This one-shot was originally written for FabianNina4eva4568's Fabina Contest. It's a cross between a journal of Nina's point of view, and just regular-old Fabian's point of view. Hope you all enjoy!

August 27, 2013

Nothing feels right anymore.

Ever since leaving England, I've felt... not like myself. I moved back to Cleveland, and everything seemed normal, I guess. Gran was beginning to become well again, and I was with my old friends, but I really missed everyone at Anubis.

One day, at a café, I met Ryder. He was really cute with caramel brown hair, sky blue eyes, and slight tan. I decided to get his number, to kind of prove to myself I was over Fabian. After about two dates, we became a couple. But, he was really different from Fabian.

For one, we never did friendly outings. We just did dates. He also called me hot. All the time. Fabian never called me that. He would always call me beautiful. My dates with Ryder were also less romantic than my dates with Fabian. Fabian would almost always go all out with candles, roses, and music; but even if we were just studying I was happy. Ryder would take me out to casual restaurants, the movies, or a make-out session in his car. I never felt passionate about any of that.

Oh, that's another complete difference. Ryder would always make-out with me. He never, ever just gave me sweet kisses or hugs. it almost seemed as if he was just using me to make-out with. Fabian however, would only kiss or hug me sweetly. Never anything really apart from that. We shared an intimate, truly loving relationship that I could never feel with anyone else... No. I'm over him, right? I told him he needed to move on. For all I know, he could be dating anyone else in the house now.

But what about him?

I mean, what if he thinks I hate him now, or that I moved on... wait, I did. Well, not really. Truth is, I can't shake him from my mind. Especially after writing these things, comparing him to Ryder, I realized that he is not just better than Ryder, he is also my soul mate.

Nina

August 28, 2013

Today was exhilarating. I decided that I needed to leave Ryder, but in the nicest way possible. That ruled out "Listen, I am still in love with my ex, who is a better boyfriend than you." so I resorted to completely telling him what was on my mind. I hoped he would understand, and do what would make me happy, but I was so wrong.

"Hey, Ryder." I said, approaching him in our typical date spot, Olive Garden.

"Hey babe." he replied, getting up to kiss me passionately on the lips. I winced inside, just now realizing that I felt nothing from these kisses.

He sat back down, not even bothering to pull out my chair for me, and began to look over the menu.

"Listen." I breathed, "I... have something to tell you."

He sat up in his chair. "I guess the food will have to wait," he sighed, "What is it?"

"Uh... I don't know how to put this..."

"You're not pregnant are you?"

"What?!" I spat, "No! Not with you!" I froze.

Ryder looked at me with hurt in his eyes, "So you're cheating."

"No! Listen... I said not with you because I realized... that I still have feelings for my ex."

"Fabio?"

"Fabian," I replied, rolling my eyes internally.

"So that's how it is isn't it?" Ryder suddenly yelled.

"What?" I croaked.

"You come here, get my number, and then two months later break my heart by saying you still like your ex."

I stood up, my face heating up with fury. "Break your heart? You actually loved me? I thought you were just..."

"Go on." Ryder said smugly.

"Just... using me as a make-out puppet!"

People around the restaurant gasped. Oh no, I forgot we were in public.

Ryder looked taken aback. "What?! I love you..."

Suddenly, a young woman with wavy chocolate-brown hair, a short pink dress, and high heels stomped into the restaurant.

"YOU LOVE HER?!" she screamed. "I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR FIANCEE!"

"Fiancée?!" I exclaimed, looking toward him.

"I-I'm actually 21." he stuttered.

My mouth opened to scream some...er... very offensive insults at him, as the woman did the same. Eventually, the police came and arrested Ryder, for dating a minor and causing disturbance in the restaurant.

I left stormily; I can't believe that jerk would date me, while he was engaged to another woman! I have to leave, I need to go back to England.

Nina

September 5th, 2013

I left the airport with Gran at about 7:30 in the evening, British time. She went to our hotel room, telling me that she was sure that he still loved me, and that everyone might accept me again. I know that they probably won't let me back into the school, but it's still the first day, and Gran did call first, so I'm hoping that some miracle will occur.

Nina

Fabian

I picked up another of Trudy's warm crescent rolls, as Alfie told another story about his summer with Willow. (A/N: I really don't ship Walfie, or Jeroy for that matter, but I'm attempting to make this true-to story.)

"And then Willow came out of nowhere and attacked me with my own Super-Deluxe-Special Edition-Mega Power Triple Bazooka Water gun!"

Willow giggled, clutching Alfie's shoulder, as everyone else faded into their own conversations. Suddenly, the doorbell rang.

"I'll get it," I called, but I doubt that anyone else heard it.

I opened the door to a very familiar face.

"Nina?" I whispered, making sure it was really her.

"I need to talk to you outside... alone."

Nina sat down on the bench, her eyes starting to tear up. I fought the urge to comfort her; we had broken up.

"I came to say, that I'm sorry I left like that... and I really miss you... and... and..."

"And what?" I asked.

"And I dated this other boy... but I found that he wasn't the same as you, so I tried to break up with him and... he got really mad and then his fiancée came in and I found out he was a cheater..."

"What?!" I exclaimed, "I swear, if I ever see him that I will..." I stopped, looking over at Nina, who was smiling.

"You still care about me?"

"I never stopped."

She leaned her head onto my shoulder, as I rubbed her back gently.

"I will always want to protect you, I will always care about you, and I will always love you." I whispered, as she turned her head toward me.

We leaned in, and shared the most amazing kiss of our relationship, with all the stars as witnesses.

And there we are, not the most traditional Fabina story, but I've wanted to write one like this for a while.

RavenclawAnubis