The lost one.
Renesmee's POV
I put my hand over my stomach as tears rolled down my face. How could I have let this happen? I heard the door open down stairs and wiped the tears off my face. I lifted up my shirt and stood sideways to see if I was showing yet. There was a tiny bit of a baby bump but I could hide it. There was a knock on my door. I walked out of my bathroom and over to my door opening it to see Alice's face. She smiled up at me then notice I had been crying.
"What's the matter Nessie?" She asked me
"Nothing just something going on between me and Jake." I told her as she walked in.
I sat on my bed crossing my legs and grabbing my phone to check to see if he text back. I hadn't told anyone and the only people that were home was Alice, Carlisle, and Esme. I wanted to leave and never come back even if that meant leaving Jacob behind. I didn't want to be here in this house with my family while I have this baby. My baby was going to grow up like a normal child. Not around all of this. I looked up at Alice who was going threw my closet to find me something to wear to the bonfire tonight. I knew what I was going to do. I had to say goodbye to everyone then leave without them knowing.
"Hey Alice can you hand me that pen and notebook?" I asked her
"Sure sweetie." She told me and handed it to me
I started to write my parents names.
Dear Edward and Bella, I'm sorry to leave like this but I needed my own space to travel for a while. I love you all very much an I will call you all when I get to where I'm going. Thank you for all that you have done for me and don't try to come look for me because I won't come back. I plan on returning one day after I am done traveling. But I don't know when that will be. I hope you all understand this. I plan on getting a new phone plan for myself so you guys can't track me or fin out where I am. Again do not come looking for me because if you do then I will just stay gone longer. I hope you understand. I love you very much. I'm not doing this to get back at you or to hurt you. I'm doing this because I want to travel before I settle down. I will call and send post cards whenever I get the chance.
Love
Renesmee Carlie Cullen
I ripped that page out and folded it. I started to write another one to the family.
Dear family, Love,
I love you all and have so many memories with each and everyone of you. Grandma and grandpa, you both are always supportive and understanding. You two always help me out whenever I get into trouble and explain why I did what I did to my parents to make them understand. I love the lessons you two teach me and I wish you two the happiest years of life a head of you and I'm sorry I wont be apart of them for some time. I love you both very much. Emmet and Rose, we have some really great memories together. Emmet taught me how to be a kid when everyone else was trying to teach me to be an adult. Rose taught me to be strong and stand up for myself because I am the only person that can. She taught me it's good to relay on family and that family are the only ones that matter in the world. I love you both and Emmet you better keep pulling pranks and I promise I won't go rusty on you. Alice and Jasper, I love you both. Alice you taught me about good fashion sense, and Jasper has taught me how to control my emotions and how to control myself. I will miss all of the shopping trips and all the self defense classes with you both. I will miss all of you for different reasons but I will miss you all because of all the memories. You have made the first seven years of my life the best seven years anyone could ask for. I love you all very much. I'll keep in touch.
Renesmee Carlie Cullen
I ripped that page out and closed my note book. I folded the page and Alice turned to me with a smile on her face.
"Here you are! This is perfect!" She told me handing me my black bathing suit top and bottoms with a pair of kaki shorts and a white button up shirt with black Gladiator sandals. I smiled at her and nodded
"Now go on and get dressed while I find my water proof makeup for you to wear!" She told me and set the stuff on the bed.
She walked out of the room and I got up off my bed. I close and locked my bed room door. I slipped off my pajama pants and my boy shorts underwear to slip on my bikini bottoms and kaki shorts. I slipped my blue tank top off and threw it into the cloths basket along with my pajama pants and underwear. I slipped my blue bra off put on my black bikini top. I made sure it was tight and tied into place. I adjusted the top and looked in the mirror to see how big I was at the moment. It was a little bit more noticeable but I was almost 8 weeks now so it's not like it grew there over night like I did with my mom. I still looked about seventeen years old but my body is starting to fill out a bit more where it looks like I'm about to be eighteen. I grabbed my beach bag and opened my safe. I had over fifty five million dollars in there for emergency money. I also had a credit card that my family couldn't track me from because it is for a secret account that thy knew nothing about that had more money in it. I put the money in the inner pockets of the bag and zipped the pockets up. I put some towels in the bag and some water bottles. The girls and the children were going to play in the sun and the kids were going to play in the water. It was going to be 78 degrees today when the sun was setting. That's why most of the family were out hunting now. I heard a knock at my door and opened it to the smiling face of Alice. She walked in and handed me her makeup bag along with a suit case.
"What's that for Alice?" I asked her a little nervous
"You are spending the weekend with Jacob because I cant see you. So I wanted to be sure you were ready. Now let me do your makeup then you can pack." She told me pushing me into a seat
I sighed, I knew why she couldn't see me but she didn't. She opened up her bag and grabbed her water proof eye liner and put some above and below my eye lids. She took some water proof lip liner and lip-gloss and put it on my lips to make them a soft pink color. My skin was a little darker than the rest of the family's do to all my time spent at La Push. I smiled when I looked in the mirror.
"Perfect, not to much but not to little either. Amazing job Alice." I praised her
"Thank you Nessie." She said putting her make up away.
"Alice could you do something for me?" I asked her looking at her reflection in the mirror.
"Anything sweetie." She told me looking at my reflection
"I want you to open a beauties department. Where you can do people's hair and makeup and pick them out cloths. You, mom, Rose, and Esme could do it!" I told her and she smiled at me
"I've thought about it Nessie. Maybe in a few years or something I'll do it." She told me zipping up her bag
"Promise me you will." I told her turning around to look her dead in the eyes
She looked back at me and nodded. "Promise."
I smiled and nodded getting up from the chair. Alice packed my bag while I put on my Gladiator sandals and white button up top. I buttoned the middle button only then Alice put a white bandana in my hair to keep it out of my face. I hugged her really close and tight.
"I love you Alice." I told her
"I love you too Renesmee. Now Jasper put the cooler in the back of your jeep. It had water and fruit in it. There is even some alcohol for after all the kid go to bed and you and the pack are there. So you are set to go for the weekend. Good luck." She told me and I grabbed my bug eyed sunglasses and put on my locket.
"Jasper do you know where my camera is?" I asked him coming down the steps
"Yeah it's in the kitchen." He told me and I walked in there.
Esme was in the kitchen cooking and Carlisle was handing her the things she asked for. I saw my camera and grabbed it taking a picture of them. I smiled as I saw it.
"Could you guys get together and smile?" I asked them and Carlisle put his arm around Esme's waist and they smiled. I took the picture and nodded
"Thank you!" I told them an hugged them
I walked into the living room and saw Jasper and Alice dancing I took a picture of Jasper with his hands on Alice's hips, Alice with her hands on his shoulders and them looking at each other with smiles on their faces.
"Thanks guys!" I told them and then I ran upstairs to grab all of my memory cards and flash drives.
I grabbed my video camera and my home movies throwing them all into my over night bag. I had my suit case, over night bag, and my beach bag with me. I grabbed my Cullen crescent necklace and ring putting the ring on and putting the necklace in my pocket. I took one more look at my room before turning off the light. I closed the door and left. I walked out of the house and put everything but my beach bag in the back of the jeep. I got in and started the jeep. I took one last look at the house before putting my sun glasses on and pulling away. I headed to La Push to meet up with Leah and the other girls. When I crossed the border I could hear them howling threw the trees. I smiled and turned onto the dirt roads heading to the beach where everyone was. I killed the engine an sat there with my eyes closed for a second. I felt sick to my stomach. I was so lost in thought that I didn't hear Embry come up to the car.
"Hey Ness!" He yelled making me jump and yelp
He busted out laughing as everyone looked at us. Some of the pack guys were laughing as they were collection fire wood for tonight.
"Embry you almost gave me a heart attack!" I yelled at him
"Aww come on Ness you aren't going to die." He told me opening my door for me to get out
"I could have." I mumbled getting out
He closed my door and I was pulled into a very warm hug. I smiled and breathed in Jacob's sent.
"Hey nice of you to finally show up." He told me
"Yeah Alice kept me. So where is everyone?" I asked him
"They are all at Emily's if you want to head there. I'll make sure lover boy will be there in a bit after we all set up." Embry said
I rolled my eyes as Jacob punched him in the arm.
"I think I'll stay here and help out. So what do you guys need me to do?" I asked them
"Go and help Seth find fire wood. He takes too long." Jacob told me and I laughed
"I heard that!" Seth's voice was heard and we all laughed
I got a sharp cramp in my side and hissed grabbing it.
"You alright?" Jacob asked me keeping me from falling over
"Yeah, my stomach has just been bothering me all day. That's all." I told him as the cramp went away
"You sure?" He asked me
"I'm fine Jake. Now I'm going to go help Seth. See you in a bit." I told him and gave him a peck on the lips
"See you." He told me and I ran off into the woods and started to help Seth
"Nessie you aren't looking too hot." Seth told me
"Thanks Seth that's what every girl wants to hear." I told him rolling my eyes
"No not like that! Like you look a little sick. Are you sure you are up for tonight?" He asked me picking up some more sticks
"Yeah I'll be fine. I'm only staying till midnight then I need to head back home. Alice is taking me shopping in the morning." I told him
"Oh alright then. So how's everything going with you and Jake?" He asked me as we started heading back to the beach
"Going good. Why?" I asked him
"I don't know you just seem off I guess." He told me and we put the wood in a pile going back to get more.
We went into the woods five more times carrying logs out each time then the sun started to go down and the other wolves and imprints got here with there children. Clare ran over and gave me a hug.
"Hey kid! How's it going?" I asked her
"Good! So how long are you staying?" She asked me
"Until midnight. Alice wants me to go shopping with her in the morning." I told her
"Oh alright. Well come swimming with me!" She told me pulling me to where she had her towel and bag
"Hold on I'm going to go get my bag then I'll meet you in the water." I told her and took off my shirt and shoes putting them by her stuff
"Alright see you in there!" She told me and ran off into the water
I jogged back to my jeep and grabbed my beach bag. As I was reaching into the jeep I felt a chill go up my spine and a icy hand touch my arm. I yelped and kicked back. I hit them in the chest and they hit a tree. I got into a crouch and they hissed. I heard growling and then some of the wolves were by my side.
""Renesmee how rude of you." Alec said with a slight laugh
'What do you want Alec?" I hissed at him as Jacob stood in front of me in his wolf form while Embry, Seth, Leah, and Quil all stood on either side.
"Now ,now Renesmee that's no way to talk to a friend. We just have a letter from Aro for you." Jane told me as Felix pulled out a letter and I took it.
"Thank you now if you would please leave this territory it would be greatly appreciated." I told them
"As you wish dearest Renesmee. If you ever need help. The Voltaire are happy to help." Jane said with a small smile then they disappeared.
We stood there for a moment making sure they were gone and I let out a breath. Jacob turned to look at me and I gave him a small smile. He and the others went to go change back into humans and I grabbed my bag bringing it back to where Clair had her things. I put a towel on the ground and sat criss cross on my towel. I opened the letter and started to read it.
Dear Renesmee,
We know.
Sincerely,
Aro
That is all it said. My heart rate picked up speed and I started to shake. What do they know? How did they find out? My mind was racing and I felt someone touch my back. I jumped up startled to meet the eyes of Jake, Leah, and Seth.
"Hey calm down." Jake said pulling me into a hug.
I let out a shaky breath. And Seth took the letter from my hands reading it out loud.
"We know. What do they know?' He asked
"I'm not sure. I mean it can't be something that I've done because I've done nothing wrong." I told them
"This is the Voltaire we are talking about. They could try to frame you for something." Leah told me
"Let's just not worry about it. We have the rest of the weekend to worry about it. Let's just enjoy tonight." I said
"Nessie's right. Come on let's go swim." Jake said
'Can we go dive?" I asked him with a smile
'No." He told me
"Please Jake! I really want to go cliff diving!" I told him
"Ness you can get hurt. We can't. I don't want to put you at risk." He told me
"Either you take me or I'll just go by myself." I told him
"Fine we'll take you." He told me I jumped onto him raping my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek
"Thank you!" I exclaimed happily.
We went diving until the sun started to set then we swam to the shore and ate hamburgers and the fruit I brought. I took pictures of everyone with their imprints and kids. We did a huge group photo with everyone in it. Once it was getting dark we started the fire. We turned the radio on and the wolves ate the rest of the food. Us girls hung out and I took more pictures. I turned on my camcorder when the elders came out to tell the history of the tribe. When some of the people left and the elders were gone I told them I had beer in the jeep. Seth looked at me for a second.
"What?" I asked him
"You have beer in your possession? How the hell did you pull that one off?" He asked me
"Alice had Jasper put it in there for the pack and whoever else for when the younger ones were gone." I told them
"Remind me to tell Alice I love her next time I see her." Leah said with a smile
"Yeah, well I will go grab it." Embry said and he got up and jogged to my jeep
Seth took my camera and I looked at him as he snapped five pictures of me.
"Seth what are you doing?" I asked him
"Now come on Ness you have taken pictures of everyone all night now let me take some of you. Now Jacob put your arm around her. Yes like that and you both smile. Say wolf!" He said and we laughed as he took the picture
I looked at Jacob smiling and he looked at me. We looked at each other smiling and then Seth took another picture. Jacob kissed me and then there was a flash and we pulled apart.
"I love you Renesmee." Jacob told me
"I love you too Jacob." I told him and felt myself get teary eyed
"Hey what's wrong?" He asked me
"Nothing, just not wanting to leave." I told him a tear slipping down my face
"Aww is Ness going to miss us for those hours of shopping she is doing tomorrow?" Seth asked
"Yeah I'm really going to miss you guys." I told them
"Hey it's not like your going to be gone forever, just a few hours then you can come back and see us." Leah said and Embry came back with the case of beer
He passed it out to everyone, Seth, Leah, Quil, Jacob, Sam, Emily, Paul, Jarred, Danny, and himself. He went to hand me one but I said no.
"Wow I've never seen Ness turn down a chance to drink before. What's the occasion?" Quil joked
"I have to drive." I told him
"You could just run home and then come get your jeep in the morning." Jacob said
"I'm not going home..." I stopped catching myself "Right away. I have a few stops to make." I covered up
"Where are you stopping at?" Leah asked me taking a swig of her drink
"I have to stop at the store then somewhere else." I told them
"Are you sure you should be out running around while vampires are running around?" Emily asked me
"Yeah I'll be fine." I told her with a smile
"Alright well I think we all better get home before it starts raining.' Sam said as thunder cracked threw the sky
"Yeah same. Well bye Ness!" Seth said giving me a hug
"I'm going to miss you." I told him
"I'll miss you too Ness. See you tomorrow.' He told me and Leah gave me a hug
Then everyone gave me hugs as we said our goodbyes. I was sad because they all thought I would be back tomorrow. I watched as everyone got into their cars and felt ready to cry. A lump formed in my throat and Jacob pulled me to his chest. I wrapped my arms around him and he help me there. I pulled away from him and he kissed me softly on the lips. It started to rain and the kiss got deeper. He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around him while he moved his hands to my hips. The kiss got more intense and we went to his car to spend at least three hours of us time.
Rain softly fell onto the car windows. Jacob was asleep with his arms wrapped around me. I put my cloths back on as he took his arms off of me. I moved his hair off of his face and smiled. Tear started to run down my cheeks as I thought of what I was about to do. I took a picture of him sleeping peacefully. I smiled as is chest rumbled and he moved a bit. I kisses him on the lips and then again on the forehead as I cried harder. I hit send to send him my text message to him.
Jacob, Love,
I love you, with all of my heart and soul. I just can't stay right now. I'm going to leave for a while. I will call you once a day and send you letters. I love you so much. I hope you understand. I will tell you why I left when the time comes for you to know. Please don't be mad or upset. Just call me when you read this. I'm so sorry Jake. I love you and please just wait for me. I won't be gone long I promise. I love you.
Your Nessie
I kissed him one last time and got out of his car jogging to mine. My mom called when I got into my car. I answered it.
"Hey mom." I said sounding normal
"Hey sweetie I just wanted to know when you were going to be home tomorrow?" She asked me
"Ummm I'm not sure if I'm coming home tomorrow." I told her
"Oh alright, just give me a call tomorrow." She told me
"Alright I will." I told her
"Okay sweetie I'll talk to you tomorrow." She told me
"Alright mom, I love you. Tell dad I love him too." I told her
"Okay I love you too and I'll tell you dad. Goodbye Renesmee." She said and I hung up
I started my jeep and drove away. The car was silent and the only sound I could hear was the rain hitting my windshield as I drove out of forks. I didn't need to sleep so I could just keep driving without stopping. I saw the 'You are now leaving Forks' sign and stopped pulling over. I rolled down my window and took a picture of the sign and the 'Welcome to Forks Washington!" sign. I smiled sadly at the signs and drove away leaving my home behind me.
Well what do you guys think? I hope you will all review! -Thalia