Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate Atlantis of it's characters but I do own the poem at the beginning.

Note: This one started off as a drabble and now…

My All

If I should die while you sleep

Do not mourn; do not weep

Just know that my watchful gaze

Will be with you until the end of days

And I know a time will come

When we will be forever as one

-Written by johnliz4ever


Elizabeth watched as a probe was sent for the Earth Stargate.

Visuals came up in the screen in front of them and Elizabeth stared at what she was seeing. Atlantis was still there, she knew what that meant though.

She closed her eyes and allowed a tear to fall from her eyes.
John who was standing next to her looked down before looking at Colonel Caldwell and General O'Neill.
They both nodded and John closed his eyes.
He turned to Elizabeth and wrapped his arms around her tightly. He placed his cheek against hers and whispered.

"I have to do this Lizzie, I'm coming back to you, I promise"

Elizabeth nodded as tears fell freely from her eyes.

"You better come back"

John pulled away from her and placed his lips on hers gently.

"I will always be with you"

He cupped her cheeks and gave her one last kiss before following Colonel Caldwell into the 'Gate room.

Colonel Caldwell stepped onto the ramp in front of the military team.

"You know the drill; stop the Wraith from reaching Earth and this galaxy. We know that Wraith may be in the city but thanks to our scientist who disabled the shield permanently, we should be able to get in without any problems. Once there we will retrieve any technology we can, only engage the Wraith if they see you, we don't want a bloodbath and then myself and Colonel Sheppard will set the self destruct. I won't lie to you, they may be a chance we won't get back, if it turns out that we have to use the ZPM to defend ourselves we will. I'm going to give you all one last chance to back out"

The whole military assembly stayed still and Caldwell nodded at John who stood in front of them.

"Myself and Colonel Caldwell will go through first. When we are safely through, Dr Weir will give you the command to go through the 'Gate"

John and Caldwell grabbed their equipment and walked up the ramp to the Stargate. John hesitated as he stood at the foot of the event horizon. Caldwell turned to him.

"You can still back out Sheppard. I won't think any less of you"

John knew what he meant and was touched by Caldwell's concern.

"I have to do it. I know it, you know it, Elizabeth knows it"

Caldwell nodded.

"God speed son"

John turned round and looked Elizabeth one last time before stepping through the event horizon with Caldwell.

Elizabeth watched from the control room as John stepped through the Stargate. She wanted to cry but didn't allow herself, she knew she had to be strong.

"Elizabeth, it's clear. Send through the team…I love you"

Elizabeth covered her mouth to keep back the sobs before whispering.

"I love you too"

Elizabeth walked over to the microphone and sighed for a moment before speaking.

"Best of luck out there. Move out"

She watched as Aiden Ford walked up the ramp leading the team to the Stargate, he turned back to face the team for a moment before stepping into the Stargate.

She watched the military walk through the event horizon, as the last member walked through the Stargate shut down and Elizabeth buried her head in her hands fiercely fighting back her tears.

Rodney watched as the woman he though of as a sister broke down into tears, he saw Teyla walked up to her, wrapping her arms around her trying to fight back her own tears and fears that she may never see Aiden again.

Rodney walked over to them and wrapped his arms around both of them.

1 week later

"It's been a week Jack. One week and we haven't heard anything."

Elizabeth slammed her hands hard on the desk and Jack jumped back slightly. Elizabeth sighed and sat back down in her chair opposite him, slouching slightly.

Jack was sympathetic, he was. He wanted to know as much as Elizabeth what had happened to them, but he knew it was more personal for Elizabeth.

Jack sat forward and looked at her

"Elizabeth…I can't imagine what you're going through and, I know this sounds selfish, but I hope I never have to feel what you're going though, but we never had a time frame on how long this mission could go on for. Just give them time Elizabeth."

Elizabeth nodded, stood up and left his office. When she was gone Jack sighed.

She was a mess.

He stood up and paced about. He'd hate to think what she'd be like if 'the team' didn't come back.
But he knew it was much more than just the team, sure she'd be upset if they didn't come back, but Jack knew her despair was for John. She was mad about him, she wasn't dependant on him but she did need him.

2 Days later

Elizabeth rolled onto her side and sighed. The beds in the SGC were not the most comfortable in the world but she wasn't leaving the SGC until the team checked in or came back. She ran her fingers through her hair, deciding that sleep wasn't going to come she rolled over and turned the small bedside light on. As she sat up, she was shocked by what she saw.

"John?"

John put a finger across his lips.

"Shhh, I shouldn't be here. I'm suppose to let you sleep"

He walked out of the shadows of the room, over to were she was sitting on the bed. He sat down next to her and ran his fingers through her hair.

"Why didn't they call me?"

John smiled and placed his hand on her cheek.

"I told them not to. I wanted to talk to you without everyone there."

John cupped her face and kissed her deeply.

"I've missed you so much"

Tears fell onto Elizabeth's cheeks.

"I've missed you to. I've been so lonely and lost with out you"

John smiled and wrapped her in his arms.

"I will always be with you"

Elizabeth could feel the warmth of his skin as they touched. She ran her fingers through his crazy wild hair and moaned.
John laid her down and kissed her. Elizabeth ran her fingers down his back.
They eventually pulled away from each other breathless. John moved to her side and turned the light off, he then snuggled next to her and kissed her cheek.

"Elizabeth, when you wake up look in the cupboard, underneath those blankets. There's something there I want you to have"

Elizabeth looked at him slightly confused.

"What is it?"

John placed one of his fingers to her lips.

"Everything will be clearer in the morning."

The next day

Elizabeth woke up the next morning, cold and alone. She sat up, the right side of the bed, where John had been was smooth and no trace of his warmth was there. Elizabeth shook her head; he must have gone already.

She stood up and began to get changed until she remembered what John had told her last night.
She walked, smiling over to the cupboard and opened it. She moved the blankets and saw a small box with a note attached.
She picked up the note and read it

Elizabeth,

If you're reading this it means I'm too late and you've already found it.

Open the box; I think you'll know what it means.

All my love

John

Elizabeth nervously opened the box and gasped at what she saw inside.

It was a beautifully stunning white gold ring, it was gorgeous by itself but in the middle was a beautiful pink diamond. Elizabeth was reduced to whimpers when she saw it. It was amazing.
Elizabeth smiled and looked down examining the ring more closely. She placed the note on the table next to her as she did she saw that there was more writing. She picked it up and read it.

Okay, just in case you don't get what this is I'll ask.

Elizabeth Weir, will you marry me?

Elizabeth slowly slid the ring onto the fourth finger of her left hand. It was a perfect fit.

"Yes John I will"

She looked at the ring and was about to head out to find John when there was a knock at the door.

"Come in"

An airman came into the room

"Ma'am, you're needed in the briefing room"

Elizabeth turned round and smiled at the Airman.

"I'll be right there"

She quickly placed the blankets back into the cupboard and left the room, leaving the box and the note on the table.
Elizabeth definitely felt better today. John was back, the team was back and they could all finally get on with their lives.

As she entered the briefing room she saw Jack, Teyla, Rodney and Caldwell all sat down. Aiden was stood with his back to her looking out of the window.

They all looked gloomy and Elizabeth figured something bad must have happened.

"What's going on?"

Teyla looked up at her first, tears singing her brown eyes. She stood up and walked round to Elizabeth taking her hands.

"Please come and sit down"

Elizabeth nodded and followed the Athosian woman to an empty seat. She looked around at the people with her.

"Can someone tell me what's going on?"

A voice from behind her, which she knew was Aiden, began

"We had to use the ZPM to power the shield; we've spent the last few days trying to find a new ZPM. We found one, but the planet was highly populated with Wraith. We thought it was worth the risk…"

Elizabeth couldn't help but notice how Aiden's voice was cracking

"…we got the ZPM and started back, but we came under fire and some of the team, including myself, Colonel Caldwell and Colonel Sheppard were taken…"

Elizabeth couldn't handle Aiden's stalling anymore.

"Aiden, cut to the chase"

Aiden lowered his head. He had to tell her this to her face; he left the window and walked to the table, taking a seat next to Elizabeth.
She could clearly see that he'd been crying, his eyes were red and puffy.

Aiden took one of Elizabeth's hands and drew his thumb over the skin. He looked down at their hands before facing her.

"Elizabeth…John didn't make it"

Elizabeth shook her head and smiled

"He did, he…I…"

Tears began to fall from Elizabeth's eyes

"He came to see me in my quarters last night. He's alive"

Aiden shook his head and held her hand tighter.

"He died last night Elizabeth, in one of the Jumpers. He ascended"

Elizabeth shook her head again and looked down at her free hand.

"No…no he…he told me where to find this"

She showed him the ring and Aiden looked at it shocked.

"He was going to ask you to marry him, when we got back"

"He told me last night that he had a surprise, he told me to where to find it. There was a note"

Aiden closed his eyes allowing tears to fall from them

"I'm so sorry Elizabeth"

Elizabeth stood up and walked away from the table, looking at her friends.

"When did you get back?"

"This morning"

Elizabeth walked over to the window and turned her back towards them. They all looked away; all sensing she needed a few moments. They jumped when they heard her bang on the glass.

Teyla immediately stood up and walked over to her, grabbing Elizabeth in her arms and holding her. Elizabeth resisted at first but eventually broke down and placed her head on Teyla's shoulder. Sobs racked her body. Teyla slid her hand though Elizabeth's hair and gently shushed her.

Teyla turned her head and looked at the men in the room.

They understood her look and left the room leaving the two grieving women alone.

TBC…