Yes, I know that everyone get scared. It isn't fair, but that's how it is. The only thing I can't comprehend thought is: What happens when you're the scary thing? When you tell someone you love this, and all they know is that you are what nightmares are made of. In all the stories their lovers take it so well, but in my life, people forget everything up to that point. Once the word "werewolf" comes out of your lips poof your a monster. I just wish sometimes that life was like a fairy tale, but for now my shaking hands try to grip the steering wheel.
I was still in shock
from the rejection I had just received, the one at which point the
love of your life no longer wants you. I never knew that two
words could end your life and throw you into such a spiral of
depression. "Get out!" She had told me. I have
never hurt so badly in my entire life, all one hundred years.
I
shook my head and tried to steady my hands. Breath in,
breath out... I told myself and the shaking stopped.
I pulled out of her driveway and she watched me from the window,
and I stared back with tear filled eyes. Just yesterday she had
told me, "Nate, I'm in love with you." at which point I had
decided secrets shouldn't be apart of our relationship. So I
came clean, now I remember why it's a secret, people are terrified of
us.
Once on the highway I made my way back toward the
house, just to be pitied by the rest of the Cullen's. I was
suddenly envious of Edward, he had Bella. She had accepted
him for what he is. Why couldn't Alex do the same for
me?
"Uggghhhh!" I yelled and my car shuck. I
pulled over on the side of the road and got out. I put my hands
behind my head and tried to walk off the emotions that were flooding
my body. I leaned against the side of my car and closed my
eyes.
The darkness helped calm me down and I slid to the ground
as I started to sob into my hands. "What was I thinking
telling her the truth?" I asked myself and waited for an answer
from this cruel, cold, cold world. All I got was a harsh breeze
and the sound of cars on the road.
I starred up at the sky as if it held the answers; it didn't. Only a wall of gray looked back at me, I was so confused. How could one event lead to so much? I didn't have an answer for that so I just back in my car with red ringed eyes, and tried to focus on the road.
My phone vibrated
inside my pocket and I questioned whether to answer. After two
more rings I dug my phone out and looked at it before answering.
"Hello?" I asked and switched lanes.
"Nate, hey. I was wondering if you were free tonight."
Of coarse someone would ask me, of coarse forcing me to spill about
Alex.
"Ya, I guess I am."
"Oh is Alex out of town again?"
"Nah,
she dumped me."
"Aww, poor Nate!"
I stiffened and tried to ignore the pity in her tone. "Well
if you need a pick me up, me and some of the guys are going skating
and out to eat."
"Sure meet you at
the spot?"
"Like always." She
said and then the phone fell silent. I thought about calling
Alex, just to see if she would reconsider.
The
phone rang a couple times then there was a voice on the other end,
"Hello?"
"Alex-"
"Nate, I don't want to talk to you now or ever again."
"But why?"
"You're a monster,
Nathan."
"You didn't even let me
explain." I whined and she seemed to find it funny.
"Explain how you will try not to kill me?"
"We don't hurt people!" I yelled.
"Really?" she asked with a harsh sarcastic tone.
"Yes, but I suppose you don't care."
"You're right, I don't." Then she hung up. I had
blown the only chance I had ever had to explain things to her.
"UGGHH!" I groaned again while banging my head against the
steering wheel, then pulled into the drive way.
"What up dude?!" Emmett yelled happily.
"Please kill me." I pleaded as I walked toward him.
"Please end everything now."
