind you, I would rather sit with Roxas." He added something in a whisper that I could not hear. Axel nodded and put his bag in the back. He looked questioningly at Xigbar. "Sorry the cellos are over there. You came on the perfect day because we just had a concert so it's sight-reading day." There was a collective groan throughout the classroom. Sight-reading is exactly what it sounds like. You play music after looking at it for the first time. Trust me it is totally suckish.
I saw Axels' face scrunch up in disgust and I could not help but scoff. He glared at me, grabbed a cello, and slipped into the seat next to me.
"Hey Axel, you never told me you were in orchestra!" The one bass player in our class, Demyx, whispered.
"My mom made me. If I didn't she said that…," Axel did not get to finish his sentence because Xigbar threw a marker at his head.
"Don't talk in my class Ishida. You may be new, but you are not exempt from the rules." There was a hint at something else in Xigbar's voice but I ignored it.
"Fine." Axel stated but I could tell that he was pissed. We're so going to get along. Damn.
Yeah, my first impression of Axel was not the best. He seemed to have slight anger issues and could be set off easily. Besides the anger issues, Axel seemed to be quite the class clown. Almost every comment that Xigbar made was counteracted with a witty remark on Axels' part.
Could it get worse? Way. That happened on my way to lunch.
Finally, lunch! Wait, damn. 3, 2, 1.
"Roxas!" And then. Glomp! Yep, my twin brother, Sora, has the same lunch period as me. He also likes to bring his stuck-up boyfriend to sit with us. Again, damn. "Roxas, Roxas, Roxas!"
"Sora, would you let me go!" I mean really, this boy has a strong grip.
"Sorry, but have you seen the new guy?"
"You mean the manoxeric, super tall, brightly colored guy? Yeah, why?" I questioned.
"Wellllllllllll, apparently Riku, Demyx, Zexion, Naminé, Lexaus, Kairi, Larxene, and Marluxia are friends with him.
"Okay and I care why?" I snipped. I already had a foreboding feeling about what my brother was about to say.
"That means he's going to be sitting with us." Sora chirped.
"Damn. Another person I really don't want to eat with." Sora looped his arm through my arm and was about to drag me away when two bodies crashed into the wall in front of us.
I was surprised at first, but I realized that the bodies were Larxene and Axel… and they were attacking each other's mouths.
"Mouth sex on your first day of school, what a great impression! Ugh. Sora, I just lost my appetite so I'm gonna' go practice. See ya'." I pulled my arm from his and headed toward the orchestra room. Yeah, the scene was pretty gross. They were using tongue and everything. It made my stomach do flips.
When I reached the orchestra room, I let out a sigh of relief. The room was like my sanctuary. Xigbar was cool and would let me come in during my lunch. He would even give me some pointers. He may be a crazy eye-patched man but damn can he play the cello. Well then.
I grabbed a cello of the rack and was about to sit down when… BAM! In walks the red-headed diva. Um, sorry I just really had the urge to say that. It was actually more like he snuck in behind me and poked me in my sides causing me to squeak. I hate being poked.
"Dude you actually squeaked! What the hell?" He laughed at me, smacking me on my back. He almost made me drop the cello. Damn him.
"Um, don't act like you know me. You may know people I know but I don't know you and from what I've seen today I don't think I wanna' get to know you!" I almost flipped.
"Dios, no need to get so touchy." He put a hand on my shoulder.
"Remove your hand before you lose it. I don't like people touching me and don't think you can be all touchy-feely with me like you were with Larxene." I seethed. I really didn't. I made me feel uncomfortable. I know I have problems.
"Fine, go ahead and play. I'm here to talk to Xigbar anyways." His face closed off all emotion and became a cold mask. Um, okay. Did I really say anything to cause that? Hmm…. Wait why do I even care! I rolled my eyes and pulled out my music folder. Sweet! One-Winged Angel. That song's epic. This is actually the violin part but I should be able to manage. I began to play.
I got to play for a good five minutes before Axel walked out of Xigbar's office and began watching me play. It gave me the creeps.
"Could you please not eye-rape me? I'm trying to practice." I snapped.
"Chill. I just wanted to say that, that thing you saw wasn't real. Larxene is my ex and apparently she still likes me. So she attacked me via mouth when I was going to meet Demyx and Riku. Just wanted to clear up that I wasn't a man-whore or anything."
Again I couldn't help it, I scoffed. He rolled his eyes and I went back to playing, but continued to watch me.
"Really, the eye-rape is making me feel awkward. I don't like feeling awkward. It makes me wanna' stab things. Yes, I have issues and I don't care if you think I'm weird." When I finished my rant, I realized I sounded like a crazy person, my face flushed, and I hid my face behind the stand. What a brilliant way to show I don't care. He just stood there for a second, and then he said something I didn't expect.
"You know kid. You're actually kinda' cute." With that he exited the room. My eye twitched. i?What. The. Hell. Did he seriously call me and my celloliousness cute? I should bite his finger off. Oh, great. My stomach is doing flips again. Damn him./i
And the awkwardness continues.
Axel didn't speak to me for the rest of the week and that thrilled me. So when I got home Friday afternoon I was completely devastated to find everyone, meaning Sora, Riku, Demyx, Zexion, Axel, Larxene, Kairi, Naminé, Lexaus, and Marluxia, in my living room. They haven't noticed me yet though. If I could just get to Cloud.
"Roxas!"
Damn again.
"What, Sora?" I whined. I saw Sora bound my way so I readied myself for impact. He latched onto my neck and whispered into my ear.
"We're trying to get Demyx and Zexion together because we all know there is major tension between them. Come help!"
"Sora," I began," I barely even know them. How could I help you get them together?"
"Roxas, please!" Then the only good thing that has happened to me since Axel moved here occurred. Cloud appeared at the top of the steps and since it was his house he could save me. Yeah, we live with our older brother. Our parents suck. Moving on.
I mouthed the words 'save me' to Cloud but I guess he either wasn't in the mood today or was ignoring me because he didn't help.
"I want everyone out. Leonhart is coming over and I can promise you it's not going to be pretty. Sora let Roxas go." Cloud snapped and I could tell that this problem was serious. Squall Leonhart and my brother did not get along. At all. Last time they got into an argument Cloud came home with several bite marks, two black eyes, and a bald spot. Let's just say Cloud wasn't pleasant to live with for a while after that.
"Aw! Cloud everyone just got here!" Sora whined.
"Shut your mouth Sora before he eats our faces." I whispered. Seriously, Cloud gets scary when he is angry. I would know. "Let's just go. Actually, you guys can go together. I will go hang out with my friends." I turned to leave, but Sora grabbed me.
"Roxas, we need your help." Sora went all serious on me and dude that's kinda unnerving.
"Sora…, never again. Never do that again. Anyways, how can I help? I don't even really talk to Demyx or Zexion. Why should I help? Sora, don't give me that look. It's creepy. Serious and you don't mix." His straight face began to pull into a frown. Slowly his bottom lip began to quiver. "Sora don't you dare cry. If you stop I'll go." His face immediately brightened up.
"Sweet!" He turned and nodded to Demyx, who gave him a thumb's up. "We're going to Demyx'. Demyx and Axel came with Zexion so could you drive Axel?"
"Hold up. Sora, that was not part of the deal. Plus that's not really a good idea considering the last time I was with him I practically told him I wanted to stab him."
"You told him you wanted to stab him? What's wrong with you!?" He exclaimed.
"Hey, he was making me feel awkward. Anyways, I don't feel like being in a car with him. Why can't you?" I questioned.
"Because I'm taking Riku, Kairi, Naminé, and Lexaus. Then Olette wants us to pick her up, so my car is full." He chirped.
"I hate you and your sneakiness." I groaned. He always knew how to get me to do what he wanted. It pissed me off. Sora's a manipulative bastard, but he is my brother. "Fine I'll take him, but warn him not to annoy me or I will stab him with chopsticks that I have no idea why I have in my car. I'm good with chopsticks too."
"Roxas that glint in your eyes is scary. Also, I don't have to tell him 'cause he's right there." I turned and sure enough Axel was standing right behind me. He had a smirk on his face that made me feel a little worried.
"What's with that look? Well Sora, I guess we're going to go." I held my keys up and motioned for Axel to follow me. I got in my car and waited for him to get in the car. He did. "Buckle up you idiot. I don't feel like getting pulled over for your stupidity." I pulled out of the drive way in my little Honda and headed toward the exit of our quaint neighborhood. Quaint my ass. When you have Cloud, Sora, Yuffie, Vincent, Leon, Vexen, Marluxia, and Zack living in one area absolutely nothing will be quaint ever again. Anyways.
I glanced at my watch and it said that it was three-thirty.
I hate my life. Not only do I have to drive to Demyx' with Axel but I'll be spending the rest of the free time I have before work with these crazy people. This is one of the few good things about working at that anime store. Anyways. I realized as I reached the front of the neighborhood that I had no idea where Demyx lived. Well that's problem.
"Axel you wouldn't happen to know where Demyx lives would you?" I questioned, feeling extremely stupid.
"Did you seriously just realize you didn't know? Wow, and I thought you were the smart twin." He said. My eye twitched and my hand itched toward the chopsticks.
"You heard what I said before we left. I was being completely serious too. I'm a stab happy person. Now tell me where Demyx lives or you will leave this car with several stab marks and splinters." I griped. He really made me feel like hurting that tattooed face of his.
Don't tell me that I need therapy. I used to go to sessions but Cloud had to pull me out of them because I bit the therapist. Several times… What? He told me that I needed to be sedated and thrown in a room for the rest of my life because of my warped view on life. He was so being over dramatic. Just because I see parental figures as sad excuses for preparing a person to be crushed by the power of the system when they become adults and I rather run naked around a crowded mall then conform to what society thinks is normal doesn't make me insane. I may have said other things as well but that really doesn't matter does it? Moving on.
We finally arrived at Demyx' and I had managed to get through it without stabbing Axel. He got lucky. If it hadn't been for my 3OH! 3 CD, I would have clawed him a couple of times. I cut the engine and stepped out as soon as Sora pulled up. He got out of his car and bounced over to me.
"Sora, is Demyx even here yet?" I asked. I really didn't want to wait for them to get here.
"Um... It doesn't seem like it." He hummed.
"Maybe Zexion grew some and finally showed some dominance." Axel stated. I slapped him on the chest. God, he's such an idiot.
"How do you know that Demyx isn't the one who showed dominance?" Riku queried as he threw his arm around Sora's waist. Yes. Riku is Sora's stuck-up boyfriend. He's so bitchy it's not even funny. Why Sora likes him I will never know and truthfully I don't think I care enough to find out.
"We all know that Demyx is too much of a ditz to even realize that Zexion likes him, let alone push him down." Axel retorted. Oh, will the stupidity never end.
"Well, maybe someone should call them because I'm not a patient person and I don't want to wait for them if they're doing some nasty shit." I get irritated quickly.
"Chill Roxy, I have a spare key. I-" Axel didn't get to finish his sentence because I punched him. Yes, I really did. I then got in my car and drove away.
Sora's the only one allowed to call me that and even then he rarely does it. I already know I have anger issues so you don't have to say anything.
I was going to return to my house. I was hoping that Cloud and Leon would be done fighting and I could spend the last two hours I had before work in my room.
Relieved, I arrived at my house and exited my car. It didn't seem like there was any damage done to the outside of the house, so the fighting must have not been that bad. I unlocked the door and walked into the living room. The house was trashed but it didn't seem like anyone was there.
I walked to the kitchen to get a snack and I almost threw up. Leon was on top of Cloud on the floor. In the kitchen. Naked… Leon had pushed down Cloud! The world must be ending.
I ran from the kitchen and retreated from the house. Yeah, maybe I should hang out at the coffee shop close to my job until I have to work.
I'll never be able to look at Cloud or Leon again without thinking about this. Is what kept running through my head as I rushed into my car. I texted Sora to tell him not to go home yet and not to ask why before I face-palmed myself in the face. Could this day have sucked any worse?
A/N: Hope it was better. Thanks for reading and a review would be nice.