-1Kagura's thoughts before dying

I have fought Naraku for all of my life since I came to be from his flesh and being. He took my heart the moment I came to being telling me how 'I was his.' and how 'I was to do everything he says' I hated for that.

I now see how utterly pointless it was to fight him. I was his I couldn't denial that. To waste my time thinking of ways to kill him when I could have been the wind! Like I was destined to be! Like I wanted to be!

I was a fool I couldn't kill him and I wasted my time. I see now while I'm on the road to death how I was stupid I have my heart and all it does for me is when it's quiet I hear a thump…thump…thump. It's quite annoying, too.

People used to say how when you have your have a heart you have emotions. That was an absolute lie!

I was traveling through a village when I heard some village girls talking about some boys they meet "I feel sorry for those heartless demons they don't get to feel love, hate, lust, fear, sadness, or anger. They couldn't ever feel this."

"I know! I don't see why they exist."

"Me neither. I'm happy I'm not a demon. I would kill myself." They laughed.

I listened to them it was unbelievable how could you call them heartless? If you think of them of heartless wouldn't they have to be mean and evil? Wouldn't they have anger and hate or lust for something. They would want something special to them. Humans don't understand demons at all.

I can love, I can hate! I have examples, too. I love Seeshoumaru, I hate Naraku and I feared him. Although now I feel peaceful towards him. I think now of how Naraku must feel. I feel how irritated he is. How I ruined his plans by telling Inuyasha where he was and what he was planning. How I keep trying to defeat him. How I despised him. He had to keep fighting me back. I wasted his time and mine!

Having a heart is pointless! You don't need it! It helps you in no way possible. It destroys you, though. When you have it it kills you. When people attack you all they have to do is aim for your heart and you die.

I see now I am a fool! An idiotic fool! I don't know why I didn't figure this out before. I didn't know why I didn't figure out I was killing myself by doing this to myself. Riping my soul apart by doing pointless things. I was fighting for a worthless cause.

Now while I just figured this out I fell to my death. As I fall into the lake I figure out I could have made peace with Naraku, and hopefully gotten to be with Seeshoumaru and live in harmony. Well, after I helped my father gather the shikon no tama shards. I could have done so much! But I wasted it on hating Naraku and chasing him down. Now I clinch my heart and die feeling utterly worthless.

Thank You for reading! It was kind of sad wasn't it? R&R!