If you love me, then let go, I won't be held down by who I used to be.

-Evanescence, The Open Door, Weight Of The World.

Chapter One

"Weight Of The World"

The day had finally come, Kagome looked around her, she saw nothing but the bare face of the cliff and the trees far far below her. As she stood on the edge of the cliff, the precipice of the end, she knew that this was it. She had been broken too many times to rebuild, used and thrown away like so much Kleenex.

No longer was she needed she had lost the only one she had loved, well the only man she had loved. She knew he had felt something for her but the feelings he had for her former incarnation were much stronger than the ones he felt now. They cared she knew but she was in the way, just a fence in the way of the rest of their lives.

No tears left, her eyes had been dry for days now, she knew she was just in the way of InuYasha and Kikyo being together now that Naraku was dead. She had no use for her soul any more, Kikyo could have it now, after all Kagome was only borrowing it for a while, she was only a reincarnation, a cheep imperfect copy of the original.

She had seen them together again, Kagome didn't hate Kikyo, in fact she admired the girl and wished them both all the happiness in the world. Kagome knew that, now that she was trapped here in the feudal era that she couldn't go on being there for InuYasha, being his best friend all the while knowing that she would never know his love, never know his kiss or any other intimate touch. She would have known had Kikyo not been resurrected, she could not fault her for what had happened, but she could fault her self for feeling the way she did. Now that Naraku was dead, Kikyo and InuYasha had been seeing more and more of each other and it hurt Kagome's heart too much to know she was just in the way of them being together. Perhaps with the rest of the soul she possessed it would allow her to become more than clay and graveyard soil.

She wasn't needed any more her usefulness had long since past and now it was time to end it. Looking down the edge of the cliff, she didn't really see the edge or the bottom, she had given up, on everything, she felt numb. As she leapt off the cliff, her life flashing before her, everything she had experienced to that point when she jumped off the cliff.

Her mom singing her back to sleep after a nightmare.

"It's okay Kagome, go back to sleep, I'll be here for you" Natsumi Higarashi said in her quiet voice understanding voice.

"But mommy, I'm too scared" a six year old Kagome whined.

"It's okay sweetie, shhh, tell you what I'll sing you one more song, okay?"

"Okay" little Kagome sniffled.

"Somewhere there's a river Looking for a stream

Somewhere there's a dreamer Looking for a dream

Somewhere there's a drifter Trying to find his way

Somewhere someone's waiting To hear somebody say

I believe in you

I can't even count the ways that I believe in you

And all I want to do is help you to Believe in you"

The feeling of the wind pushing up against her was incredible as she fell the hundreds of feet into the void.

Her fifteenth birthday flashed before her, the day she was pulled into the well.

"Give me the the Shikon No Tama" hissed Mistress Centipede "I know you have it"

"'STOP" Kagome yelled as light shot from her hand before she fell to the bottom of the well.

Climbing out of the well, finding nothing but trees around the well instead of the old well house. Wandering further away from the well until the Goshinboku tree came into view.

"Is that...a boy" she said looking up at the red clad boy covered in tree vines his silver hair glistening in the dappled sunlight, an arrow protruding from his chest.

Climbing up the roots, she got a closer "Are those...dog ears?"

The wind rushing past her ears made her deaf to the sounds of the wild life and other noises in the forest.

"Say the word of subjugation, child" Kaede yelled at her as she ran with the Shikon jewel.

"Word of subjugation?" Then it hit her.

"SIT BOY" She screamed.

The images came faster and faster as she fell, all of them leading to the moment she was in now everything pushing against her numbness. It would be five hundred years until she would be born to repeat all this, but she wouldn't be here for it. It was enough to know she had impacted so many lives, to know she rid this time of one of the most disgusting hanyou's the world had ever seen. She had lived the life destined for her and this was her end, her time to die, she felt at peace as the ground came up closer and closer.

Closing her eyes she before she hit the ground she saw silver white flash and everything went black.

SKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSK

Looking up from the letter that he had found lying on the floor near the fire pit, a place where he wouldn't fail to notice it. Miroku read the letter again unable to believe the words written. It just couldn't be, there was no way he could allow himself to belive that a dear friend would leave like this, especially her. Finally looking at Sango whom was sitting just across the fire staring at him strangely.

"What is it, Miroku?" she asked a odd look crossing his features.

"We have to find InuYasha" He said standing up quickly.

"Why? Miroku, what's going on?" Sango demanded, standing as well.

"It's Kagome, we have to find her"

"Miroku, what's going on, damn it just tell me"

"Kagome is in serious danger" he said.

"From who"

"Her self" Miroku said dashing out the door, Sango following at his heals.

He couldn't' believe that Kagome of all people would try to leave this world in such a way. She wasn't in the way she wasn't a burden, she was their light in the darkness. She was the salve on the wounds that they all carried, he didn't know how she could think otherwise. They all needed her, InuYasha needed her, Sango needed her, Shippo and even him self, they all needed her. Kagome was the sister that all of them never had, she was family, and one thing Miroku knew was that one did not abandon their family.

He could understand how she felt, there was too many times he thought about just letting his wind tunnel suck him in allowing his death to happen. It wasn't until after he had met her then Sango after that he realized he had too much to live for, now instead of dying he had been saved by her and because of Sango he had something to live for and soon a family to protect. Now that he and Sango were married he would have everything he desired, but not if they couldn't find her in time. Miroku's heart clenched at the thought of loosing Kagome, ever since he met her he could not imagine his life with out her in it, she was family and he would do what it took to keep her safe and happy.

SKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSKSK

The journey from the western lands to the village of Edo, was a journey that Sesshomaru decided to make alone. He was in debt to a certain miko and he would not tolerate a life boon to InuYasha's wench. It had been two months since the defeat of Naraku and she still had not demanded anything in return for saving his life during the battle.

There had been too much going on he had let his guard down for a split second when the evil hanyou had grabbed Rin. His heart had stopped for a split second and that second he had been impaled by a overly large tentacle. The appendage had taken his heart and for a moment before Kagome had ran to him, he knew he was dead dying, and wondering why he had allowed him self to drop his guard. She was just a human a human who would have died eventually why did he care, but he did some where deep down in his cold uncaring heart he did care for the girl.

Naraku had left him for dead and turned to fight off one of InuYasha's attacks dropping Rin who quickly found another hiding place. When the girl had come to him, she had leaned in close breathing so close to his ear she whispered something and then suddenly he was whole again his body fully restored. Sesshomaru knew that she had saved his life and now he owed her a life boon. Until such a time as he could repay the favor he would be in her debt and he hated being in anyones debt.

The forest was quiet even the birds had stopped there singing, which was a bad sign, the forest it self held its breath. Then the scent of blood hit him the sickeningly sweet feeling of recognition in the smell, stirred something inside him that he dared not look too closely at.

Nearing the edge of the cliff Sesshomaru looked down at the bottom, then he looked up at the much higher cliffs above knowing that she had fallen from far above him. The scent of death clung to the chasm below. Jumping down he knew whom had fallen from these cliffs the scent of her was everywhere, he just hoped it wasn't too late to bring her back.

AN: Okay Just so every one knows I do not condone suicide.