Shattered: A Scholar Oneshot

by ScholarlyBAMF

A short oneshot, T for paranoia, where Scholar reflects on the confirmation of the loss of her mother, Romana, and her planet. Tie-in to my story, THe Last Time Lady, so read that first.

Shattered

AN: I wrote this in honor of an anonymous reviewer who wanted to see Scholar react to her mum's death. I didn't realize I forgot to post this! *face-palm*

Disclaimer:*sobbing* I don't own Doctor Who!

I'd held it together for the entire time with Jenny, the Doctor, and Clara, even throughout sparring with Jenny. Now that they were all gone, though, I could let go. My mother was dead, the silence in my head was deafening, and I was cracking into pieces.

My mother and I weren't very close, because Gallifrey is much more formal than human cultures, but she was still my mother. I knew, instantly, when the Moment, as the Doctor called it, was used, because of the silence in my head. The utter lack of all but the bare threads of telepathic connections had me a wreck for about a century, but I had hope that maybe, somehow, my mother was alive. Even though the Doctor had broken it to me gently, I still was shattered.

Though, the worst part was how. The Time Lords died of their arrogance and xenophobia, their refusal to do anything but watch until they were forced to intervene with the Daleks. Their arrogance devolved into madness in the horror of the TIme War, and my mother was deposed. She, and a few others, had the Doctor be the one to survive, and carry the guilt. I don't blame him, but the loss of them all is staggering.

All my friends in the Academy, gone. All my teachers, all my relatives, everyone in the Prydonian Chapter, they all burned with Gallifrey. All because of those damned Daleks and the Time Lord's madness in bringing back Rassilon. Everything I knew and loved was gone, and all I had left that connected me to my mother was my beloved Beauty and her best friend, the Doctor.

When the Doctor gestured and spoke manically, it was a clever mask that hid the pain in his eyes. When River Song was mentioned, it was like her name sliced open old wounds, and the pain was visible. River Song was all the Doctor needed to stop hurting and heal, and I couldn't leave all I had left of Gallifrey burning to ash inside.

Review if you like Scholar having a relatively human side.