Don't You Know I Love You?

Chapter 1 – Catching Up

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When he found her lying there like that, he was almost certain she was gone. His heart almost stopped.

"Kagura, Kagura!!"

She opened her eyes to look up at him, her sad eyes staring holes through his gaze. He knew instantly that she'd lost all hope. Suitengu had gotten to her, struck a nerve that only she could repair. She needed someone to believe in her. Saiga believed he was that person. She tried reasoning with him to leave her behind because it was her destiny. He wasn't going to take this shit. She was too precious for him to sit there and listen to this any longer.

"You think dying will solve everything? What about my feelings?!... The feelings I have for you, I told you I'd make you free, Kagura. How will I keep my promise?..." he leaned in to hold her to him.

His voice now a whisper, he added, "I love you, don't you know that? Please go on living…for me."

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5 Years Later

Bob was busy cleaning the small apartment he shared with Saiga and temporarily Kagura. She was staying with them until she could get on her own feet. Suggesting everything was surely spotless, Saiga teased Bob about his excessive cleaning habits. Though he couldn't see Bob, he knew exactly where and what he was probably cleaning. Everything. And then again he'd clean some more.

"Well, cleaning and taking care of you is all I'm really good for at the moment," he snapped back. Saiga just gave a small content smile. Everything seemed so much brighter since Kagura returned. Even Bob was a little more cheerful than his usual flamboyant self, which was almost impossible. Saiga turned back towards the open window where he felt the soft breeze caress his cheeks and ruffle his hair a bit.

"Good Morning Bob! Good morning Saiga!" Kagura beamed as she walked down the hallway towards the refrigerator to grab some breakfast. She had just gotten out of the shower. Saiga listened hard at her footsteps pinpointing exactly where she was. He might be blind, but he'd gotten used to this apartment quite fast. He knew every nook and cranny of the place. Ever since she'd returned, he'd made a mental note to know where she was at all times, even if it was grabbing a bite to eat.

"Kagura!!! Your hair is wet! Don't drip it on the floor! Ohhhh dear… Ohhh dear! It took me all morning to mop!" he scolded as he grabbed paper towels to sop up the small puddles of water.

"Oh, I'm so sorry Bob, here let me get it," she replied setting the milk down on the counter.

Saiga continued to listen to the morning events unfold. It was all so simple now. No more running, just him and Kagura together now. And Bob, of course. What would they do with themselves? Would everything be the same as it was all those years ago? She'd been with Ginza and Ryogoku so long, he wondered how much she changed and how much she learned. She wasn't a child anymore, a young woman of 20, she surely must be beautiful. Saiga tried hard to picture her now in his mind. First, her face, then her hair was probably styled more like a young woman than a girl. She probably grew an inch or two. When he started to picture certain things below her face and collar bone, he shocked himself and quickly tried to focus on the breeze again and the smells of the city below instead.

"Saiga!" he turned to feel Kagura's hand on his shoulder, "Why do you look so gloomy? C'mon, I made you some pancakes!" She grabbed his hand and led him to the couch where she placed the plate in his lap. Flipping on the television, she tuned in to the weather channel, "So, what do you think?"

"I think it's going to be a beautiful day, a breezy 78 degrees," Saiga mimicked the weather man.

"No, silly, the pancakes!" she corrected.

"Delicious, Kagura. Thanks," he replied, "Best pancakes I've had in my entire life."

"Now you're just being dramatic, Saiga," she rolled her eyes and giggled.

Ignoring Bob's cries of agony of spilled syrup, Kagura placed her plate down on the coffee table in front of them, taking Saiga's as well seeing that he was finished, "Saiga?" she whispered.

"What?"

"I missed you so much," she quivered.

His hand felt for hers, and when he found it, he held onto it for dear life. She moved closer to him so they shared body heat, but not completely touching. She was still hesitant. Kagura closed her eyes as she laid her head on his shoulder trying to experience what Saiga did. It couldn't be that bad, right? She thought about how much suffering he'd been through for her. He was blind because of her, lost his ability to see the world through a lens because of her.

"I'm sorry that I was so much trouble back then and about, well you know, your… your…" she couldn't finish.

Saiga thought for a moment and replied back to her, "It wasn't your fault. Do you not remember what I told you the day I went blind, the last day I…the last day I saw your face?"

How could she forget? That was the pivotal point in her life where she decided to live, even if it wasn't for herself at that point in time, it was for Saiga. Later, she treasured that moment even more when she realized how childish she had been. She did not want to die, especially that young and for a cause like that. "Of course not, Saiga. I will never forget." She leaned into him closing the remaining distance between them.

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Notes: Well, that's the first chapter. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did writing it. I'm writing this because of the dwindling amount of Speed Grapher fanfiction. There are literally less than 5 fics I found and only one has been enjoyable. I'm mainly doing this for me because the characters are alive in my head and won't go away until I write their story down. Anyway, stay tuned for the next chapter and please review if you liked, or not! I'd like to hear from you.