Just a little something I thought of while taking a shower.Not much but it almost made me cry.T-T BTW in the point of view of Jien.
My life is pretty simple.
I live with my mother and little brother who is five.Our father left us when my brother was just born and really I can't remember that much of him.But what you never knew will never hurt you right?
Anyway,I also have two of the greatest friends in the world.We can usually be found goofing off at some odd job that we all got together so we can support our families.Rinaco is 16 year old lighting demon who lives with his father and three year old sister.Their mother died while giving birth to his sister.My other friend,Rasako ,is the oldest of five and works to support himself really so his parents will have just a little bit extra money.They're both like brothers to me and Gojyo,my actual brother,and I wouldn't take anything to stop being their friend.
The village we live in is pretty good too.The summers are hot,the winters cold.The people are good too.They're all so kind and really help us,my friends,Gojyo and I, out a lot. Especially the village doctotor.When ever Gojyo is hurt he always lowers the price of the visit for me.I once asked him to stop and he just acted like that was what he always charged but I don't think he realizes he has his prices posted on the wall of the office.
But life,no matter how good you may tell someone else it is,always has a darker side to it.
For me it's at home.I do live with my mother but she's never home and when she is she's drunk.My little brother?We're only half related.He had a human mother.And do I care about that?No.But the world seems to have a problem with red haired children.My mother isn't excluded.Whenever she's home and drunk she usually takes her problems out on him.She says he the reason dad left and why she's so miserable.
Her words are nasty, cruel and lies.
And though most kids would hate their parents by now or at least distance themsevles,Gojyo still loves mother and is always trying for her love.Even on the numerous occasions where I've come back from work and have to pry her off of him,he says the blame is his,and he made mom do it.It's breaks my heart to hear him say that day after day.
But here lately he's done something that completely kills me on the inside.
He's given up hope.
There was once a time when,even though they were clouded with tears and sadness,his eyes still had hope in them.But now when I look at him,it's like looking at death warmed over.He's pale and bleeding and shows no emotion.He doesn't even cry anymore.But if I heard him right I think mom went off on him even worse for crying so he stopped.
And here lately I've been coming home to find my mom's home and just sitting on the couch,looking at things only she can see with a half-drunk mind,and Gojyo usually curled up into a ball in a corner of his room.And everyday when I go to check on him he looks at me with those hope-lost eyes and it makes me wanna cry;for me and him.
One day I hope mom will be able to look past what Gojyo is to see who he is and she'll welcome him with open arms and treat him as her own.Till then,I have to overcome the hardest thing in life.
Being able to come home and stare at my brother straight in the eye,and not cry.
Ok I have this bad habit of starting stories and then not finishing them till later so in other words that had a better ending but I forgot it -; Neway R&R!And tell me if I should add another chap,this time in POV of Hakkai.And If I do the 2nd one you'll find out how I can use him…Ninmyou Kanryou