I cry,
The tears rolling down my already tear stained face,
I yell and I scream,
I curse at you,
For how you've treated me all this time.
You don't know how much that look on your face hurts me,
That smug grin,
As if you think my feelings are a joke.
You look at me and talk to me like I'm nothing to you.
I used to like you,
I used to like what you brought to our friendship,
But now it doesn't mean anything,
Your words, your actions,
Mean nothing to me,
Because their all lies.
When you say you're sorry,
You're lying,
Because you're not,
And even if you were it wouldn't change anything,
It wouldn't change what you say to me..
What you say about me.
The insults,
About me,
About my family,
About my friends,
They hurt me so much,
More than you will ever be able to comprehend.
Friends aren't supposed to say those things,
About each other,
Friends aren't supposed to treat their friends like dirt,
Like they are just a bug that needs to be squished.
That's how you treat me,
Like I'm below you,
Like you're above me.
You are who makes me cry late into the night,
But I won't give you that satisfaction,
Of seeing me cry,
Because it won't help.
You call me a bad friend,
But when the bad friend,
Is in the mirror.
Do you ever look at yourself,
And feel guilt for what you say,
Do you feel sick to the stomach
Because of what you said,
Or do you not even care.
I used to be happy I was your friend,
I used to be happy that I had to as my best friend
But now I realize all you bring me is pain.
I can't remember the last time I wasn't angry at you,
For some reason,
I can't remember the last time you said a nice word to me
About anything.
Maybe I am being immature as you said,
By not talking to you,
But so what,
Big deal.
You aren't being "mature by apologizing",
Because what you said wasn't apologizing,
It was just another insult I can add to the forever growing list.
Things won't be able to go back to normal,
Because I cant forgive you AGAIN.
Too many times I've forgiven and forgotten,
And I've had enough.
This time I can't just forget what you said,
And I shouldn't have to.
It's a pity really,
That our friendship is ruined,
Because of this.
But there's nothing anyone can do.
I could pretend that I forgive you,
I could pretend I'm sorry about everything I said,
But I'm not
And I can't.
And I can never forget.