A/n: So I can't think of what'll happen next in my other stories. But this one came up. I replaced some characters like "Evie" is really my best friend, and the guy (who is Steve) is the guy we both like. So yeah. OH! And Antigravity is just a local hang out for the kids in my town.
Disclaimer: I do not own the Outsiders.
I'm a terrible, terrible friend.
I feel absolutely terrible inside. I feel like somehow I betrayed you. And You have every right to hate me right now. You can go ahead and hate me. I'd hate me too.
Evie, I'm so sorry. I don't even know what happened. It's like one day, I was so set on my feelings for Noah, and then my heart was just like "Nope, sorry. You like him now." I don't know. I guess it was somewhere in between, our silly conversations, talking all night and us making up random words. I guess it was when I realized that he thought I was funny, and cool, that I felt excepted. I didn't even know what was going on until tonight. I just clicked.
He doesn't know anything about me liking him though. He probably thinks I'm just his friend. And that's okay with me. I don't even know why I came to liking him so much.
But, Evie. Do you remember that day, when we swore on our lives we'd never lie to each other? And the next day we pinky swore? Yeah. I do. And that's why I'm telling you this. It's probably all dramtic and over exaggerated, but I think that if I'm going to tell you the truth, I'm going to tell you all of it.
Yeah, that first night we hung out at AntiGravity, and we sat there, me being all crazy, and you guys laughing, I did think he was cute. But at the time, I was so sure of my feelings for other guys that it didn't even matter.
And then I guess, like I said before, that after all this time we spent talking to each other, I've just grown to liking him. Gurrl, I'm so, so, so, so, sorry. You have every right to hate me!
And what kills me the most is that I have all these other guys, and you don't. He was always yours, always. And I am a terrible person. Why, HOW could I do this to you? I feel like I am the worst person in the world. And now we've had our first fight, and over a stupid boy. And I should have even thought about him in that way in the first place. I am really truly a boy-stealer.
And, the biggest thing is you've had all these problems, and all these hardships this past year and you've had to go through lots of things that I could never imagine. And I had to be a shitty best friend and even for one second think about the your guy like that.
I am a terrible, terrible best friend.
I think I'm going to hell.