As I watch him carry on with his life, completely oblivious to my real feelings for him, I can't help but feel like a pathetic, insignificant loser. He is so confident, so brave and outgoing while I'm a weak disgrace to my team and to my family. I'm too afraid to confront people and too shy to let the one who I admire the most know how much I truly love him. No wonder my father is so disappointed with me and so disheartened at the fact that I was his first born and therefore the heir to the Hyuga clan. My sister is more promising and deserving than I that sometimes I feel that she should have been born before me. I don't deserve to be ascribed with such a position as mine.
My father gave up on my training long ago and classed me as a hopeless case and then gave the responsibility of my training to my sensei. She tries so hard with me and always showers me with words of encouragement but deep down inside I know that she feels the same as my father. Everybody can see that I should just give up on being a ninja and sometimes I feel as if that is the answer to all my problems but when I see him, I persist and try to be the best that I can be.
He came into this world with a heavy burden on his shoulders. He carries inside of him, the nine tailed fox demon, the very demon that almost eradicated the Village Hidden in the Leaves, our home. As a result, the villagers looked down upon him and even threatened him. Because of this, he had a hard time making friends and fitting in with children his age. He has every right to be bitter and give up on life but for some reason, he doesn't. I was born into a prestigious household and lived a very privileged life so why should I be complaining? He inspires me everyday to better myself and train harder and harder until I improve and become a better ninja, a ninja that would make my father proud.
Everyday I silently watched him from afar and every time I did, I fell more and more in love with him. He is the very reason why I keep trying but he will never know how I feel and he will never return my feelings. He has his eyes set on another girl who is more outgoing than me. He loves her, anyone with eyes can see that so there is no room in his heart for a shy girl like me.
But one day, Pain from the Akatsuki attacked our village and he directly confronted him. I watched with my Byakugan as the one I love was mercilessly beaten, stabbed and bruised. With every blow he received, my heart shattered and I died a little inside. They told me to stay away, that my father and sister would be heart broken if anything were to happen to me but I couldn't just stand there and do nothing to help him. Against everybody's demands, I entered the battlefield and pursued his attacker. He asked me why I came and I built up enough courage inside of me to tell him that I loved him for a long time and will always love him. The shy little girl that I was for so many years died and was replaced by somebody else whose only concern was the well being on the one she loves. He was my rescuer, even if he didn't know it, for a long time and now, it was my time to be his. I tried my best to defeat Pain, but I ended up unsuccessful.
As my eyes were fluttering closed and as darkness engulfed me, I saw the smiling face of the blue-eyed, blonde boy who I fell so helplessly in love with. I allowed the darkness to consume me with a smile on my face, for at last he knew my true feelings for him and in that moment, that was all that mattered.