First chapter, im on a roll today. I just cant stop writting (on my way home from new castle but on the bus) I hope you all enjoy the first chapter I have a few ideas where they can go and per usual it involves Janny! Im really sad they've spilt AGAIN! but I have no hope they will get back together! Anyways I shall stop ramberling but you know what to do. Comment/review be nice :D
I make snide comments towards him every day, he hurt me but I wasn't going to show it. He was still hurting me. My heart ached where his absence is. I never felt like this before, when Joseph left it hurt, it hurt a lot but that is nothing compare to how I feel now. Some morning I don't want to get up, I don't want to go to work, he changed me and I can't help but want him to keep changing me. I am in love with him.
I walked out of the lift onto my ward, straight down the corrie door with my steamy cup of coffee towards my office, normally on a Tuesday morning I would have a cup of hot chocolate for him but today I didn't. I would never have it again. After everything which has occurred between me and Jonny I knew we would never get back together. He was never going to forgive me, I cheated on him then slapped him why would he want that? I treated him like dirt! I'm always going to be alone. Ii could have just let him in but I didn't. I slumped down in my chair placing my coffee on the table and my bag on the floor. I was grateful he wasn't at the nurse station but I knew at some point I would have to see him. I wasted an hour sitting in my office remembering all of the moments between me and Jonny. I got up and went to do my ward round, this meant I had to spend an hour with Jonny and Tara Lo. How fun this should be. I walked over to the nurses' station. "Ward round St Trinian and Nurse Maconie… NOW" I wasn't in the mood to spend time with each of them by the time we finished I looked at the theatre schedule. 'Grate' I thought I had to spend an hour and half with Jonny in a theatre, alone. I turned around to see everyone at the desk "Don't you have other nursie jobs to do than assisting me in theatre nurse Maconie?" I raised an eye brow wanting him to say yes.
"No, no its perfectly fine Ms Naylor" he said getting up walking around me with a cheesy smile on his face. I knew he was trying to rub it in and it was working. He didn't know it but he knew how to wined me up and get under my skin.
"Very well, I will be in my office if anyone needs me" I said walking away, the tears came to my eyes and I tried my hardest to blink them away. I got into my office locked the door and fell to the floor I couldn't help the tears from falling.
Thanks,
Beth XO