Okay everyone. Welcome to my first fanfiction. This may only be a one shot thing or I just may turn it into a story. I'm leaning towards a story but, lets just see what my mind comes up with... Reviews are always loved.

Thanks! xo.

It's all your fault. You were the one that left him there. Why did you do that? What the hell is wrong with you?

My mind kept telling me the same thing.. over and over again. I couldn't get the thought out my head. The last words that he said over the intercom to Shaundi and I.

"Right on. I'll see you back in Still-"

And all I heard after that was shot after shot. A nightmare.. but, I was awake while it was happening. He's dead because of you. Johnny's dead because of.. me. I should have stayed with him while he was fighting off the Morningstar. Just picturing him getting shot in the chest and face repeatedly made me sick to my stomach. And then I thought to myself...

It should have been you! You should have been the one on that plane being shot at. Having blood come from your mouth, darkness approaching you every split second. Having a flash before your eyes and follow the bright light. Not Johnny. You should be dead.

I couldn't stop myself from thinking about it. I didn't want myself to stop thinking about it. I deserved the ache in my heart. It was a form of pain that I deserved. I wanted it to go on for days, weeks, months, years... the rest of my life. I wanted the regret to eat me alive.

I wasn't a dark person but, when it came to Johnny. There was no hope...

Johnny and I were friends since the Row. We would fight side by side. Taking out the Vice Kings. Those days was when I felt happy, content, like I found my match. My best friend. A person that could actually understand my craziness. Well, only because he was the same way. Whenever I was around him, I was lost for words. I was a fluent speaker. Never stumbled over my words. Never was nervous to speak. But, there was just something about Gat that made me... I don't know. Have a lost for words. He was perfect. Like one of those guys you see come out from an action movie or something. He was like Prince Charming of the Row. Well, in my definition.

Soon after killing Julius and Eesh dying, we were both emotionally and mentally hurt. We only had each other. So one thing led to another and yeah. We ended up having sex. Never really was in a relationship though. We were just 'friends'. Friends with Benefits Pierce and Shaundi would say. What can I say? We needed to get laid. Take out all of our frustrations between Julius trying to kill me, the Ronin killing Aisha and Carlos dying by the hands of that over-sized Mauro. And let me tell you, there were no regrets given after our night caps.

But, there was never a relationship between us. I regret that part. I regret it so much...

Eh, It'll probably just be a prologue for a story. So yup! Like I said REVIEWS ARE GREAT. Thanks again. Yes, I understand it's short.. my apologies.

- Nene xo ;*